this is what the edge of your seat was made for.

jaz or jasmin, sydney. i like cyan tinted photographs, cheap gigs, semicolons, oliver sykes, bring me the horizon, kinder surprises and the city.

[mylifesuckslolz]

“The day you decide to love yourself is the day you’ll conquer the world.”

—

phirebreather   (via wordsnquotes)

This this this this this

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“I go through phases. Some days I feel like the person I’m supposed to be, and then some days I turn into no one at all. There is both me and my silhouette.”

— Mary Kate Teske

[thefemmenist]

notes on loneliness 

[aestheticacadema]

simplistic

[aestheticacadema]

Art

[mylifesuckslolz]

last few days my whole body has been so sore and achy, so today i ended up getting a 90 min remedial massage and boiiiii it was painful but my body feels so amazing and pain-free now. assumingly gonna be sore tmr but trying to appreciate full mobility/no headaches for this brief moment... ahhh simple things.

[mylifesuckslolz]

I'm just not ready to let go of CBS. I've started my new job which should be amazing but it's just never going to be my family there.

It was good, it was good, and it was gone.

[malesefaytac]

[mylifesuckslolz]

So take it slow,

You will learn to be alone,

Cos love will always be a prison

While there are rooms in you where even you won't go.

They cannot make your heart their home.

You are yours, and yours alone.

[mylifesuckslolz]

I was clearing through some of the super old notes on my phone from years and years ago. Fun discoveries included a suicide note from 6 years ago, cute poems, and realising the cuts on my arms are 8 years old. Played Daughter, teared up, and moved on in 20 min. I don't recognise myself

(buried deep within there's a human)

[redlipstickresurrected]

Darrel Perkins (American, based Providence, RI, USA) - Danse Macabre, 2011, Linocut

[mylifesuckslolz]

"There is an incredible loss. There is a profound grief. And this is, in the end, after a long time and more work than you ever thought possible, a time when it gets easier.

'This is the Hour of Lead--

Remembered, if outlived,

As Freezing persons, recollect the Snow--

First--Chill--then Stupor--then the letting go--

Emily Dickinson'

There is, in the end, the letting go."

- Marya

[mylifesuckslolz]

i would just like it noted that last night in my dream the government was hunting me down to kill me (what's new) BUT then these aliens were like "come with us if you want to live" and i didn't accept initially but then i was cornered and going to die so when i said yes the alien put their hand on my head and everything in my dream went black and static and weird then i woke up.

[thoughtkick]

“Thank you for touching me. Some of the only moments worth living were spent with you. Not you especially, the collective you.”

— Henry Rollins (via perfeqt)

[thoughtkick]

“To get over the past you first have to accept that the past is over. No matter how many times you revisit it, analyze it, regret it, or sweat it… it’s over. It can hurt you no more.”

—

Mandy Hale

(via resqectable)

[mylifesuckslolz]

I hope that all the people I really connected with because of this platform are happy. I think about each of you every now and then. Texts, calls, and messages on here. Small talk, checking in, venting, meds, coping methods etc. Looking back it's pretty crazy that I have had deep connections with people I don't know, and now barely communicate with. Thank you for everything; good and bad.

I remember trying to talk you down, your phone call to me right before, your friend telling me that you left me a note. They found you hanging but they got you in time and you survived. So many traumatic things you spoke of and you made it. I think we spoke briefly a few years after, and you seemed well, and that was the end of our interactions. I hope you are still well.

The people I met in DBT group therapy and never saw again; I hope they made it. I hope things got easier for each of them. I hope that time was a glitch and we all got better. Wishful thinking. I hope you finished your degree, and found some kind of calm wherever you landed. I hope you have a job that you like and found someone who truly makes you happy.

Reflecting on the fact that it has been a pretty crazy journey with some of you on here. I feel like I am closing a really huge chapter of my life which was centered around negativity, mental illness, and self harm. It is really terrifying but I am, for the most part, happy. I have overcome so many challenges and changed so much that my past almost doesn't feel real anymore. I still glitch every now and then, but I'm probably not the person you're looking for anymore. I'm doing a lot better now. And I really hope that you are too.

//a goodbye of sorts//

//thank you//

[iambrillyant]

“i am finding my way back to myself again. slowly, patiently, intricately. i am finding roads in between my heart and my mind that connect. i am finding melodies that taste good on my soul. i stray and i take detours occasionally, but i am finding my way back to myself again.”

iambrillyant

[mylifesuckslolz]

"We'll always be a part of Elliot Alderson."