I’d like to thank those of you who have been respectful and courteous throughout this difficult part of my life. It seems that most of those spreading rumors assume that because I haven’t made any sort of statement, that I don’t care. That is entirely incorrect.
Most of what happened between Acacia and myself happened well before anyone knew anything about our split. It was brought on by personal reasons that will stay between Acacia and myself. Again, that information is between us and it will stay that way.
I want to make clear that Acacia is an absolutely wonderful girl, who I love and respect. I was so fortunate to have spent so much time with such an amazing young woman. Acacia is one the strongest people I know and she fought hard for our relationship, as did I but sometimes it just isn’t right. I learned that’s okay.
I personally was not in a positive place (at all) towards the end of our relationship. It really took a serious toll on my mental and physical health (that had nothing to do with Acacia herself) it was our relationship as a whole. She couldn’t have been a better girlfriend. I always did my very best to be exactly what she wanted and needed. I gave our relationship my absolute all as did she and in the end it just left me empty (again, not because of her). I was trying to fill a hole that our relationship just couldn’t fill, no matter how incredible we felt together.
I was constantly away and after traveling to Europe+ for months twice throughout our relationship, the consistent distance between us tore me apart. As much as you love someone or think you love someone, that can change or you can change etc etc etc. So many things happen in our lives that we have no control over. No matter how badly we WANT something… Sometimes we have to take a step back and ask ourselves what we really NEED. I needed space, to think and reevaluate my life. I’ll never forget my first love and the amazing memories we’ve shared.
If you take anything from this please understand that life is not set in stone. There was a point in my relationship with Acacia that I was sure I was going to marry her. I wholeheartedly planned on that but my path moved a different direction. People are people. We’re so beautifully fucked up. Emotions are such powerful things. They allow us to experience the greatest joy, the deepest sorrow & everything in between. I believe that I was meant to struggle through this portion of my life. It was good for me, as much as it hurt so much initially. Fortunately for me, through the support of my amazing friends and family, I’m now finally starting to move forward on my path again. I’m now in a much better place mentally as well. I wish Acacia the absolute best in the future(she deserves it) and I’m really looking forward to the next step in my journey as well.
