Rambling Garbage

Misc. stuff updated on Irregular and almost always far apart intervals

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Self Made, Self Raised

I didn’t really have a childhood 

I missed out on adolescence 

And now I’m the thing I’ve always had to be, an adult 

My only real regret is that my whole life I just wanted to be a kid

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Stagnation

no hopes no dreams only only ropes an screams

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Shout Out

Big shout out to my bot followers for always sticking with me, you the realest fake ones.

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Sporks the antithesis of intelligent design 

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Societal Decay

Kids these days just wanna morb instead of pondering an orb smh

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Premium

The word premium has been watered down by marketing teams to the point that it doesn’t mean anything anymore.

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Was playing a stupid comedy game; Thought one of the sadder routes was tragic. Things could've gone so much better in so many different directions but at the end of this branching route was a senseless death, gored to death by boars.

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It only gets worse

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So happy but so sad what a bitter sour revery.

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So many false starts, false happiness, and false love, but maybe this time will be different I think this time it will be better. This time I can be better. Everything has to be better this time. 

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Drawl

Manically depressive Erratically obsessive Internally progressive Innately regressive

Take a step forward Steppin up, steppin down Backpedal not movin toward Endin up 6 feet down

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Lonely Empathy

Your pain, my pain All the same Heres rain, here's Jane An open flame

Calm the counterpart Warm my broken heart A lot on the flat mind A lot like a flat line

I help you, to help me Deja Vu, Deja Vu I hurt you, it hurt me I used to, follow through

Space without a sun Race that cant be won Room without a friend Event none will attend

I want to help I care about you Don't want to help Don't care about me

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Bubbles

Pop a bubble, bubbles pop Bubble up, bubbles stop

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lonely

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Herbivore

Grass and leaf A gross relief Passive release Never to cease

The herbivore, is such a bore Covered in gore, decay mi amore

Aimless wanderlust, aimless wonderlust Pointless wonderlust, pointless wanderlust

Wander over yonder Never stop to ponder

To live, to eat To strive, to procreate

To ask why Is to die

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I burned my suicide notes

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I was manic and sad and wrote this

So show, no soul I'm cool, so cool A tool, a fool Highschool, cesspool

Like A B C, 1 2 3 Like way he be, wan' to be

Better than me, than me, than you

No slowen, leave me be

Me, myself, and I I shot me, myself Catch myself when I hang me Me, me, me By myself

I Wikihow noose knots Not a cry for help How do you cry out Will he, Will he

A note loose leaf With a noose knot

Fuck out my way, Fuck out my way Im in my way, Im in my way

Luck run thin, eat a buck Shot, blood all over Bathory slut Blood pumpin, heart open, veins open Open heart, open artery, deep cut

Surgical precision Practical decision Painful incision Vertical division

I have phenomenal depression