your~one~and~only.

i long for your touch

[mydelusionsrunfar]

Hallo there, i figured i should make somewhat of an intro post. This is a sideblog though. 18+ enjoy your stay~

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i think my brain is too complex and different for an accurate mental diagnosis, seriously.

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I'm going to bed, i'm in a state where i think everyone hates my guts and wants me dead and thinks im creepy and disgusting. bye.

[mydelusionsrunfar]

"Protect your peace!!!"

Yes. At the cost of being avoidant and pushing everyone away. Standard. Now at least nobody can hurt me now that' i've locked myself in a cave

[mydelusionsrunfar]

Don't lie to me.

[mydelusionsrunfar]

Liar.

[mydelusionsrunfar]

You would never accept me

[mydelusionsrunfar]

I'll watch you forever

[mydelusionsrunfar]

My thoughts just aren't fitting in with the rest. I understand it now

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Been depressed since i was 14, i know what went wrong. Society did. I'm someone who cannot fit into this world. I will always be an outsider

[mydelusionsrunfar]

hey i haven't been hurt for 2 months now. Maybe self isolating is the way to go. Sitting here alone waiting .

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i'm sick of everyone

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the time is flying.

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it's so funny, i'm on a dead blog and i still feel like i can't speak my mind without being judged. ridiculous.

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deleted an essay, i'm never writing about that.

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i'd beg for someone to save me, but i know nobody is coming. only i can save myself, i spent my entire life trying to save others. i have nothing left for myself anymore.

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i always feel like i'm putting in energy into things that don't grow. it's always been that way, i always felt like i put in the most effort. because i did. now i'm tired, and impure and rotten. and i have no energy left in me to give out the same energy anymore. time isn't slowing down, i'm deteriorating mentally and physically.