mg clara shucklebuck

thirty-something. hornyblog. frustrated lover

[naughtyshucklebuck]

my lemonade

I have iced lemonade on a scorching summer day.

my ice melts easily.

drank slow, it loses its savor.

drank quick, and the goodness is gone before you know.

my cup sweats profusely.

my ice's purpose is to be chill.

its water has a...

I don't like its taste.

I didn't put it there for the flavor.

my cup is shared.

the lemonade isn't mixed well,

every drink different.

every drinker using their own method.

some take my ice,

chew through it.

I hope the chill helps them.

I'm sorry about the funk.

some get a mouthful of the sourest lemon juice.

they don't often drink much.

some get too much sugar.

they say my lemonade will put holes in them.

cavities.

expose them to rot.

others find where the chill hasn't reached.

or maybe once was but now has long gone.

they call it tepid.

bland.

thought it'd be cooler.

many of my friends remind me again and again,

they enjoy my lemonade.

they're happy to enjoy from my cup while they can.

their words encourage me to keep making it.

I add a secret ingredient.

a bit of me.

or... what was part of me anyways.

it's not me anymore.

it left my body.

I am affected by the overbright sun.

you may be thinking sweat.

you're definitely not wrong if you are.

I cannot help but melt and drip.

behind my sunglasses, I squint.

try to retain my water as tears well up.

but I need to see.

eyelids are not strong dams.

the tears are brought out by the light.

but the tears source themselves from sadness.

have you ever seen a fruitless tree being watered with a cup of lemonade?

I have.

I yearn for shade.

for the heat to be over.

for the season to change soon.

autumn come, I beg you.

I watch the shade trees being cut down around me.

so they can be burned.

endless summer growth.

all the while, my ice is melting profusely.

it's too goddamn hot.

would you like some lemonade?

[prunejuicepls]

I pan handled from the end of 2017 to the middle of 2018 and here 10 of my notes

1. The Midwest has the most caring racists. The amount of sleeping bags and hot chocolate was surprising and heartwarming, the amount of racism was alarming.

2. People love to give you stuff in Las Vegas

3. Christians love to record themselves giving you a water bottle or a slice of pizza. This is a trap they are going to talk to you about god, and yes some (all) think you are homeless because you are a sinner

4. Most teenaged panhandlers look older than they are (dirty, stressed). Remember they're kids. Most aren't drug addicts. Most are abused for one thing or another. Most of the time it's for being queer.

5. Dont trust RV people ever

6. Dont sleep anywhere where you won't hear people coming and wake up. Trash, sticks, whatever makes noise when people rustle through it. Car camping is so much better.

7. Cops aren't people, they're some strange demon sent to fool you with riddles and drag you away. Treat them like the Fae

8. No one gives handouts in the Northeast

9. No one calls 911 if a homeless person is ODing in California

10. Humanity is so much more about love and connectedness than any of us can understand. Sometimes you have to take advantage of that to eat.

[witchlingcirce]

"I am the Lord of Winterfell," Jon screamed. It was Robb before him now, his hair wet with melting snow. Longclaw took his head off.

ADWD, Jon XII

I actually forgot about this line from ADWD but it really does capture Jon's deep desire for winterfell + the guilt he feels alongside. It reminds me of this section from ASOS ->

That morning he called it first. "I'm Lord of Winterfell!" he cried, as he had a hundred times before. Only this time, this time, Robb had answered, "You can't be Lord of Winterfell, you're bastard-born. My lady mother says you can't ever be the Lord of Winterfell." I thought I had forgotten that. Jon could taste blood in his mouth, from the blow he'd taken.

ASOS, Jon XII

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

you can still radiate light if you’re sad. you can still be kind and soft-hearted if you’re a bit cynical. you don’t need to be the happiest person to make someone else’s day better.

[contourkit-deactivated20160224]

What if everything gets better in 2016

[melonisopod]

[junabug]

this is a genuinely haunting post in 2026

[zoesupreme]

we're for real gonna be telling stories about this man for centuries

[zoesupreme]

yall I feel like I'm floating right now

[brightlotusmoon]

[shesalittlelost]

everything about the first book feels so deliberate, the setting up of the long night and the Others is so good. a shame that we'll never see this concluded because he completely went off the rails.

[fortunate-hal]

Her arm was all gooseflesh, clammy and chilled, but she was strong, and gentler than he would have thought. Gentler than Cersei, he thought as she helped him from the tub...

