Roland held Nahim's questioning stare even as he spoke and smiled just a little at the other man's words. Well, they were in agreement there. Roland had always taken a rather long time to get over lost loves but he couldn't seem to help it. "Good point." Roland generally talked quite a bit but he got quieter when he was sad or maudlin and that seemed to be the case now, though he hardly wanted to be that way with someone he barely knew and certainly didn't know if he could trust. Nahim was making a decent first impression, though, or rather second impression. That was something. He snorted at the idea that he'd overcome the hardship of Alix's death gracefully because it had been anything but, though most people hadn't seen that given how it had been confined to the Brussels mansion. Roland knew the truth of it, though he wasn't about to share the details with Nahim. He pushed them away and leaned back, smiling a little and regaining his composure. "I like to think I usually make it rather easy to be nice to me. I have a face that demands compliments, non?" It wasn't a particularly smooth tactic but talk of Alix always left him at least slightly off kilter if not more so. He'd rather come off as arrogant than sad and vulnerable.
They both seemed to be facing uncomfortable topics as Nahim's expression went through a series of minute changes and he didn't respond any further about his late sire. Fair enough. Perhaps they should abandon all talk of the dead. "It certainly won't but I'd be happy to join forces in that sense if it did." At least he'd have a little more support this time and Raphael could hang. Roland finished his drink and watched Nahim in his seemingly endless wandering around the suite. He inclined his head in agreement because yes, he had once been a new councilman and knew what it was like. He was about to ask more detailed questions about Nahim's adjustment period to avoid having to talk about his own when the other vampire finally settled and asked questions Roland had been hoping to avoid. His ascension to the council had come directly on the heels of Alix's death and much of those early days at work were practically a fog. He'd spent at least a decade going to work with bloodwine as a crutch though it had been a relief to get out of the house. Even then, everything he'd come into there had been Alix's. The team Alix had picked, his office, his things....Roland closed his eyes tight to push it away, aware that he was leaving too long a pause before answering. He'd redecorated eventually, he'd had to. "It is, yes." Roland opened his eyes and answered, finally, firmly shoving the memories away and keeping his voice level. "Less so for you, I would think, considering how ineffective your predecessor was. I had rather different shoes to fill. As far as settling in, I can't give you an exact timeline. Gradually it starts to feel like your place, your job, regardless of who came before." Even if Alix had been better at it, more dedicated to all the sides of it that Roland found tedious and boring. The staff Alix had picked had been excellent, however, and while a number of those people had been replaced now, Roland had initially left them all in place. They'd needed to pick up the slack for him as he'd eventually worked through his grief, or at least sort of worked through it.
it was the feeble grab at an attempt to lighten the exchange that prised a smirk out of nahim rather than the words themselves but in the moment, he was indifferent to the slight slip of the mask he typically preferred to keep in place with his fellow councilmen. was roland aware of how he carried his grief like a gaping wound? well, nahim would give him some credit; a poorly concealed gaping wound? all it took was the slightest tearing of the seams for the ache to begin, it seemed. bravado and considerable strength aside, roland was an immensely delicate creature. it made nahim’s fangs ache with the need to drain him of it, to pick him apart and study the intricacies of how something like him was pieced together. not out of pity or sympathy, but mere curiosity. that could wait, though. nahim had time.
as conversation shifted from the departed to a potential allyship, nahim fought to subdue the laugh that threatened to spill from him at the thought becoming any kind of reality. perhaps under dire circumstances he would feel differently, but as things currently stood, he saw no need to put any serious thought into where his alliances lay, at least not in relation to roland. nahim watched attentively once he settled, his attention transfixed upon the finer details of roland’s expressions throughout. the eventual reply coaxed a quiet noise of commiseration from nahim and he offered a solemn nod in response once roland continued. “the bar is practically underground in terms of surpassing expectations surrounding marcellino’s so-called ‘efforts, so you’re correct in that respect. but… there’s an inherent… pressure, isn’t there? the esteem the position holds you to, how sudden the elevation is…” cutting his gaze away to focus anywhere but on roland, nahim heaved a brief sigh and agitatedly drummed his fingers against his shin. “it’s still slightly… surreal. for far too many a century, i never thought i’d see anything other than stone and sacrifices. daylight, the very concept of light, was lost to me,” shifting slightly on the armrest to recentre himself, nahim gingerly met roland’s gaze again as he resumed. “and now i’m here. it’s all… a lot to take in.”
straightening up a little with a groan, nahim stretched his arms above his head before running a hand through his hair, pushing the curls and any lingering vulnerability back for the time being. if he was going to garner at least a shred of roland’s trust, each performance had to be believable. “i appreciate you taking the time to answer all my ridiculous questions. it’s very considerate of you to do so. do you have any questions of your own? i feel as if i owe you the floor for a moment.”














