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25\she\UA Cyberpunk, other games, casual blog of things I like.

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"Hey, interested in some content? Completely homemade, and special for you to enjoy."

I'm looking for new people to talk to and meet, be a part of community and collaborations, find mutuals, and interact. So go on, talk to me.

Welcome my character, Arki, with deep lore and a developing story with a huge cast of amazing characters from different artists! Cyberpunk2078 - Pandemonium Chapter one.

NightCorp Database entry - Arki.

NightCorp Database entry - Pandemonium.

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Since my post yesterday I knew those thoughts would come back again, so I'll quickly write them down and explain what plagues me.

I am kinda afraid to post any written stuff here ‒ Ryder's chapter 4 specifically.

See, it always happens that the content I'm super proud of stays often unnoticed and even I got some tag comments that people will sit down to read it I rarely to never receive any feedback on the actual content itself afterward.

Most tag comments address the graphical way it was posted in the first place. At least this is how I receive it via my notifications.

I should not give a fuck about it, yet I do (working on this to overcome it eventually one day), as I know a few of my friends and followers do like my content and some told me in private about a few things.

But here is me wanting to desperately know how people felt reading about what we/I wrote so far!

I wanna know how they saw Ryder all the time since I created him and how they do see him now (after reading his take on Techno(ise) and previous chapters but especially when I post chapter 04).

I wanna know if my writing did move someone.

What was written stood out the most.

A favorite special detail.

A favorite sentence.

Stuff like that.

Recapping it all so far, we didn't really receive anything like that on the previous 3 chapters here with one exception.

I wanna know what people think of the Golden Demon of Kabuki.

How they see Vijay.

What they think of the fight scenes (they were so hard to write).

Do they like the dynamic of the characters?

What's the favorite chapter so far.

And so on.

The major thing I receive as a tag comment mostly is how incredible our/my work is ‒ yeah but what specifically? Just give me a detail that actually does tell me you have read it.

I project the tag comments mostly onto how it is packed as in the skill in graphic and layout design. The thing is, my choomzies, I know I am good at this ‒ I do not need to know my graphic skills are xyz good. This is a normal standard for me. Yes I understand a lot of people see it compliment worthy but it really is not what I seek after.

The real deal is the writing and the characters and their dynamics we both (@nervouswizardcycle and me) would love feedback on the most.

How do u see Arki? Vijay? Ryder? Hizumi?

The team's dynamic so far.

Who do you think is main protagonist in this?

What about the music we picked?

Anything.

Maybe I ask for too much, or maybe I should throw just the text onto ao3 without any graphics at all in hope to get the comments we seek after. But this story deserves more than just a text form given the magic of VP and digital tools we have.

I am super good in wishful thinking but reality hits you in the face every day anew.

Also: if there's anyone who feels the same about their work, feel free to tag/contact/send me your stuff, whether be it writing, vp or anything you wish to have a comment on.

I'm sick of this fast paced internet behavior our brains took on during the past few years. No one has time for anything at all (that still includes me too and I am working on it to be better). It's the main reason why I left so many discords now and don't participate on most social media platforms anymore either. Having 5 or more apps to post your content eats all the time and drains you. So I made the decision to focus on my own little server and tblr mainly now.

A small tip:

If I see a post with a lot of text over here (mostly when I get tagged on) I save it to my drafts so I'll always see it as a reminder to sit down and read through it. Bc if I just like it, and reblog it immediately with adding a tag telling the OP I need to find time to read asap, bru, I just won't do it bc it vanishes amongst my other likes/reblogs.

Dunno, but others maybe might add an extra tag where they go through it again to have it as a reminder?However, using drafts is the thing that works for me best when I want to read someones content on another day bc I got noticed or saw it but currently have no time bc of. eg. work.

Anyhow, enough babbling.

I'm off to play at bit Horizon. Thx for reading choom <3

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— Supporting shots taken for: /// CH02_ENCOUNTER_IN_THE_AFTERLIFE.file — Pics by @nervouswizardcycle. ♥️ Arki belongs to her, Vijay and Ryder belong to me. —

⚠️ READ: Please do not repost/reupload any of my friends art here or to any other platform, or I will be forced to do anything to get it annihilated.