Diagrams from The Barber's Manual, A. B. Moler (1931)

[across-silent-seas]

I’ve seen people attribute Robb marrying Jeyne Westerling to him being a dumb horny teenager, but I really don’t think that’s the case. Him sleeping with Jeyne is some combination of that and not necessarily thinking straight because of grief over Bran and Rickon’s supposed deaths, but marrying her actually demonstrates maturity and responsibility.

It’s very much normalized in Westeros for men to have sex outside of marriage and/or illegitimate children; we see this in Catelyn’s problem with Jon being not that Ned was (supposedly) unfaithful to her, but that he raised his (supposed) bastard in Winterfell, thus putting him on the same level as their legitimate children. This is a society where Robb could have just walked away from Jeyne after sleeping with her and suffered basically no consequences. That’s probably not true for Jeyne; society in Westeros places significant value on women’s perceived virginity, so if people knew about her sleeping with Robb, her marriage prospects and her future as a whole would likely become worse. It’s not just about the abstract concept of Jeyne’s honor — there could quite possibly be material social consequences for her that just don’t exist for Robb.

So Robb faces a decision: he can abandon Jeyne and proceed with the Frey marriage alliance, with very little negative impact on him, or he can marry Jeyne and face the consequences, taking responsibility for his actions. He chooses the latter. Since we don’t have a Robb POV, we don’t know the exact thought process behind this choice, but I don’t think it’s only due to his feelings for Jeyne. Those definitely exist, but I think he also considered the potential consequences of marrying her, and decided that he valued “protecting” her — not leaving her to deal with the repercussions of a decision that they both made — over his own political gain.

Now, is it the best decision for him to have made, given that it severely jeopardizes the Frey alliance and eventually leads to the Red Wedding? I don’t know. I think it’s easy to say, as a reader who knows the tragedy that his decision leads to, that he made the wrong choice. But wouldn’t it also have been the wrong choice to walk away from Jeyne? To me, this dilemma is much more interesting, and much more tragic, than flattening Robb marrying Jeyne into him just being an impulsive teen.

[naughtyshucklebuck]

there's also this connection to jon!

in bran's final chapter, when he has his first vision staring into the flames:

Watching the flames, Bran decided he would stay awake till Meera came back. Jojen would be unhappy, he knew, but Meera would be glad for him, He did not remember closing his eyes. … but then somehow he was back at Winterfell again, in the godswood looking down upon his father. Lord Eddard seemed much younger this time. His hair was brown, with no hint of grey in it, his head bowed. “… let them grow up close as brothers, with only love between them,” he prayed, “and let my lady wife find it in her heart to forgive …”

so, it feels a safe assumption that this actually happened, and this is either about jon or theon. and since I'm responding to a post about jeyne, I am here to attribute it to jeyne's genderswap name: jon

robb grew up with jon. the two are of an age together, and they are close! yes, jon separates from robb at the end of his second chapter, but on hearing the news about their lord father's execution, jon immediately abandons his own vows in order to join robb's campaign.

in the middle of the first chapter (not counting the prologue), robb and jon begin racing each other, leaving bran behind.

then there's this part from a storm of swords, where jon loses himself during training:

That morning he called it first. “I’m Lord of Winterfell!” he cried, as he had a hundred times before. Only this time, this time, Robb had answered, “You can’t be Lord of Winterfell, you’re bastard-born. My lady mother says you can’t ever be the Lord of Winterfell.”

to me, this reads as sad, as it immediately defers blame to lady stark and the legal system they live under.

many in the fandom have accused robb's will of stating jon as his heir.

pretty much this whole jeyne thing is a lens for robb. yes, it's one thing for him to see jeyne as a person and protect her, but it's also something for robb to consider the consequences of having sex with her, him fathering a bastard. and robb does not want to raise a bastard. if the proposal that robb's will is to legitimize jon snow, then it shows a consistent goal: robb wants to protect his family from the system that says that bastards do not become lords.

[maja-paja]

[motorway-south]

enough with the "who haunts the narrative?" olympics. let's talk about who doesn't haunt the narrrative. jon arryn's death kickstarts the entire plot and STILL no one gaf

[naughtyshucklebuck]

my favorite thing about ned is how private he is to the reader.

ned grew up in the eyrie with jon arryn as his warden and with future king robert as his foster brother. but you wouldn't know it, reading ned's chapters. he shares no memories of either of them from his childhood and it's hilarious.

[monstrous-divinity]

michelle's soft estrogenized lemonade

[paintmebluestav]

I have this theory that Robb did get resurrected after the Red Wedding.

