Nana Amalthea

Visual Storyteller

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Día 66

Montezuma, Julio de 2017

It has been really hard for me facing Day 66, it has been 6 month already since I wrote the last day. 

Everytime I sit in front of the computer to face my departure from Montezuma, it bothers me, it makes me uncomfortable. Everytime, I have felt not ready to write about it, not ready to understand it.

I believe now every part of my journey has been very important and it had to happen to create the person I am today. 

I can accept now I was back then in a very toxic relationship with myself, so egocentric and so passive that I couldn’t begin to understand the person I shared bed with. 

I learn of my time in Montezuma.

- Partners are not supposed to read minds.

- It’s not healthy to build a fairy tale over reality and demand that in silence.

-  When everything inside of you tells you to leave, please do it, staying will always be more painful.

P.S: E. Lo siento, perdóname, gracias, te amo.

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Never regret what you are leaving behind, there is a reason for it. New things will come. New things always come.

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Los colores están afuera, búscalos.

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I’m just going to tell you this: perspective is a powerful tool. 

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Mira dos veces.

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No tengas miedo, todo va a estar bien, todo va a estar más que bien.

Fin.

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Día 65

La Fortuna, 13 de Julio de 2017

I should have enjoyed being lost more. I remember being in that beautiful town, first time I was that close from a huge volcano with one of the souls I love the most in this life and I was worrying. 

I worried so much those month of 2017, sometimes I wish I could trust more. 

Everything always turns out just fine. 

Worry less, trust more and enjoy the moment,

there is not recap button.

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Un cuarto de volcán.

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Si me preguntan que es oro para mí, sin pensarlo dos veces respondería ese momento con Mimi, tiradas en la plaza sin más preocupación que decidir cuantas pipas comprar y cuantos minutos debíamos caminar al río. 

Te amo hermana. 

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Hola.

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Piscina.

Fin.

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Día 64

Cabuya/Santa Teresa, 10 de Julio de 2017

I have always been so proud to say and proclaim myself that I am an independent woman who doesn’t give a damn about love, I have been very proud to tell my sisters and my best friends since I’m a teenager that I’m happy without love and that I couldn’t care less. 

And I was ok with not having a man, nobody was the “right” one anyway.

The truth is, who doesn’t want to be in love? We all want, even if you hide it from everybody, even if we hide it from our selves. 

I love to fantasize and that’s a good thing and a bad thing, I have fantasized hundreds of love stories in my head. 

I wanted to have a real one for a change.

We make mistakes, it’s part of the game and when you’re lonely, you put flowers in mistakes and mistakes don’t look so bad after all, right?

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Copiloto

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(Extraído de mi diario)

Paquera, 11 de Julio de 2017

Me voy unos días a La Fortuna, ayer mi bolso pesaba mucho más, pensaba dejarlo.

Él me dijo que su planeta favorito es Plutón porque es el más frío del sistema solar.

Es primera vez que estoy con alguien más de 5 día, mi instinto es huir, por eso mi bolso pesaba más ayer.

Pero la verdad es que, no quiero huir, solo me bastó que dijera ‘vamos a almorzar a Cóbano’ para que mi plan de huida se cancelara. Quiero estar con él.

(Mi pensamiento hoy)

Plutón no es un planeta. bye.

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Cabuya

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