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Pic by @nervouswizardcycle. ♥️ Arki belongs to her, Vijay belongs to me.

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CHEVVY – cyberpunk themed blog. hobby photographer - real and virtual. graphic designer. about. | x. | inst. | pfrt. ////////////////////////////////////////////////////

A story set after the events of Cyberpunk 2077 and original story idea of my friend @nervouswizardcycle for her own V Arki. Somehow I happened to integrate my boys into this story and now we both spend our free time writing it all together, doing vp and what not for it. If you are interested feel free to take a look at the #Cyberpunk 2078 – Pandemonium tag for more info and themed posts.

CHAPTER LIST: /// CH01_THE_GOLDEN_DEMON_OF_KABUKI.file /// CH02_ENCOUNTER_IN_THE_AFTERLIFE.file //////////////////////////////////////////////////// ORIGINAL CHARACTERS:

/// CORE_ ryder_von_scharfenberg.exe breaching_ ⌬⏤ ABOUT ⌬⏤ AESTHETICS ♥︎⏤ Thyjs de Wit ship shards found. initiating list_ ⇲ _stuck_on_you.archive ⇲ _black_camo.archive ⇲ _scorp.archive ⇲ _tech_bitez.archive ⇲ _dark_pink.archive 〉

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/// CORE_ thyjs_de_wit.exe breaching_ ⌬⏤ ABOUT ⌬⏤ AESTHETICS ♥︎⏤ Ryder von Scharfenberg ship shards found. initiating list_ ⇲ _black_camo.archive 〉 ////////////////////////////////////////////////////

/// CORE_ vijay_steyr.exe breaching_ ⌬⏤ ABOUT ⌬⏤ AESTHETICS ♥︎⏤ @nervouswizardcycle's Arki ship shards found. initiating list_ ⇲ _stuck_on_you.archive ⇲ _spiced_paprika.archive ⇲ _bi-runners.archive 〉 ////////////////////////////////////////////////////

/// CORE_ jaysen_steyr.exe breaching_ ⌬⏤ ABOUT ⌬⏤ AESTHETICS ♥︎⏤ @gloryride's Enzo Sarto ship shards found. initiating list_ ⇲ _bi-runners.archive ⇲ _baby_drivers.archive 〉 ////////////////////////////////////////////////////

/// CORE_ hizumi_chigasaki.exe breaching_ ⌬⏤ ABOUT ⌬⏤ AESTHETICS 〉 ////////////////////////////////////////////////////

/// CORE_ falco_garnet_ritter.exe breaching_ ⌬⏤ ABOUT ⌬⏤ AESTHETICS ship shards found. initiating list_ ⇲ _tech_bitez.archive 〉 ////////////////////////////////////////////////////

/// CORE_ loreley-raab-scharfenberg.exe breaching_ ⌬⏤ ABOUT ⌬⏤ AESTHETICS ♥︎⏤ @astarionhistears's Selene ship shards found. initiating list_ ⇲ _Ry&Ley.archive (wip) ⇲ _Selene&Ley.archive (wip + need of npvs) 〉 //////////////////////////////////////////////////// —————————–———– CHROME CHAMBER RAVE —————————–———– —— MAIN | ABOUT | RULES | AESTHETICS | DRESSCODE ——

//////////////////////////////////////////////////// Please do not repost any of my art, otherwise Demon of Kabuki is going to hunt you down. Thank you.

Curious about the tag system? Take a peak:

real photography shots go with #chev.rl.shots

when getting creative and inspired I make graphics out of the photo content that go with #chev.graphics

trying to tag every V, I reblog with their names (without the 'oc:') dividing between #male v, #female v, #nonbinary v etc.

extremely god mode vp shots get a #this is art tag

adult content is tagged with #nsft

everything personal is either #thoughts or #rant I guess

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Two further test pics under the cut:

I MADE IT! After nearly 2 years of waiting and thinking and what not I sat down last night and eventually made Hizumi.

I said before they will probably look different compared to me. After all Hizumi is half Japanese and half American (I am neither of the two) and my hair style simply doesn't exist (also not in my color combination).

