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I am disgusted by overconfidence. I dislike lack of confidence, as I myself suffer from it, but I hate overconfidence. People blindly believing their own subjective perception, to the point where they deny every information directly opposing their beliefs, regardless of whether they are proven to be accurate and true or not. And you can’t do anything about it.

Just stopping by to say I am still alive. Been a bit busy lately, but I have a plenty to write about, so hopefully I can make some posts soon. Not that you should care, or that I should care about making more entertainment for you, but I suppose you know what I mean.

I have no idea what keeps me sane. I'm starting to hate it, that thing that makes me sane, that keeps me stable, whatever it is. It prevents me from truly opening to anyone, it makes me act happy, it makes me act like a clown even before my closest ones. It makes me seem like I'm lying when I'm talking about how I really feel. And I can't help it. Many people have a problem with staying quiet, and not say their thoughts aloud, but I have the exact opposite problem. I can't stop laughing and smiling and acting as if nothing is happening inside of me. And whenever I succeed at opening at least the tiny bit, many people tell me "when you get back to your normal self..." as if it wasn't the true me. I think that one time, the first time my "friend" at school told me this sentence, I think that affected me very much. I realized how many people actually befriended someone else hiding in my skin.

I am going to change the world. I refuse to accept how this all works. Even if I’m on the losing side, I will never accept this. Never. And I am going to try and change this. I don’t care what I’ll have to sacrifice, I don’t care what everyone is going to say, I don’t care if the whole world will view me as the one who is wrong, as insane. I will change the world.

Justice is a weapon. It can be used to cause harm, but it cannot protect or save others.

Osamu Dazai

#justice

Just because something is normal and standard doesn’t mean it’s right or good. Just because something works doesn’t mean it couldn’t and shouldn’t be done better. Just because something seems good doesn’t mean it is good. Stop trying to excuse everything by saying things like “nobody is perfect” or “but it’s normal”or “but i feel better this way”. That doesn’t erase your mistakes, that doesn’t change anything, that doesn’t justify anything.

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im used to be alone anyway

I want to be an abstract impalpable entity, so that people will finally listen to me. When people don’t know a single thing about you, they’ll judge you just according to what you say. When there’s a category you’re under, such as age, gender, appearance, fashion style, people will judge you according to other people in the same category. That’s why i don’t want to physically exist. So that people won’t make assumptions about me just on the category, and so they won’t have their approach toward me shifted, and so they will take my opinions seriously, without making any assumptions.

Well well well....here is some INTP critique, y’all.

“Should INTP be unsettled they can resort to defense, to be tragic, fearsome, over-sensitive and hysterical, reluctant, stubborn and touchy. They can avoid people and the whole world and completely retreat. Rather than reality the feelings and imaginations can be reflected in them. Consequently they are in danger that as long as the facts, data and reality do not correspond with their theories and opinions they ignore them.“

“Logic of things is for them logic and it does not relate in any way to ethics or human feelings. The truth has no moral dimension for them. Such feature of their character may sometimes cause a hostile or defense reaction, and INTP win a reputation of arrogant and uninterested persons without emotions and respects.“

“Their impersonal orientation may be manifested in many forms, from shyness to antisocial attitudes or behavior. As for the former, we can be dealing with naive or socially awkward people who are self-absorbed. As for the latter, it concerns non-communicative isolated nerds, indifferently ignoring daily concerns, but who are easy to be used for different ideologies.“

Here’s the link to the whole description and test.

#mbti #intp

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I always feel like no one ever really understands me, nor do I think that someone ever will, but I hate saying stuff like this, cuz I feel like I sound like a whiny teenager. Is that just a me thing, or is that an Infp thing?

This is so relatable!!

Yeah, INFP is the second rarest type so it’s hard to find someone like us, even though it’s kind of our special power to track down other INFPs.

I believe the goal is to understand and accept oneself.

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If you truly are different, and if you’re searching for understanding in MBTI, you won’t find it here. You sound just like me a few months ago...if truly no one understands you in real life, it won’t be much better even in MBTI community. I’m an INTP, and i was deeply disappointed by other INTPs, although they are completely normal. I guess i was different even in these standards...I’m saying all this, because apparently you know how hard it is to open up and say “no one understands me“ or “i’m different”. That’s probably why you asked anonymously. I address this to you (the anon) specifically, because i believe you’ll understand how i mean it, although others may not, and that’s completely okay. MBTI will bring you a temporary satisfaction, but if you really are different, after some time you’ll find out that there still isn’t anyone that understands you in MBTI community. Maybe few people, but i can assure you it doesn’t depend on type, only in some aspects. Although i have a good experience with INFPs. If your difference is similiar to mine, it doesn’t lie in typology. And i still don’t know where it does lie... I know how this all sounds, like i’m special or something, but if you were saying the truth, you’ll understand. I hope this does get to you. Just...don’t expect that you’ll find understanding here. Or at least for me it wasn’t the understanding i was looking for. But maybe you’ll be different, i just wanted to tell you. Good luck! - 𝔫

