I was thinking about how Xiaotan and Yanyan’s relationship in Bitter Water ended on a bad note because, in the end Yanyan isn’t Yue, but then it made me think.
In QotM, if Xiaotan and Yanyan tried to go to the Heart of the World together, would they be able to enter the house? Because, I can understand why Xiaotan can enter. He’s the creator of this universe, and the Heart of the World is in a sense a metaphor of his heart, so it’s pretty normal that he can enter into his heart (where he left every memories of the one he loved there) if he wants to.
And, in the game, you could enter with Yanyan as she was the substitute made to represent his lost love. So in a sense, when you played the game, you could considere that she was Yue.
But like you said in one of your Bitter Water post, Yanyan isn’t Yue.
So in a very angtsy way, it would make sense for her not to be able to enter the house even in QofM, because entering the house would mean letting people enter into Xiaotan’s heart, but Yanyan isn’t in his Heart because she isn’t his lost love, she’s just a substitute. So she wouldn’t be able to enter the house, because the real person Xiaotan has in his heart is Yue.
I mean, I don’t really know if it makes sense.
Anyway, I am in shambles.
Congratulations to the author.
myrielin, did you hack into my computer and find my Bitter Water outline???
Lol, jk, I know you didn't. Good eye! I was wondering when someone would bring up the Heart of the World. Yes, one of the biggest breaking points in their relationship was because YanYan wasn't able to enter the house. There were so many other things before and after this point, but this was the moment that Xiaotian realized that she wasn't his first love. She was YanYan. His first love was gone.
(She's never coming back.)
As you can see, Xiaotian has not grieved in a healthy way and transmigrating into the video game he created out of his grief is not helping.
I feel like grieving will be one of the major aspect of this fanfic *tearful laughter*. All that those two thought they had left behind will just be thrown into their face to deal with.
Also, though I can’t see this happen (thankfully), it would be terrible if Xiaotan and Yue ended up at one point at the Heart of the World before they knew about each other past life. In this case, if they see the house, then Yue could open the door because she’s his first love, and her soul is just in a new body. I mean, since he’s still in love with her, and her soul is here, the Heart of the world got to react to it in a sense.
And Yue just there and doesn’t realize the meaning of her opening the door. And Xiaotan is just there having the biggest whiplash of his life.
And then, her body would probably shift too. And hmm, yeah.
