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magerightsyeah

When all of my blorbos are my own ocs so I can’t consume content about them unless I make it

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armandgender

I’m sooo strong and masculine my arm doesn’t even shake when I’m holding a pot over the sink while I fill it up with water (lying)

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inkskinned

the watermelons were 30% off, and i thought about buying one, and thought about the price of gas. watermelons are my favorite. my birthday is the first of july - for years now, instead of a cake, we stick candles in a chilled watermelon. since it's not my birthday and i only get paid monthly: i open and close my budgeting app.

they're going to restart student loan payments soon. did we ever get another stimulus check? it's been hot in the northeast, hottest-on-record. it went up to 99 today, in may. droughts are coming.

but.

i get in my car and drive for two hours just to see my family. we share breakfast on small plates. later my mother and i fan ourselves on the couch while she watches a video i made.

one of my childhood friends just became an aunt. another one just got engaged. the stormfront is moving in and all the leaves are folding over themselves, impatient in the wind. the world is thirsty here, the birds are panting. i watch my neighbor come outside and set out plates of water for them, humming in her light way. two weeks ago, i sent out a text to my friends - wanna skive off work and come to the beach? and got oh fuck yes. i took my meetings from my car, blaming internet connectivity. we laughed around picnic foods and went in water too cold for feeling. i lost a scrunchie in the waves that crashed over me; spent the next week shaking sand out of my hair, giggling.

i pierced my ear again, just for fun. at a bar afterward, i tried to take pictures in the bathroom. a girl saw me and asked about it. she demanded i pose for her so she could get the right picture for me. there's tumbleweeds here, and i keep picking ticks off of my fawn-colored greyhound. i'm babysitting an australian shepherd this week; the two of them are sitting side-by-side, faces turned to catch the wind of my single box fan that's working overtime. i text people about swamp coolers because i grew up in the south. later i get a text saying oh before i forget, here's that recipe you asked about.

i'm full of anger and fear and loathing. the air is sticky and there's tornado conditions brewing. for weeks now i feel unfocused, lazy. too tired for sense and too awake for resting.

the bartender and i make fast friends. at the bottom of my check, he writes, "thank you for being kind. you were a bright spot on a hard night."

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anyway. onto better things

vnusplanetoflove

Sometimes I watch a movie and then after I just need to MAKE something or I'll die. It is like a sickness when I experience any art at all how r people so normal all the time

guerrillatech

hools

no yeah i cant hang out sorry. yeah im hugging my pillow in bed today. yeah no itll be for a while. maybe for forever. OK bye

slfcare

friendly reminder that moments like sitting in the sun, waking up well-rested, discovering a song that makes you feel your heart and laughing with someone will find you again. clouds will dissipate and the sun will sink and rise and the moon will be full and bright outside of your window, and life will stop feeling this heavy. in the meantime, we’ll try. sometimes that’ll feel like enough and sometimes it won’t, but that’s okay. you’re here and that’s an achievement and that’s good and it matters.

espressogal

fuck the grind. you’re clearly tired and going thru a lot right now. the world feels like it’s collapsing on you and time is running out but i’m here to tell u that it’s not. you have time. lots of time. close your laptop, put away the work, get a snack or get into bed, and call it a day my love. doesn’t matter if you didn’t do what you wanted to do today - that’s what tomorrow is for. let’s try again tomorrow. but for now, get some rest.