my heart's racing

Hi there! I'm Toni, 22-year old coffee-addict from Berlin. Working 24/7 as a motorsports journalist while also doing my Master's degree in Media and Political Communication. I basically need a place to geek out and release all my fangirl feelings so you'll have to keep up with Formula E, F1, racing in general, Shadowhunters, Matthew Daddario, Once upon a time,...

[inritum]

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

[500lettersforyou]

Please don’t fail me now. 11:11

[500lettersforyou]

11:11

[yars]

[supersexyawesomeness]

[everythingfox]

[dizzydaffodil-deactivated201408]

[stonersbeingsoldiers]

Holy shit, okay so this is hard to say because I don’t want 200 people going “what? you were going to? no you weren’t, you just want attention” but tonight I felt like shit, like utter shit and no one answered their phones and no one replied to my messages and just it got hard to be alone.. while scrolling down my feed I saw this and I just sat here for a good ten minutes deciding that.. you know what.. this is.. i can’t kill myself tonight.. so even if it doesn’t really go with your blog theme, I think you should really reblog it, because you could just save some messed up kid like me. Thank you, to the person I reblogged this off, you’ve saved my life and you don’t even know me. xxx if anyone ever wants to talk or some shit, and just no ones answering? well.. I have an askbox if you want it. I love you all pretties. xx

[skeletal-stoner]

~

[shatter-the-darkness]

There will never be a day when I won’t reblog this if I see it on my dash. It might just save someone’s life. I’m here for everyone, doesn’t matter if you follow me or not. If you need someone to talk to I will be there for you.

[apathetlc]

I got an anonymous message the day after I reblogged this saying that just because they read this from my page, they decided not to take their life. I want everyone to know. This stuff is real. It happens everyday. And i’m damn proud to say that i’m happy to save that persons life. If anyone needs to talk to someone. I’m here as well. No matter what race, culture, age, i’m here. And you can talk to me anonymously if you’d like

[besttblrbits]

how much is car insurance

[robbie-and-pan-blog]

just in case :)

[ninja-go-to-therapy]

In middle school a boy in my grade killed himself. I had almost never spoken to him and had no classes with him. His suicide still filled me with a greater sadness than I have ever felt. He was effectively a complete stranger to me, but that didn’t, and still doesn’t, matter to me. I ache every day for what could have been, for the rest of the life he never got to live, for the things he never got to discover.

Even if I have never interacted with you, I promise I care. You matter so much and I am begging you not to do it. You might not believe me, but it gets better. I love you so much. DM me, message me on anon, I don’t care what it takes, but please do not do it.

You have so much life left to live.

[inritum]

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

[500lettersforyou]

💛

[thepowerwithin]

“Be yourself. No, not the person that everyone expects you to be. No, not the one that you are pressured into being. But your TRUE self. Only you know who this individual is, so meet them, greet them, and stay close to them.”

— Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

[thehopefulquotes]

But who can say what's best? That's why you need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives.

— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

[stay-close]

Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.

— Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum

[thepowerwithin]

Do what ever it is you fall in love with and do it with great joy.

Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

[gedanken-feuerwerk]

“Das einzige , was ich bereue ist , dass ich zu lange gewartet habe. Man denkt im Leben ja immer , wenn ich das nächste Ziel erreicht habe bin ich fertig. Dann kann ich leben. “Wenn ich dann den Führerschein habe , ..” “Wenn ich mal verheiratet bin , ..” “Wenn mal die Kinder aus dem Haus sind , ..” “Wenn , wenn , wenn ..” Es kommt ja immer ein neues “wenn”.”

— Der Geilste Tag

[lovelysuggestions]

Lovely Suggestions Self Care Guide:

The self-care guide for those of us who feel completely lost.

1. Keep makeup wipes next to your bed for those nights when you just want to crash, and can’t bring yourself to get up and wash your face.

2. Give yourself personal goals that will improve your mental and/or physical health. You can start small, and work up. Maybe try eating fruits with every meal? or stretching each morning? or fitting a fifteen minute walk in the sun every day (tip: big sunglasses can cover your face so you won’t even need to get ready, and you’ll look fly as hell with no effort at all)

3. Let your friends and family love and support you. There are people in your life who want to help, but maybe they just don’t know how. Tell them how you’re doing, a simple “I’m having a rough week, can you come over?” text is enough. Just being with someone, even just to watch a movie on the sofa with, can make your days a little easier. Isolation, even when it feels good, only makes things worse.

4. Make time for yourself, and the things you love. Make a point of spending 30 minutes every day for the things that make you happy. Maybe it’s drawing, or watching youtube, or taking a hot showers and blasting music, whatever it is, make time for it.

5. Allow yourself to feel your feelings. Don’t push off how you feel, letting it build up will only make it harder. If you feel like garbage, sit down and let it all out. If you’re having a tough morning, take things slow. Then, when the time comes, give yourself a little push to get going and keep you from wallowing. 

