oOoooOo enter if you daaAare

,, I am a forest fire and I am the forest and I am the fire and I am a witness watching it ,,

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•°~intro post~°•

Hi! I used to go by the names lee and pelly, but right now i go by mickey (short for michael)!!

My pronouns are he/him

^ awesome drawing by @bostonharbor ^

Pinterest: todaytoday114 (it's a jack stauber ref)

Ao3: nobodyyuknow

I am nerodivergent so i do prefer if you use tone indicators in asks and replies!

I do struggle with a restrictive eating disorder. posts about it will be tagged with "tw eating disorders" and strictly vents. its very important to me that you DO NOT read these posts if you are in a frame of mind where that sort of thing can hurt you.

I really like music! I am in marching band (I play the clarinet) and I love to give music recommendations.

I love reading, and I love fanfic. I've been thinking about writing fanfiction again, but nothing has been planned.

I have 5 cats and they are all very lovely (cough cough i have an ugly ass scar on my throat from my sweetheart cat)

I like asks, and I don't mind DMs but I'd prefer if I've talked to you before DMing (just an anxiety thing I'm afraid)

DNI:

Transphobes

Racists

Ableists

Sexists

Homophobes

(notice how it spells trash, I thought I was VERY clever btw)

also um please don't send nudes or NSFW images or messages, its happened before even though I explicitly say i am a minor. It's pretty disgusting, actually.

I would like to end this on a positive note, so!

Have a good day <333

HE KNOWS ALL

HE SEES ALL

HE IS ALL

HE IS KERMIT

ask box currently on!

please send any and all asks!

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this is my impression of what it would look like if the toddlers at my job could make traumacore edits about me

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alright by popular demand here is more toddler traumacore

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little mister constantly checking notifications for tumblr as if I've posted more than like MAYBE ten times in the last like 5 months

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those who love

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achilles loved a man.

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a poem about god from an atheist

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2000 posts!

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the ghost

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halloween in july

summer feels like halloween alone around so many i am alive yet unseen i wish for your company you're there and you're haunting me its not funny its not funny

summer feels like halloween because im crying in front of you im crying and im dying im crying and i need you and you look straight through me and its not funny its not a whispered remark its not eye contact in a silent group its not an episode its not an episode

summer feels like halloween because its a joke but its not funny its real tears its you really looking away its real its real and i know before you open your mouth that you never will.

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my friend said she doesn't like me because im too aggressive she doesnt know i know because she said it to someone else and she doesnt know that i dont like her for the same reason

i just wonder which came first i wonder who bit who and who bit back when i sometimes forget who said what to who

i know so much about her stuff she said in confidence to others and i wonder what she knows the things i say too

i wonder if the lies i judged her for aren't all that different to mine just a deeper shade of white

i wonder if i misspoke when we first met all those years ago i wonder if my nerves came off as spikes i wonder when it became intentional i wonder if the things she said to me were a slip of the tongue i wonder if she feels the same sting of regret when she sees my face

sometimes i feel like my regret makes me a better person but a feeling doesnt change what you did

sometimes i feel like her wrongs made mine right that mine were a lighter shade of white

sometimes i feel like my care is the same thing as love but love is proud and my care is cowardice

i dont know why we still talk i dont know why we keep coming back to each other i think we're the same

i think we're both the darkest shade of white.

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being 14 has genuinely gotta be a social experiment atp I have never been so viciously unhappy for so long and all my friends are/were the same at 14

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maybe its just that the state of America rn intersects with me being 14 making it like 80x worse

fuck ice

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im scared my friends are going to kill themselves and im scared my sister is going to kill herself and im scared my dad is going to kill himself and im scared that im going to kill myself. Im scared my friends will never be able to stop cutting and im scared that I'll never be able to stop either. Im scared nobody wants me around and im scared they depend on me. I'm scared that I'll go back to therapy and im scared that I'll never get help. Im scared that the second I try drugs or alcohol I'll never stop. Im scared of genocide and im scared that ice will take my family or friends and im scared that Trump will go on for a third term. Im scared that me and my loved ones will never know a post-trump world either from suicide or becoming victims of the government or anything. Im scared that everyone will hate me for being trans and im scared they'll kill us for it.

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what the fuck is slam frank

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being 14 has genuinely gotta be a social experiment atp I have never been so viciously unhappy for so long and all my friends are/were the same at 14

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maybe its just that the state of America rn intersects with me being 14 making it like 80x worse

fuck ice

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being 14 has genuinely gotta be a social experiment atp I have never been so viciously unhappy for so long and all my friends are/were the same at 14

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how i imagine tcoptp wolfstar

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i think that "claims to be pro life dies anyway" is the singular funniest phrase ever invented because there's just no coming back from that unless we suddenly get really good at necromancy

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pro lifer comes back wrong and they're really upset about it because they didn't get a. a. a ch