if you need me i’ll be in my coffin

all my hair’s abandoned all my body, oh my agony;

[myorgansaremelting]

but counting down the days to go, it just ain’t living

<3 I go by asher

<3 I don’t care what pronouns you use to refer to me cause either way you’re talking about me so I did something right

<3 sweet transvestite

<3 moved here from transsexual, transylvania

<3 poem blog @poetrywhores

<3 bday is April 20th

<3 feel free to dm me or ask me anything

Tags I use

Asher says stuff - me talking

Asher’s spiders - posting when im high (if i remember to use it, no promises)

IMPORTANT NOTICE

I have Anorexia, Social Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, and Generalized Anxiety disorder.

I’m a dog, so I bite.

[myorgansaremelting]

my bone marrow is failing don’t be like me

[evilkaito]

i dont think whites understand how being white makes literally everything easier.

it effects everything.

being trans is easier when youre white.

being gay is easier when youre white.

being disabled is easier when youre white.

being a woman is easier when youre white.

being autistic is easier when youre white.

oppression is eased when you are white, as you get extra privileges, and your whiteness is seen as a positive characteristic that in some ways counter-balances your other forms of being a minority. whiteness controls everything.

you are automatically way more innocent in your own oppression as a gay, trans, disabled person because of your whiteness.

never forget this.

[raccoon-piss]

three things:

1. it’s true

2. white people get pissed when i bring this up/wear this shirt

3. the comments to this thread melted my fucking eyeballs seriously why the fuck are y’all like this

[lady-hibiscus]

white people you don’t need to say you’re white when you reblog this btw. you don’t even need to mention it btw

[innerchildabortionclinic]

a lot of critiques of Youth Behaviors should take into account we now live in a world where said behaviors can be recorded, posted online, and be seen all over the world, and this was not always the case. not only that, but outrage drives engagement on social media, so you're more likely to come across inflammatory content. it kind of creates an altered perception of reality

[martindykewood]

not to sound like a christian facebook mom but some of yall need to have grace in your hearts for the people in your lives or the people you pass once on the road and never see again like you literally need to stop assuming the worst of everyone and their intentions it is poisoning your brain. you can be careful and responsible without being a miserable person. it is possible i promise

[martindykewood]

you are a tar pit and you live this way because you choose to.

[martindykewood]

honestly i have been responding to some of these replies at face value bc i do also think you have a duty as a human being to be nice to people. but if you think this post is scolding you to be nicer to people then youve already lost the plot. this post is about how assuming that everyone you meet is hostile and wants to hurt you is bad for you. it ruins your life and it is a choice you are continually making.

[myorgansaremelting]

also like my bone marrow is super fucked. it’s barely producing anything at all.

[geewaysgreendayhoodie]

hey , happy birthday !!!

i miss you , hope you’re doing good , sorry i didn’t say happy birthday on your birthday , i know it’s the same as mine but i forgot my birthday this year lol

also , maybe mention suzetrigine to your doctor , it’s not in canada yet but might be good to mention anyways

hiii

sorry i forgot we shared a birthday i miss you too

what's that?

[myorgansaremelting]

it’s a selective Nav1.8 inhibitor , it only blocks that sodium channel so all it does is stop pain , it doesn’t produce euphoria or sedate you.

it’s been approved in america for a little over a year and it’s definitely got some problems , not with the drug itself , the problem is just that everyone is talking but no one is actually saying anything. like the purpose was supposed to be chronic pain but also apparently it’s getting prescribed for post surgical stuff? and that’s what people are focusing on?

whatever there is a line up of other potential selective sodium channel inhibitors , and suzetrigine getting approved is helping to move things along for the other drugs like it. maybe don’t mention suzetrigine specifically , just say that you’re interested in the potential for selective sodium channel blockers for pain.

or wait till something actually is approved in canada it’s up to you obviously. i just remembered it when i went to say happy birthday to you and figured i should mention it.

[myorgansaremelting]

i have early stage kidney disease

[parakeet]

if you go looking for doom and gloom all you will see is doom and gloom. if you go looking for reduced items at the grocery store you may find a littol treat

[skyscrapersanddandelions]

kids of color, you’re allowed to get a bitey when a white friend does something racist. literally 0 percent of people of color are obligated to be nice and palatable for white people. holding your tongue in the name of kindness doesn’t really do much in regards to stuff like this because white people are going to see you calling out their own racism as unkind anyways. white people, if a person of color comes off as aggressive while calling you out for racism, just fucking listen to them. they’re not coming from nowhere, and believe it or not: they know more about racism than you do! shocker, i know. just thickskin it, because it’s really not about you.

[skyscrapersanddandelions]

white ppl can rb but keep your damn mouths shut

[myorgansaremelting]

average hrv in the single digits is crazy

[myorgansaremelting]

i don’t think there’s anything left for me

the pain subsides

i am at peace

i thought a slow death would take a few weeks, or that i could pause the degradation of myself for several years and then let the slow death happen naturally when i stop being able to delay it

i’m at peace

i’d ask my mother and father for some sort of thing to show i qualify for palliative care, but i know that the process would be time consuming and it simply wouldn’t be worth it because it would disturb my peace a lot before it would have the opportunity to give me more peace

my mother and brother and father can see it

they acknowledge it

just not fully

i guess it’s hard to accept the death of your daughter progressing to a point where there’s nothing that could impact it.

because at one point there was things that could impact it

[deergirlsrituals]

ppl using chatgpt as their therapist or friend is a direct consequence of living in a society where ur basically guaranteed to get imprisoned if u talk abt being suicidal

[isuggestkillingyourself]

[tactfulsaboteur]

[myorgansaremelting]

googles overdose

fucks up at division

takes whatever number i get

dyscalulia won’t stop me!

and apparently neither will my central nervous system praying my rapidly decreasing judgment russian roulette doesn’t kill me

i pray it will

but at least

i’m praying

[myorgansaremelting]

so pretty but fucking disgusting

[plant-based-person]

had a fascinating english class that resulted in the notes header “the forcefeminization of victor frankenstein”

[plant-based-person]

what the people want, the people get

you see

my professor’s take is that mary shelley is feminizing victor throughout the novel, as a way of flipping gender roles and putting a male character through female experiences.

evidence as explained:

victor is creating life. he is putting his health at risk (spends two years with little sleep or socialization) to bring life forth into this world

his illness after he is shocked by the creature coming to life is akin to both ‘hysteria’ and postpartum depression

he pretty much swoons, let’s be honest

henry clerval, a man who has been characterized as manly and heroic, has to chase after damsel-in-distress victor and care for him as he convalesces 

afterward, he hides what he did and went through, for fear that others will label him crazy and emotional and not believe him. sound familiar?

Victor in general is more emotional than the other characters and is constantly tempering his reactions to not be seen as irrational 

the book does not otherwise have central female characters 

Also, Shelley’s mother died in childbirth. It’s interesting, then, that Shelley presents the creation of life as something horrific and damaging. She parallels Victor with her mother.

in conclusion, Frankenstein (1818) by Mary  Wollstonecraft Shelley is one of the first examples of mpreg in English literature 

[just-call-me-the-old-hag]