NeferiousHan

just my thoughts and a reasonable amount of chaos

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thinking about how will was always forced to become someone else, to be other people, to always feel the emotion of whoever was in front of him due to his empathy, but hannibal made him feel like himself, for the very first time. not a killer, an agent, a tool in jack's hands, just himself. how addicting that must've been for will, to be who he is to the very core.

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Stede barely surviving being stabbed and hanged and immediately after waking up from having the worst fever dreams ever, looking like a dead man walking, he started showing off his pretty clothes and fancy books to Ed, even before he knew he was Blackbeard. He just saw a random hot man in his room and got up to show him his backup wardrobe. I love him so much.

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thinking about how izzy, the biggest outsider of the Revenge crew since the beginning (first as a traitor, then as a captain they all hated) was the one to bring the two halves of the crew together after Stede got the Revenge back, because they all saw him collapse and crawl into his room and decided he needed help. And they made him a new leg, for the new unicorn.

Izzy Hands united the crew that was separated and traumatised because of him.

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how can a line be so devastating and so healing at the same time

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there's something very human in people having a favourite color. sometimes because of a specific reason, sometimes just because they like it. and it's amazing how that simple information can bring us closer, like, no, I didn't know you existed two days ago. but your favourite color is purple and suddenly I can't imagine you picking anything else.

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I love the stupid gay pirates show with their stupid historically inaccurate lines and characters and places and with their stupid "pirates wear crop tops and leather jackets" and "you can sail through the ocean on a rowboat and find exactly who you need to find without navigating at all" and with their stupid little izzy hands healing when he thought himself unredeemable and ed teach being in love when he thought he was unlovable and stupid stede bonnet with his "talk it through as a crew" and lucius spriggs drawing everyone naked and having sex for 24 hours straight because he got engaged and the stupid pretty landscapes and music and coloring. Stupid fucking show. I love it.

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lucius's little "maybe it's not death, maybe life just... begins again?" has healed something in me, something I didn't even knew could be healed

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I need ofmd season 3 because I have to see one entire episode centred about the fact that one of the crew members wants a cat and frenchie is terrified of them, so they have a whole group therapy session, slowly and patiently telling frenchie cats don't have knives in their paws. and then the cat sits on frenchies lap all calm and cute. accidentally scratches him. and frenchie just launches himself off the ship screaming

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Izzy Hands was loyal to Blackbeard through it all, he never wanted him to suffer, he couldn't find a way to save him after Stede left, so he chose the only way he knew and it costed him his leg. And then he forgave Ed immediately.

Something in this character, that is so brutal and mean, but ultimately the most forgiving, caring and true to himself, even when he was terrified of showing any kind of feelings is so dear to me.

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relating to hannibal lecter and edward 'blackbeard' teach, but not in a "I'm cool, rich and famous" way but a "I cannot trust anyone, and the one time I did, I got betrayed" way

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being queer in a kind of accepting, kind of open minded (but not too much, not you-can-talk-about-it-freely much, not Tell Your Aunt, It's Alright much) family, that you love deeply, but just can't forgive some things, can't forget the slurs, the jokes, the Bad Stuff is just completely tearing yourself down and building back up, repeatedly, until there's almost nothing left.

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Six of Crows is the best grishaverse book, but Crooked Kingdom is the best Crows book

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maybe life is just noticing things. noticing that girl on the train reading a travel book. noticing the way your shoes are worn out and faded from so many years of using them. noticing the way clouds move when it's gonna rain. noticing the journal you wrote when you were 12 under your childhood bed. noticing the details.

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one thing about life, it will never be enough. No matter if you lived up to 100 or 30, when you see the end coming, your life will always feel incomplete, the to-do list will never be finished, the experiences you missed out on will always haunt you. Life will never be enough, so appreciate every single day. Relax. Live a little without focusing on the milestones on the way. We'd all be happy if we made it to them, anyway.

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with Inej being off at sea and the Crows preparing for the Ice Court Heist I'd love to see a scene in season 3, where Kaz sits in his office and has a flashback of Inej sitting in the window, feeding the birds and laughing. And when Jesper walks into the room to report something, he stops just before leaving and asks "do you miss her sometimes?". And Kaz, without raising his head, asks back " miss who?". And Jesper leaves, sighing.

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I'd love to see some au where everything in soc/ck is exactly the same, except Kaz is a girl and Kanej is this bittersweet lesbian romance.

"we'll be queens, Inej."

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it's amazing how pretty much EVERY ACTOR on the show is casted perfectly. Jack Wolfe is just Wylan that got here from the grishaverse dimension like someone threw him across the multiverse. Freddie Carter is the only adult Kaz Brekker I can imagine. Kit Young plays himself. Danielle Galligan is exactly what I imagined Nina to be, her face, her movements. Sujaya Dasgupta has the most Zoya-like features and vibe I could ever imagine. And Patrick Gibson has the face of a perfect mix of the funny, confident pirate and a dangerous, clever prince. How did they do this. Did the casting directors just went on a little trip to the books and pulled those people out of there?