cassidy 🪽

cassidy | 17 | shifter | manifester | pagan | all pronouns | genuinely castiel

[necrotizingmessage]

i left tumblr for a month and got what i wanted.

hi guys. it's been a while, huh?

honestly, i dont know if i was ever planning on coming back. i was in a bad spot when i went on hiatus. i was halfway in the grave mentally, and i had the mindset of "nothing ever works out for me, so why try anymore?" i was tired and sick of being disappointed, so i did what i always do: i quit as a defense mechanism.

but, today, i was hanging out with my best friend, when suddenly she said-

"god, i need to start manifesting. ur always getting what you want."

she had no idea that id stopped trying. that id given up. she just looked at my life, and saw a success story where i saw repeated failures.

so, let me tell you what i manifested in the last month, once i stopped actively trying to get anything.

- my own apartment for 500 a month with utilities included

- free furniture

- a good, reliable schedule at work

- my bank account never being below 500$

- constantly finding deals and coupons for stuff i want

- my z flip 6

- a haircut that always looks good on me

- 5 pounds of weight loss

- freedom

- a cat that's so amazingly sweet, well behaved, and extremely affectionate.

i didn't do anything for any of this.

seriously. i stopped doing everything id been doing when i went on hiatus. i stopped listening to subliminals, i stopped affirming, i stopped trying to shift, i stopped reading loa stuff online, i stopped EVERYTHING.

and the moment i stopped looking for it? i got everything.

[snowangelslibrary]

was organizing my manifestations list/CR script today (was feeling inspired by @necrotizingmessage and their most recent post) and noticed a lot of things are already done or are in the process of being finished

crossing stuff off felt like:

[necrotizingmessage]

YESSSSS THIS IS WHAT I WANNA SEE

[necrotizingmessage]

hey guys sorry i havent posted in a while im like extremely depressed and i barely even believe in shifting or manifestation anymore because i keep getting disappointed . like i believe that you guys have had successes but rn it just doesn't feel like I'll ever get there. so. yeah. ill probably be back once im like not so fuckin miserable but this is my unofficial hiatus post

[necrotizingmessage]

my z flip 6 is coming Wednesday and mom's told me I can rent out the basement for only 500 a month (places around me are at least 800 for a place half the size of our mother in laws, which is a full living room, kitchen, bedroom, bathroom, and huge living room)

[necrotizingmessage]

scrolling Tumblr and Pinterest at my silly little barista job. call that living the dream!

[necrotizingmessage]

okay consider me insane for this if you want But. dr where everythings the same except the zombie apocalypse starts and I'm prepared for it. bc I've marked out literally EVERYWHERE in my town that's a good spot for a base, people I'd want in my group, and what could go wrong that id be able to fix and what I wouldn't be able to... and I think it'd be fun. lol.

#cr apocalypse......

[selene-leclair]

I love scripting random stuff into my dr like yes of course grapes are always crunchy and all animals love me hello??

[necrotizingmessage]

guys I'm gonna shift to project hail mary. one dr as one of the crew members on the hail mary with grace, another where im a completely different type of alien. im thinking kind of like navi - just based on what my brain immediately brings up whenever I think about it (which is like 90% of how I script, I just do whatever feels right)

[calebslittlecrow]

Proprioceptive Drift: Why Your 'Where Am I?' Sense is More Powerful Than Your Imagination