#mbti #infp #intp

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Perfect Blue (Satoshi Kon, 1997)

#psychology

You know how i said i was going to make a series of posts about world problems? Well, turns out, i kinda wrote everything i wanted into the No. 1 post, so the series are currently stopped. Bur probably not forever. Anyways, here is the post.

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No. 1

Everyone, including myself and you, wants more. More, more, more, more. We can’t get enough. Through my own logical analysis, I came to a conclusion that this particular problem, this greed, could be the fundamental source of all the problems we have to face today, although it probably applies to most historical problems as well. To make myself clear, I don’t speak of basic human needs, such as the need for water, food, clothing, socializing and a few others. However, I do believe that we already have shifted and delusional expectations and views as to what we really need and what quantity of it do we need. Now, up to this point you all have probably already heard about this, and are taking it as nothing new, but from my own experience just a few of you probably gave it an extra thought and dug deeply enough to realize the actual weight, complexity and seriousness of this specific problem. Deforestation, climate change, world hunger, political issues, animal cruelty, our own ignorance towards these problems. All of these can be traced back to the one and only problem of us never having enough, to you never having enough. It may seem like those problems have nothing in common with our greed, but if you search for those interconnections, hiding under the surface, you’ll eventually find out what i mean.

It’s true that our desire for more had brought us many new inventions and technological progress, it boosted our creativity, made our life easier and improved the society in various ways. However, when seeing all of the negative outcomes, i think it’s a good time to ask whether this “progress” we speak of was worth it. Actually, did the progress really help us? Progress has primarily brought us comfort, and more time to be lazy. Statistically speaking, “progress” has shifted our values and priorities. For example, people in the past have been hunting animals just for their own needs, just to have something to eat, to survive. But, when we look at the people in present, when you look at yourself, you eat when you want, and it’s obvious that you don’t eat just to survive, but for pleasure. As always, there are exceptions, but i guess that most of the people that can afford to read this are not. Now, why did people in the past eat just to survive? Simple, to eat, they had to hunt, they had to work, to spend time. The value of food was incomparably higher back then as it is now, when all we have to do to eat is to go to the store, which mostly doesn’t take more than an hour. This is just a poor example, but this principle can be applied to many, many other aspects of life.

To sum things up, progress is playing entirely just on our emotions. Did progress improve our life? We’d instinctively say yes, like, who wouldn’t want these much options to entertain and pleasure themselves? But did it really? I believe the answer is no, it only improved the impalpable part of our lives. Biologically, we are slowly destroying the circumstances our organism must have in order to survive. This “progress” is slowly killing our future. Just think about it. This is a really controversial example, but that’s exactly why it is such a good example to give you the opportunity to see how unbelievably complex this problem is. The overpopulation problem is caused by medical progress, but in reality, if there was no medical improvement, the probability of those who would live to live in a better world would be significantly higher. Of course, there are many moral and ethical conflicts coming up in this particular field, but I’m speaking solely in my own rational and objective analysis. My main proof of this big flaw in our system is that (for example) everyone knows that going somewhere by car is a big source of pollution, but we still choose to comfort ourselves, our feelings, although in the bigger picture we would help our organism, our physical existence more if we wouldn’t go by car. We are knowingly lowering the chances for our species to survive. And this proves how shifted our perspective of what is good, helpful and important is.

The keystones of this post:

Without reading the whole post you might misunderstand this.

We crossed the limit of what and how much of anything we should want long long ago.

Greed could very possibly be the primary source of all the problems we have to face.

The phenomenon which we call “progress”, is not a progress at all.

Our view of what is good for humanity is completely based on and mainly affected by our feeling of comfort, subjective emotions and laziness.

The most important part - we are knowingly lowering the chances for our species to survive.

The complexity of this problem should not be underestimated, and be sure to think long enough to see it from many perspectives, to have the most objective view possible, and just then argue with me if you’ll feel the need to.

Sorry not sorry for the length of this post.

- 𝔫

n-e-a-r

I modified this post a bit, as I’ve noticed there were some unclear parts. Also, I highlighted the most important sentences I wanted to address you. But without the context, those highlighted parts won’t give you the whole picture I want you to see, so either read everything, or not at all. Thank you.