6. If you’re happy, let that shit shine! Don’t let the good moments get washed away, hold onto that feeling. Listen to your feel-good songs, dance around, maybe post about it. Make those moments into memories, especially when they feel few and far between.

7. Keep a list of good things. It might seem simple, but when something good happens write it down, and look back on it on the tough days. Maybe it’s something nice someone said, a joke you shared with a friend, someone holding the door open for you, or your dining hall had tater-tots. Every time you meet a goal you set for yourself, big or small, write that shit down! Kinda like before, keep track of the good things so you can prove to yourself they still exist when you feel like there is only bad.

8.  You have unlimited phone-a-friends in real life, use them. Feel like everything is awful and you can’t do anything right? Days like these make the world seem dull, but your friends can give you a clear perspective and help ground you. Can’t get yourself out of bed to eat breakfast? Ask someone to bring you food. (Tip: You don’t have to feel guilty for asking someone to help you manage, everyone at some point in their life needs it!)

9. Keep a water bottle and healthy-ish snacks by your bed. Easy things, like veggie chips or dried fruit can help give you that boost to get out of bed, and even if it dosn’t, at least you’ll still be nourishing your body.

10. Structure your day. Especially if you’re in college, or you don’t have a 9-5 job. Sometimes the days can flow together, and it’s 7pm when you realize the day got away from you. Make a whole-ass schedule, and delegate times for studying, friends, work, chores, down time, etc. Not only will it help you manage anxiety because you’ll know when you’re going to do what, but it will help you feel more stable. (Tip: Be compassionate with yourself if you don’t stick to it exactly, rather than critical and self-depreciating. Take a deep breath, accept that you didn’t get all you wanted done, find another time to do it, and move on to the next thing)

[thepowerwithin]

“Smile because you are alive. Because it happened. Because you’ve learned. Smile because you are now stronger. You have evolved. You are a higher version of yourself. Smile because every day is a new beginning and a chance for you to shed your old skin. Smile, just because.”

— Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

[thepersonalquotes]

[thepowerwithin]

“You must find your why. That why that gets you up early in the morning. That why that has you staying up late. That why that keeps you going. If your why does not fill you up with a mixture of emotions, bringing with it both happiness and tears, laughter and anxiousness, eagerness and worries, then it is not your why. Keep searching until you find it.”

— Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

[inkskinned]

Actually life is beautiful because the sound I make while trying to breathe around hot food sounds like my dog trying to eat an apple. When I yawn my cat tries to put his face in my mouth like a little dentist man and when he yawns I put my finger in his obligate-carnivore trapzone and we both know he will not hurt me. When I do not fold my clothes, they do not hold it against me.

I am demonstrably sad, and lonely, and full of fear. But there are other people who will hold my hand, who will point out the hawk overhead, who will give you That Look in a public place. The other day at a coffee shop a child said "look! It's snowing!" so all of us strangers went to go look out the windows. It wasn't the first snow and it won't be the last but wasn't it lovely, like that?

How wonderful to live in a world where birds and frogs both say beep! How wonderful to have an ocean of beautiful sharks with their dinosaur teeth! How wonderful the moon and her changing face, how wonderful the bees and their dancing to communicate, how wonderful shrimp and their forbidden layers of vision! How wonderful, you, and what you will give the world! The way we love things enough to spend entire blogs devoted to them? How people will let me explain my Pokemon team to them? How we will both jump at the scare in the movie, how we laugh so loudly, how it feels to give someone your baking? How wonderful to be alive. I am sorry for forgetting.

This is the process of getting better. With wonderful people and wonderful strangers and wonderful friends: I am getting better, slowly. Thank you, whoever you are. In some way, you've been wonderful, and left a wonderful place in the world to ripple out to me. In some small way - isn't it beautiful - I promise, you've been helping.

[adarkerbeamoflight]

"How wonderful to be alive. I am sorry for forgetting."

[thepowerwithin]

To whoever is reading this, close your eyes just for a moment.

Remind yourself why you began this journey in the first place.

Reflect upon who it is that you are fighting for.

See yourself as you fight for your purpose, day after day, getting there step by step.

Remember your value. Remember your purpose. Look into your heart, and see your motivation. It overpowers all else.

Please stay strong, and believe in your journey.

[gedanken-feuerwerk]

“Das einzige , was ich bereue ist , dass ich zu lange gewartet habe. Man denkt im Leben ja immer , wenn ich das nächste Ziel erreicht habe bin ich fertig. Dann kann ich leben. “Wenn ich dann den Führerschein habe , ..” “Wenn ich mal verheiratet bin , ..” “Wenn mal die Kinder aus dem Haus sind , ..” “Wenn , wenn , wenn ..” Es kommt ja immer ein neues “wenn”.”

— Der Geilste Tag