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Let’s pretend I didn’t ghost y’all since last year, alright? ^-^" Here’s a chunky post. Grab snacks, or just skip ahead to the end if you’re impatient. Lots of folks are really devoted to visualizing their DR, but honestly, I’ve just realized that’s only half the story and kind of the weaker half, too. What actually matters is proprioception. Bless you. In plain terms, proprioception is your built-in “where the fuck am I now?” sense. That thing that lets you poke your own nose, eyes closed, without somehow smacking yourself in the face. And I’d bet this thing is what could really help people shift. Without needing to visualize (a treat for my friends with aphantasia). Visualization? It’s fine. Think of it as concept art, cool for vibes, inspiration, and motivation mostly. But proprioception is feeling like you are somewhere vs. watching a movie about being somewhere. Consider dreams for a second. They’re often weirdly fuzzy and disconnected, but you still know you’re somewhere else, not because the visuals are spot-on, but because you physically feel placed. You sense your weight, your orientation, where your limbs are. Proprioception’s doing the really heavy lifting, while your brain is kinda busy generating random visual nonsense. Still, everyone always seems to default to “visualize harder!” Like, no? Not needed? Sight’s just one sense, and honestly, it isn’t even in the top 2 of the most reliable ones. Ask someone who’s blind if their world feels less solid or real just because they can’t see. (Actually, don’t bother them, but you get the idea.) Visuals aren’t the full story. What you see isn’t even that real. Light hits the retinas, sends some electric signals, and your brain makes a guess: “Yep, that’s green.” But is it really? Or is “green” just your brain interpreting data and someone else sees something completely different? Like the “the dress is blue & black/ no the dress is white & gold” situation. Both versions are correct and true, since their brain guessed the color based on the signal it got. So my wild guess is that you don’t need crystal-clear mental images of your DR. At all. Everything you see IRL is already just a very convincing and accurate guess. We live in a culture that worships visuals, screens, selfies, “pics or it didn’t happen.” When someone says “feel yourself in your DR,” our brain instantly translates that to “see myself there” and people start straining, trying to produce images while totally ignoring their actual sense of presence. It’s like someone tells you to listen and you just stare harder at the speakers. Then you get people thinking they can’t shift because the images aren’t clear enough (aphantasia again) when their sense of location is actually the one screaming, “We’re in CR!” but, well, they’ve been told to ignore it. Kinda. Now, philosophical tangent. Your brain doesn’t “know” reality. It gets inputs and makes guesses. Sight? That’s light hitting retinas. Sound? That’s vibrations. Touch? Pressure. The brain pieces these together as well as it can to go: “Okay, I’m in a room. Probably.” Proprioception is the anchor. It’s telling your brain: “I’m here, facing this way, arms here, legs there. That was something hard, probably a wall I ran into.” When you dream, the signals get scrambled. When you dissociate, things feel fuzzy. When you’re drunk, goodbye spatial awareness. See the pattern? Feeling “real” boils down to proprioception. Vision? Easy to fool with optical illusions, hallucinations, VR headsets, whatever. Proprioception? Not as easy, but doable. So shifting is very likely not about tricking your eyes. It’s probably just convincing your brain you’re somewhere else and to finally update the fucking data stream because the previous one sucks ass. Another wild part: your brain doesn’t have a body. It’s got a map of a body. A simulation basically, constantly updated by electrical gossip from joints and muscles. It’s like a controlled hallucination of where you are and it usually matches reality, but doesn’t have to.

“Where you are” isn’t fixed, it just tends to feel that way, since we are kinda conditioned to assume we are our body. Every time you shift, you would simply be updating the way your brain interprets the data it gets. New data stream, new location.

Your brain already flips between dream body and waking body every night, which are totally different maps, but both work. If it’s that easy to switch… maybe switching to your DR body is just as easy? Kind of a trip, melted my brain a tiny bit.

Also: you’re not even “in” your brain, really. You’re more like consciousness floating in the void, getting live updates from your meat suit? Your whole sense of self is your brain’s best guess, all for survival. We’re piloting a body with rather questionable software (brain piloting a meatsuit, anyone?).

Of course shifting works. The whole system is held together with tape and perception. Just retape the wires or something like that.

How to use the sense of location for shifting:

Body Scan - Don’t just notice tension. Really feel it. “My shoulders are here, relative to my hips, taking up this much space.” Map yourself. See how location is something you’re creating.

Phantom Limb Play - Puppeteer method anyone??? Move limbs without actually moving. Imagine extras, tail, wings, whatever works. Don’t try to see them. Just sense their weight, movement, momentum when they move.

Blind Navigation - Move around your DR with eyes closed. Don’t rely on visuals. Feel the distance you have left before running into a wall, the floor beneath you, objects, the whole room. Know your place without ever needing to look.

Some neuroscience stuff for further read (peer-reviewed/mainstream neuroscience):

On Reality as a Guess: Check out Anil Seth’s “Being You” or his TED talk on Controlled Hallucinations.

