My Tattered Heart

Avril 18+ If you relate to anything here, I’m sorry

[mytatteredheart]

Still

Want

To

DIE

[feelingsoftheday]

I can turn my sadness into a joke so don’t worry about me.

[mytatteredheart]

I am a joke so don’t worry about me

[mytatteredheart]

🥀🥀💔

[mytatteredheart]

[mytatteredheart]

[mytatteredheart]

I

Still

Want

To

DIE

[mytatteredheart]

Why fucking bother

[mytatteredheart]

[mytatteredheart]

[mytatteredheart]

[mytatteredheart]

People keep showing me that I shouldn’t trust people and then wonder why I don’t trust people

[mytatteredheart]

I’m just TIRED

Sleep doesn’t fix it.

Relaxation doesn’t fix it.

I just want the exhaustion and pain to end

[mytatteredheart]

I just want to die now

That’s all I want

I’m tired of this always happening

[mytatteredheart]

I

Still

Want

To

DIE

[mytatteredheart]

I'm scared to get close, and I hate being alone

I long for that feeling to not feel at all

The higher I get, the lower I'll sink

I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim

[mytatteredheart]

Which direction should I do it this time

Am I doing it to feel pain, to know I’m alive? Or do I want to die

The mass of flesh that is myself, A lie

Is it an eye for an eye or is it all I despise

The words hurt as they leave my mouth

Like searing knives

I cry

Nothing left until I die

To ash and dust

To no more trust

or lust for life

I fall apart

My gentle heart

Bleeding like an April soft rain

I wait for the pain again

My chest a void, gaping again

Torn open by enthusiastic betrayal

Of hushed voices erotic exhales

And moans

My soul groans

And leaves forever

I inhale and perish again

As my only friend

Dies

[mytatteredheart]

I

Still

Want

To

DIE