My Unsightly Mind

I write that which I think and feel.

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my entire life explained in a gif

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It happens slowly at first. You don't want to get out of bed one morning. Or maybe you avoid your friends. Perhaps you fail a test because of how stressed it made you. Maybe you think you look particularly unattractive that day. But eventually it becomes more. You start to hate everything about yourself. You see no point in life. Your thoughts eat you alive at night, and you can't drag yourself out from under the covers in the morning. You can't convince yourself to get anything accomplished. You're exhausted. You stop eating all together. Your self hatred, your depression just hits you like a train. One day, you realize that it's gotten out of control, but you have no idea how. You can't remember the last time you were happy. And you want to die. This sorrow, this sadness, this hopeless slowly infects your soul. It poisons you so quietly that you don't notice until it's too late.

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Accurate.

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So true..

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Most accurate thing I have yet to read.

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Eerily accurate...

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Vincent van Gogh

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I few weeks ago i was Waiting at the train station and out of nowhere I see this girl, she’d obviously been crying and hadn’t slept for a while. I tried not to stare but it was so strange because she had nothing with her. No phone, wallet, bag, anything. She sat down on the edge of the train tracks and kicked her shoes off, just as the train was about the pass she took a few steps back and started running towards the edge of the platform and that’s when I knew she was going to jump in front of the train. I panicked and stepped in front of her. I wasn’t just going to watch someone kill themselves. The train passed and she sat down on the ground all curled up and just cried. I sat down next to her and even though she was a complete stranger I felt like I knew her. I sat there and held her whilst she cried. I barely made out the words ‘why’d you stop me’ between sobs. I didnt know what to say and My reply, ‘because I know what you’re feeling. I sit here everyday wanting to jump aswell. But we can’t do that, we can’t give up on a life we haven’t even begun living yet. You’re so beautiful, you don’t deserve to be feeling like this. There is so much more out there, just hold in there.’  Today  saw the same girl, dressed nicely and with a smile on her face, she walked passed me and said. ‘thank you, I owe my life to you, a complete stranger… I’m slowly getting my life back in track. I start my new job today and I’ve left me abusive boyfriend. If you hadn’t of stopped me those weeks back i would  have never lived to see this beautiful day, thank you so much’ I couldn’t help letting a tear roll down my cheek as I watch her board her train and head off. There’s hope for everyone.

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reblogging just for this ^

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I got chills .

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so powerful

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Depression's like a big fur coat, It's made of dead things but it keeps me warm...

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I no longer know who I am and I feel like the ghost of a total stranger.

Victor Ward, Rules Of Attraction

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That's where the pain comes in,

Like a second skeleton...

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8:31pm;

Madness is relative, merely deemed to be insanity by an overwhelming majority who have never dared to drink from that fountain. Well, I’ll revel in my lunacy.

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It's not me...

This is not how I see myself. There is a darkness here, a darkness barely held at bay.

This is not the self I am, not the real me. But the me I hide from; The me I hide from the world.

This is not the truth. This is only a blemish, a scar. Blood stains across a golden soul.

This is my burden, my challenge.

This is but a demon to be defeated... 

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