For 15 years I've always been unhappy with who I am. I was just uncomfortable with my body. Not just weight wise but my body in general. When my mum found out she was pregnant with me she prayed for a girl. She begged God for a daughter. The 7th of November, 1999. I was born and given the name Kateri Elise Waters. During the summer of 2015 I was more unstable than ever. I went to therapy, after a while I found out why I was so unhappy, I was unhappy because I wasn't meant to be Ms. Kateri Elise Waters. I came out to my best friend and she knew that I was genuine and was right. After a little while I was on the Internet and I found the name 'Hayden'. I was born in the wrong body. I'm meant to be 100% male. I am transgender. From a very young age I've always been attracted to males. And I'd always look at girls too. I always felt "wrong" for looking at them. But they were all girls that I had known. I knew who they were as people. So the fact that they were girls didn't really bother me, but I still knew it was "wrong". Fast forward a few years,I realised that I'm not completely straight nor am I completely gay. And the person's gender doesn't matter to me. I discovered that I'm pansexual. And these are who I am supposed to be from birth and who I will be in the future. This is who I am. I am a 16 year old, pansexual, transgender man. I am Mr. Hayden Ezekiel Smith. I took a long journey a lot of nights crying, a lot of dark days/ paths and self hating. But once I figured out who I am I finally see good things in myself. Since the day I've felt accepted by my friends I've been open about who I am. I'm not afraid to be myself around friends, weather they're boys or girls. Even though 2015 has been a pretty shit year, and a lot of alone time. That alone time has helped me discover who I really am and I couldn't be happier. For those who are still in the closet, wanting to come out. There's no real rush, when you are comfortable with who you are/ choose to love them if you want, you can come out. But it's a really great feeling. #Transgender #Male #Female #FTM #Pansexual #Gender #Sexuality #ThisIsReal #ThisIsMe #Pride #HeartsNotParts #ComingOut