After the Red Wedding, the number of wolves multiplied in the Trident, a pack having over 40 wolves if I am not wrong, and apparently they were lead by a very large wolf that was bigger than any other wolf.

Now the theory is that the wolf leading them is just Robb’s corpse, since he’s a man, bigger than any other wolf, but he has a wolves head and before dying his conscience went into Grey Wind so he still acts like an animal, and has the head for it. 

He’s terrorising the Trident to take revenge, similar to Lady Stoneheart which is Catelyn Stark resurrected.

Now obviously it’s a theory and I like to think of as true but the wolf leading the pack can always just Nymeria, Arya’s direwolf that she abandoned on the Trident because of Joffrey getting bitten. But it’s still fun to think of this as an alternative. It’s also because Nymeria is a direwolf, so it is in fact bigger than any wolf anyone has seen in the Trident.

[larachnae]

that fucking chrome dinosaur

[paradise-sys]

can someone please turn this into a gif

[rockergiirl]

[creekfiend]

I've been thinking a LOT about humans' species specific social needs lately, and have this half formed idea about transness as an expression of autonomy in a society which does not meet our autonomy needs. like, everything we do is about a different thing, and I am really starting to think that the different thing is usually unmet species specific needs. and you can see this in many different communities, I was just talking abt this with some friends who converted to judaism and expressed that they felt similarly about that. bc like, really crucially like... trans and queer stuff, as well as conversion to a minority religion, ideally puts you in a community of people who are seeking autonomy in the same way. they are usually motivated by a wide range of more superificial things, but underlying that ... the actual rejection of societal expectations can meet a need, regardless of how that rejection is expressed, and because rejecting societal expectations is punished, it is important for us to have supportive communities to help us protect each other from that punishment and rejection.

and Kuzu said also something really smart about how rejection can also be like... embracing as a positive something people ascribe to you as a negative, e.g. trans women who were bullied for being "too girly" etc. where society is like "these are traits and experiences and ways of moving through the world and identifying with people that you should be ashamed of" and the rejection is then, "no, I won't be ashamed of it, and actually I'm going to build a whole life around honoring and loving the person that I am, with other people who also honor and love this about me and themselves"

and then ALFIE said this other really smart thing where he was contrasting like, transness to his conversion to judaism and he said, "i really think the seeking out community is a huge part of this, and that's why i think especially trans communities that are not intergenerational in the same ways can be sort of crab buckets. like, the interruption of intergenerational queer community & the fact that queerness is randomly distributed across the population is i think very damaging and is part of why it can be very hard to manage all that. there are things that you can learn not just from institutional memory but like, how things like institutional memory works." my friends are so smart. I am often thinking this about forms of marginalization that map onto "ethnicity" type lines and those that do not. this is true also of many types of disability, I think, particularly neurodivergence communities online where people are (often understandably, considering neurotypes) looking for hard and fast Rules and Identities that isolate us generationally. i have a very hard time relating to many younger autists, for example, and I'm only 38. (edit oh my God I wrote 34? I'm not 34. i'm 38. today is a bad cognition day) but we allow our very different experiences of neurodivergence and disability to make us suspicious of others whose experiences of those things looks different or has resulted in different life outcomes. often I think this ties into class in a big way but that's another post entirely, probably. but I think that beyond being annoying or toxic or whatever, this is actually quite bad for people because it is bad for people to have to feel they are a Brand New Thing that No One Understands. it is socially beneficial to feel and believe and KNOW that you are part of a community through time, you're a type of person who has always been present in human societies, there have always been people like you, and how they live was and is usually entirely determined by the social attitudes around The Way They Were/Are. being in contact with people who provide cultural continuity between yourself and this history of People Like You is extraordinarily socially beneficial.

anyway. uh. autonomy. very important human need. one that some people suffer from lack of it more than others. I suffer from lack of it EXTREMELY in ways that produce a type of distress that is EXTREMELY punished societally. because autonomy is not considered to be an important need by the society I live in.

y'all I am so sleepy

[whateverthought]

I'm honestly surprised there aren't more Maester/Septon scandals in any of the books, like what do you mean they are trusted men who get to be around women and they aren't eunuchs like Varys or the Unsullied? ONLY the Kingsguard get to have the scandals?

[birdandmoon]

Heat waves.

[storyweavingspider]

Addition: The amount of bombs that Israel and the US have dropped on Gaza in the pursuit of genocide and settler-colonialism have significantly contributed to climate change over the past couple years and is directly linked to so many “once in a century” and “never before seen” weather and temperatures.