My Dissociative Diaries

adult, autistic, female (she/her)

[saveyoursxlf]

[sunburnt-brian]

[heavensghost]

shame is sharp, and my skin gives so easy

[flowerytale]

Clarice Lispector ― The Passion According to G.H.

[imnook]

[theinkbleeds]

Taylor Swift, 'tis the damn season

[just4g1rlyth1ngs777]

[prettyp1nkmushr0oms]

children aren’t seen as full human beings and that’s a problem btw.

[cutiechocolatedroplon]

bc why are u hitting ur child and screaming and cussing? they’re children, they’re supposed to be treated with the same respect u would give another adult?? they wouldnt put their hands on a coworker either. children are pure and are supposed to be treated gently and delicately. then u wonder why ur children hate u. i could go on and on abt this.

[sprinkledsalt]

I know this might make people mad, but absolutely refusing to even attempt to treat your mental illness, and instead just endlessly inflicting your unmitigated episodes on the people around you, is abusive. Your loved ones are not stress toys that you can just squeeze every time you feel bad. It is bad if someone says your repeated behavior is hurting them, and you take no steps to change. I know damn well that you can’t always help how your brain acts, but I’ve also spent a lot of years trying to stop my spiraling brain in its tracks, work on strategies to calm down, and consider the impact I’m having on others, because I grew up in a household with people who have the attitude of, “I have the right to consume all the attention in the house and drain your energy every single day because I feel miserable, and you’re the bad guy if you say that I’m making you feel bad and that I need to get help. I can treat you however I want because of my anxiety.”

[koiagain]

Being 11 was terrible i would not wish it on anyone

[heinousier-bitch]

Strong contender for most depressing thing Charlie Brown has ever said

[aw-tysm]

Some autistics have an odd view on what a special interest within autism actually is, and it's a very damaging take.

Special interests within autism can cause clinically significant impairments in one's life.

Special interests can borderline obsession and addiction and compulsion. They can even run inline with addiction, obsession, and compulsion.

Special interests aren't always knowing everything about it, researching it, and infodumping, or engaging in it in multiple ways.

Sometimes autistics don't know much about them, some will not research them, some autistics won't infodump about them. Some autistics only every engage in their interest in a very restricted and fixated way, a very limited way.

I honestly think some autistics get special interests and hobbies mixed up. You are allowed to have hobbies you are very passionate about, love to talk about, and have a vast knowledge on them. There are many allistics in this world who have hobbies just like that and with such an intensity.

Special interests for autistics aren't always cute and quirky and fun. They can be damaging and impairing, and cause stress/anxiety. They can be inappropriate, dangerous, or bad.

[contemptible-scoundrel]

it would be so good if something nice happened to me

[contemptible-scoundrel]

probably feels good as hell to be anything to anyone

[contemptible-scoundrel]

[hasnt spoken to friends in two days] they dont like me anymore, theyve grown tired of me, I'm to be disposed of, theyve no need of me anymore, no point reaching out, I would just irritate them and accelerate my abandonment

[imcuteforever-deactivated202605]

Nobody gave birth to me I emerged from a lake

[contemptible-scoundrel]

my "suicidal hermit" lifestyle has been largely detrimental to my emotional wellbeing