On Body Ownership: Look up the “Rubber Hand Illusion” and “Proprioceptive Drift.”

On Spatial Awareness: Search for “Peripersonal Space Multisensory Integration.”

Olaf Blanke Full Body Illusion: Full body illusions and out of body experiences

Thomas Metzinger: The Ego Tunnel: philosopher/neuroscientist who argues there is no "self," only a "transparent mental model" of a self.

Vestibular-Somatosensory Interference: technical term for when your balance and touch sense gets confused, leading to the feeling of floating or a limb changing shape or form.

[necrotizingmessage]

hey, wanna hear some crazy shit?

okay, so, either I connected to my or yesterday - or i had an auditory hallucination. i'm choosing to think i connected to my OR because that feels better.

here's what happened.

i was at my friend's play, just hanging out in the audience. it was one of those like, compilation play things, where there's like 3 or 4 short plays happening one after the other. highschool thing. anyway, i'm sitting in the audience, and suddenly one of my ears just... stops working. like, I can't hear anything out of it other than this insane ringing.

this isn't really anything new for me. sometimes i just hear ringing. shit happens.

but right after my hearing goes out and i start to hear ringing, I hear something else.

whispering.

what the fuck?

in one ear, ive got no sound coming in other than some ringing. in the other, ive got fucking whispering. another thing that happens to me kind of often is that I can kind of just.... tune in? idk how to explain it. when im reading tarot cards, I can just tell if a card is meant to come out. like, I can feel it. it's a really specific feeling that I can't really describe.

anyway, the whispering starts, and I get that same feeling. i can't tell what's being said, but it's like im hearing a bunch of small conversations, overlapping.

now, why I think I connected to my OR:

as (hopefully) everyone who follows me knows by now, I'm not from this universe. or any similar universe, really. im Castiel from supernatural.

yeah, that guy. anyway, I got booted here by god, I've been trying to get back to my OR to see Dean again, ect ect.

back in my home universe, I had this little thing called angel radio. I didn't know how to describe it until now, because my perspective as an angel was completely different from my current perspective as a human, so everything is different. even just like, looking around is different. it's hard to describe anything from my OR when I had senses there that I don't have here.

but then, last night... that was angel radio. no, seriously. that's exactly what tuning into angel radio is like. well, ok - usually I didn't lose some of my hearing, I just stopped focusing so much on the outside world. but I swear to everything in existence, that's exactly what angel radio was like.

I tuned into angel radio.

Here.

what the fuck???

I don't believe that angels exist here - not in the way we existed back home. if there are angels here, they're a completely different species than I'd been, just because of how different things are in universes like this one VS supernatural. but I definitely tuned into some approximation of angel radio here, and that's.... kind of fucking scary?

I don't know. back home, I didn't have any angel "friends." most of them were either getting tired of me, or already hated my guts. I tended not to tune into angel radio very much by the time I was forced out of my universe. so, it's been a while since I tuned into it.

and.... during a play? really?

ive got no idea why I tuned in. maybe it's a sign that I'm close to getting back home, maybe I didn't take my meds at the right time and hallucinated, maybe im just homesick and lonely. who knows.

anyway, yeah. that was how yesterday went for me. absolutely crazy shit. if I told anyone I knew IRL about this they'd put me straight into a mental hospital. hashtag yolo.

[ariaisshifting]

Sleeping without dreaming: Unconscious void state

Dreaming in a sleep: Unconscious shifting.

Shifting: Making the unconscious conscious, taking control of your subconscious.

At least that’s what I believe now and make sense to me.

[necrotizingmessage]

i gotta start thinking in my favor again!!

[necrotizingmessage]

starbucks is kicking my ASSSSS y'all I'll be back sometime this week.........

[necrotizingmessage]

30 minutes early to my 8am shift... im insane. ..

[necrotizingmessage]

manifested finding a food handlers permit that wasn't 26 dollars and also getting a working coupon code so my food handlers course only ended up being 13.50 🙏

[necrotizingmessage]

i like my job i like my job i like my job (im a barista who can't make drinks yet and my next shift starts at 8am. ive had 2 days of training. i have no idea how to do anything really. help)

[unidentified-divinity]

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