Pieces of Us

"We don't even ask happiness. Just a little less pain." -Charles B.

[myneverforever]

There is a kind of bliss that remains with our memories. A feeling that tells me that I was once happy. Sometimes I stay there a little too long just to feel once again. How do you let go?

just one second longer 

[myneverforever]

Within the compass of my heart, the arrow will forever guide me to you. I'll find you one day.

myneverforever

[myneverforever]

I want to write again but I'm scared I'll remember you too clearly.

the memories are still there 

[myneverforever]

They say love only comes around once. But i didn't know what we had was love until i was looking for you in everyone else's eyes. I didn't know what we had was love until every hand I held never felt right.

if only i could breathe the same air as you once again

[myneverforever]

In your eyes I was weak. Sinking was easier. It's true that I miss you and I wait for the day that your name doesn't taste like blood in my mouth. And then, maybe we can try again.

i can see the sky from the bottom of the ocean

[myneverforever]

It is possible that we weren't meant to share this life. Maybe in another time, another world, I'll find you and you will find me and the universe will sing.

you werent meant to read this but i hope you will

[myneverforever]

We could never be as happy as we wanted to be. I loved my hair blowing in the wind and you hated the windows rolled down. We were hopeless from the start. More destructive together, than apart.

hate to love you

[myneverforever]

I wish I could just forget everything between us. Yet, after all these years of disappointment, I still feel some sort of excitement when I hear your voice.

do you still hurt too 

[myneverforever]

I couldn't breathe suffocating under your shadow. You wanted all these things, that I couldn't give. And after everything has been said and done, nothing is left in the heartbeats in my chest. Yet I can still hear the echo of your name and feel my lungs burn remembering the way you smelled.

missing the feel of heartbreak in your eyes

[myneverforever]

The day my bloodied knuckles were only met with silence was the day that I realized that I deserved better. There are still days where I hesitate to say your name. Even after all these years, it still stings somewhere on the back of my hands when I remember the way your hand felt in mine.

i dare to replace you

[myneverforever]

I will light a match tonight. I'll watch the flames disappear into the sky. I can't help but wonder what went wrong. I'll never forget how you smiled through it all. Some days I can barely breathe. Hoping that you won't forget about me.

lyrics from a song i never wrote

[myneverforever]

And if life was supposed to be easy then maybe you'd still love me. But this world didn't have a timeline that included us. Maybe in a different life far from now there will be a you and me. And in that life, is where I will forever be.

mnf

[myneverforever]

I was told to never write things in stone because it will take years to erase. But I carved your name over and over again because I was sure it would be the only name I'd ever say. Oh how I was wrong.  And all of our memories became heavy stones too hard to carry, but too painful to let go.

mnf

[myneverforever]

And then I go to a dark place in my head. I realize that I can't change and that I can't move on. Yet you push and push and push till I'm falling off the edge of a cliff. And you're standing above, watching me bleed out. I really did try to hold onto us.

empty and alone once again

[myneverforever]

Before you left, you said we were a hurricane because I destroyed you and your soft edges. But the truth was that you were in the center of it all, calm and untouched. And I watched as everything crumbled around me.

myneverforever

[myneverforever]

This is what you do. You break bones and cut open wounds. And then you come running back with words of comfort. And I let you back in. Every. Fucking. Time.

youre gonna leave and ill be empty

[myneverforever]

You said you found someone new that you love. And I want to say that I am so happy for you. But do you ever think of me at all? Because there was a time when you said you loved me too.

myneverforever