Scale Wars

My - often failed - attempts to balance school, volunteering, life, fitness, and health.

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Again.

Well. I don’t even know how long it’s been since I gave up. More than a year, I think. I got all the way down to 160, while I was away in Ecuador. And now, I don’t even know, but I am somewhere in the realm of 180. Higher? I don’t want to know. It’s time to start again. I have goals. I just have to meet them. 1. Walk either to or from school every day (or do both!) 2. Attend bootcamp at least once per week 3. Cut out all pop 4. Get chips consumption down to 80-20 I’m sure I can do this.

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OH MY GOD!!

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LSAT

Besides my other goals I am also working very hard on education and trying to get into law school. It sounds like I will be getting my score back TODAY for the LSAT, which I wrote this September. I am slowly suffering through an incredibly slow and anxiety filled day just waiting for that email! Any time now!!

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We got the elliptical! I went on it for 11:17 today. It's difficult. But I am going to keep trying. My first goal is to do a solid 30 minutes.

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So, yeah. Goals have pretty much failed already. And yes, I am disappointed in myself. I have to get the excuses out of my system and deal with them here and now. I can't run because I haven't got the time, I had 2 midterms and and assignment and work this week. I barely slept as is it. How am I supposed to fit in running? And it's cold and rainy outside! Fix it: The elliptical will be set up in my house by tomorrow night. Then I will literally have no excuse not to use it in place of my runs at least twice a week. I forgot to take the chilli out of the freezer and by the time I got home from school it was too late to thaw it and eat it for dinner so I had no choice but to buy food. But hey, at least I've been eating good breakfasts! Fix it: Damn just remember. It's not that hard. Maybe I will set a reminder on my phone for the days that I work that will tell me to take the stupid chilli out of the freezer in the morning. I wanted to buy little cokes, but the only convenience store near my work actually sold out of them this Wednesday and Thursday. I need coke so I had no choice but to buy a normal sized bottle. At least I only got one even though they were on sale! Fix it: Okay. So this is a legitimate addiction that I have to coke, I think. When I say 'I need coke' I actually do, that's why I am trying to cut down slowly instead of all at once. That said, if this happens in the future, I could just dump some of the bigger bottle out so that I'm not drinking the whole amount. Even though that feels like a big waste of money. Hopefully the mini bottle problem will go away and never come back. So, I've fallen off the wagon, but I am not giving up. My goals remain the same (except I forget the order I had them in before, oops). 1. Use the elliptical at least twice a week 2. Only buy one small bottle of coke instead of a normal sized one (or more than that) 3. Cook big servings of healthier food and freeze it to take to work. Actually do take it to work.

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I made myself a good breakfast today! Still not running, but my parents bought an elliptical which will be in our house on Friday. Instead of running I am going to use that!

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Update

Well, the chilli has been working wonders. I still have five servings left, which will probably last me nearly two weeks seeing as I work three days a week. After that I want to make another big batch of something. I'm thinking of doing stew or shepherds pie. The coke initiative has been going well too. I have a serious addiction problem with coke, and all previous attempts to cut it out have failed miserably. Knowing this, I'm not trying to cut it out. Instead I'm just limiting myself to smaller servings, which isn't ideal, but I think is a good step. Hopefully one day I will no longer feel reliant on coke, but for now if I can stick to having only 414ml a day, that's good enough. The only goal I am definitely not achieving is my fitness goal. I haven't run at all. I don't really know what I plan to do about it, either. I'm just so lacking in motivation to get fit. And I have so little time that even when I want to run I just don't know how to make it work. I'll have to think on this one a little bit longer, but I haven't given up on it yet. Fitness is a huge part of my vision for future me.

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I made lots and lots of chilli and it tastes great! I'm still feeling hopeful about my goals. I have five more servings waiting for me, and because of that I have no excuses to buy fast food. I did buy coke today, but just the little bottle (414ml). In my goal it says to buy cans but the store didn't have them and I still count that as a win. I also drank two full water bottles today, which isn't one of my goals but is definitely good for me. Of course, my plan and I are still in the honeymoon stage, but - so far so good!

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I am starting with small, hopefully achievable goals. These are going to be my goals for the next two weeks. Fitness: Run/walk for 5 km on Tuesdays and Sundays Positive food: Make a big batch of chilli and freeze servings to bring to work. Negative food: When I buy coke I will buy a can instead of a bottle (or two bottles!) I haven't weighed myself in a while. I am probably bigger than ever before. But that doesn't matter - I do not want to focus wholly on weight. The important thing is health and fitness. I want to be able to run for the entire 5k, and I want to be able to climb the stairs without getting winded and I want to feel good about my body instead of listening to my own self loathing all the time. So those are my trackable goals, and I will try to keep on updating and holding myself accountable. Today is just the beginning!