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I hope this isn’t too controversial, but I just wanted to say that I’m kind of tired of people hating on religion and blaming it on society’s ills. I completely understand that religious individuals have hurt many people, and I’m really sorry, I in no way want to try to deny your suffering and your right to be angry. In fact, I want to ensure your anger and your cry for justice are targeted towards the right thing. Do not hate religion or all religious people because of the cruel actions of a select few. Rather, blame the real culprits. Blame hate, bigotry, and greed. These are the real enemies of progress. Yes, there are certain parts of religious texts such as the Bible or the Quran that may seem to inspire these in people, but most adherents to these scriptures are of the belief that these verses speak to only a specific place and time, long ago. Those that cite them in order to spread evil intentions, whether they be cruel and oppressive politicians spreading bigotry, or dangerous terrorists speaking words of violence do not do so in the name of Christianity or Islam, but rather to further their own personal ambitions. Religion does not make people bigoted, rather bigots use religion as an excuse to act so heinously. Don’t let these hate-profiteers win by buying into their schemes. They win when we turn to tribalism and scapegoating. We should unite as common people and call out those who manipulate and hide behind their corrupted version of God.

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I cannot stress how important it is to be a little bit mad. I don’t mean angry. I mean strange. Weird. Bizarre. I mean that creative, passionate, wild thing romantics call madness. That thing that stirs the poet’s soul, or gives inspiration to the musician. Madness is the fuel that drives the mind of the mathematician as they discover equations that govern the universe, or the philosophers as they question their own existence. Madness is what gives activists their strength. Madness is the oppressed demanding freedom in the face of their oppressors. Madness is doing what is right despite the darkness surrounding you. Madness is daring. Madness is love. Madness is human. I’m not saying you shouldn’t fear it. One should fear madness as one fears God. After all, it is holy.

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Cara Delevingne as Margo Roth Spiegelman and Nat Wolff as Quentin Jacobsen in Paper Towns, Dir. Jake Schreier, 2015

"You see how fake it all is. It’s not even hard enough to be made out of plastic. It’s a paper town...look at all those cul-de-sacs...Everyone demented with the mania of owning things.

All things paper-thin and paper-frail. And all the people, too...I have never once in my life come across anyone who cares about anything that matters."

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It’s kind of accepted that hate is the root of evil, but I disagree. I think blaming hate on everything wrong in the world is actually fairly harmful to society because it removes the blame from a much more dangerous culprit: apathy.

It’s naive to believe that the most heinous acts in human history, such as the Holocaust or the Atlantic Slave Trade, were the result of hate. While many high ranking Nazis and slave traders were hateful individuals, these events occurred because ordinary citizens allowed them to, and most people were not full of hate for the Jewish or Black community. Rather, I would argue, the citizens of these societies just didn’t care enough to speak out. They were desensitized to the atrocities surrounding them, and just kept up the status quo. In Nazi Germany, people watched their Jewish neighbours get carried away to their certain death because their government said it was right, and why question the government as long as they brought food to the table? During the slave trade, Europeans and Americans were happy to allow human being to be enslaved and treated like animals en masse because it was profitable. They didn’t hate the Black community, it was just easier to dehumanize someone if they looked kind of different. It was never about how different the victims were, but how indifferent the offender were.

Evil is not a fiery monster rampaging with a heart full of hate, but rather is a cold, heartless machine. However, it’s easy to imagine evil as some racist, n-word using white guy in the Deep South or some militant jihadist in Afghanistan rather than look inside ourselves and ask who we care about and we don’t. What atrocities do we ignore because it’s convenient? Lately, I’ve been shocked by how many people, including me, seem to only be as good as they’re expected to be. We don’t hate anyone, but there’s many people we seem to not care about.

The answer to this apathy, however, is love. And not some weak, “thoughts and prayers” kind of love, but rather one that consumes us. Engulfs us. Surrounds us. A love of friends, enemies, family, and strangers. In a society that seems to be increasingly worried about the I, we need to care more for the I. We shouldn’t look at the effects of things like Covid-19, Climate Change, or mass immigration based on how it will effect us, but rather how it will affect everyone. Who is suffering? How can we help? Be heretical in your love for your neighbours. Care to the point of tears. Challenge your fellow citizens, you government, and, most importantly, yourself. The path is hard, and I don’t promise any eternal reward, except for the Heaven we can build here on earth.

n-e-a-r

Interesting thought, i have to say. You managed to criticize society in a really nice way. I admire that, because that’s exactly what we need. The fact that posts like these haven’t got more notes really frustrates me, it just proves the human ignorance. Is it because it’s too long? What a meaningful reason for not reading it.

#evil #love

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