POET, i suppose

ancient soul / shitty poet

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Forgive me for lingering,

I do not know how to move on.

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In great moments of misery, I look to the trees and see my reflection. I remember what I am; matter in the breeze.

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The emptiness, which is always there.

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[inkpressedpetals]

[petaltexturedskies]

Mary Oliver, "The Moths" in Dream Work

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There was a terrible truth I hadn’t told anyone about.

I had forgotten how to be a person 6 years ago, and since , I’d been simply faking it.

I felt as though I knew how to be the shape of a person, but not how to actually be one.

[metamorphesque]

"Beautiful Losers", Leonard Cohen

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I felt sick with living or sick of living. Either way, a sickness associated with life.

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You are the hope.

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I think you are supposed to be here.

I think you were supposed to be born.

I think you are supposed to stick around, and hold onto life.

I think you should stay.

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I don’t know how to stop looking at you like you’re a God.

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You fade out of my life, and I have known no greater pain.

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“You see right through it,

You pass right through.”

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The world compels me to carry on

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I want to be the thing which shines in the light.

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I know it is love, because I am okay with leaving.

It hurts, god does it hurt.

But you’ve made me wonder what I might be able to do, where I might be able to go, who I might become.

You’ve loved me back to life.

I hope you know that.

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I am so afraid of endings.

Please don’t go.

Please let me stay.

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