Dear Narrative,
Oh, I've just never been good at any of it -- dating, getting to know people, being romantic, falling in love. It has always felt like I'm doing it wrong and that everyone knows how to follow a certain set of rules and standards, but those rules and standards are written in a differnet language! So, I always feel a bit like a fool and I can tell when I've turned off a person.
What's nice about the letters is I can't tell that, though I certainly anticipate that.
So yes... that's why. Though the letters feel safer, I do know the reveal ball will come eventually, and that's also another source of anxiety. See, I am a very bad dancer. And I don't particularly enjoy big parties.
Best,
Spudnik
Dear Spudnik,
I've always loved the idea of romance. The big sweeping gesture, the little touches that make you fel special, the power of someone being able to look into your eyes and say exactly what you want to hear to make your heart swell. I grew up on stories of romance and absorbed them all.
But the thing is, I've been involved with people before who gave me romance, and romance isn't enough on its own. I was with someone once who could say all the right things and make me feel like the center of the world. Up until he was upset about something, and then he had the ability to make me feel like I was nothing at all. I was involved with someone else who knew how to perform romance and all of those rules and standards perfectly, but once the door closed and we didn't have an audience, he typically ignored me until he needed something.
I do feel like I understand romance as a language, but knowing that hasn't changed the fact that we're both here looking for the same thing. Life isn't built up of big gestures. It's everything else.
We don't have to dance if you don't want to. That's always an option. But I hope you'll enjoy this one night.
Sincerely,
Narrative
@lonelyspudnik

