So deal with it Hizumi looks different compared to my 'cosplay' pics. Idk how much I will change on them, maybe the hair color, make up or not. Also not sure is I want to use any UV framework as bruh I simply have no vigor to read through all this stuff. I'd like to have small boobs to flat chest but it won't help me much and give me only less clothing mods as flat chest rare compare to the entire opposite.

Guess Hizumi has to deal will the small vanilla boobs and the curvy hip (like I have to as well). I'd need an entire customized body for them that simply doesn't esist. so yeah. enough rambling.

I'll shower you with Hizumi in the future as well!

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Valentin & Mitch | 673/?? 💚

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when you're out missing your rat and you gotta go home to see him

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Happy birthday Queen

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You wanna touch it.

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——HIZUMI CHIGASAKI's 2075 LOOK——

lorebit:

Hizumi has already heard rumors about the Golden Demon of Kabuki as Tyger Claws brought the neighborhood legend back to Japan, that some mysterious demon is fucking up their clan rapidly overseas in the NUSA in their favorite trafficker metropole Night City.

Hizumi immediately adapts to the Kabuki demons look so they can cause mayhem and confusion amongst the Tyger Claws even in Japan, as they hate them to the bone. They are only missing the samurai mask yet (they will have later as keepsake of their dead brother who was dumb enough to join the Claws and didn't make it).

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I bought cyberpunk like stuff in Tokyo for pimping up some real life Hizumi outfit that is before 2077. I love Japan has an official shop with stuff like that as I only know etsy shops selling similar gear. In this shop, located at Laforet in Harajuku, I was allowed to try everything on if I wanted to and look at it to be sure to throw my money at them without a doubt. I could have bought so much more but I had to restirct myself a little with it as it's really not that cheap and you still have to be careful as it is mostly plastics that can break easily.

Ladies and gentleman, the loot:

mask

bracelet

cardholder

ears

key holder

earring

by the brand:

中央町戦術工芸

Chuoucho Senjutsukugei

Already did a small shoot in Japan but I'm not so content with it (as I was tired but wanted to at least have some shots done in Japan).

So this is probably going to be an earlier outfit/style Hizumi had when they still haven't traveled over to the NUSA as they only start doing it once their brother joins the Tyger Claws in 2077 with Hizu tailing him to try and talk it out of him and for bringing him back home.

So that's why Hizumi has/will have no face cyberware and uses red contact lenses (no kiroshi). The golden clawed glove is their own interpretation of the one that the Golden Demon of Kabuki is said to have. They will eventually cross path with the mysterious cryptid of Night City in 2077.

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Dark OC Asks : 1 for Jay, 5 for Vijay, 6 for Ry and 12 for Thyjs <33

1. Excluding murder, what is the worst thing your OC has ever done?

With him not murdering anyone? Well, he hacked numerous people and programmed their brains to make them murder each other. Does that count then? Other than that I cannot think of something better. He once hacked himself into the NCPD security net when he was bored during the time he was doomed to stay in a netrunner chair in the HQ. He caused an entire blackout with prison cells all opening that held some cyberpsychos in there who ofc tried to get out violently. They needed to call Max Tac back in. It's definitely not the worst he's done but the worst non lethal in his career as cop.

5. What is your OC's moral code?

Vijay tends to be guided by his own moral code rather than strict adherence to the law, and he believes that individuals should be free to make their own decisions as long as they do not harm others. But he follows a few law rules still; e.g. he sees it as it is not for him to decide to kill a person bc they murdered someone else. As a merc V would always hand them over to the law in the first place. He acts based on his moral compass, which is guided by the desire to help others and promote good in the world. He also has a strong sense of personal responsibility for his own actions and takes a balanced approach to problem-solving, weighing the pros and cons of each situation. There is a difficulty with morally grey choices: Vijay as a mostly neutral good character may find it challenging to navigate morally ambiguous situations, as he is more likely to seek a solution that benefits the greater good. This may as well lead to internal conflict or even trouble with fellow party members in some situations (he's the only one who goes first with "thou shall not kill, whiel the rest of the team kills either mercilessly or when the situation is so tricky it's the only way to do).

6. Would your OC make a deal with the devil?

Ryder may look like he would do that but he certainly would not. The burden he's got to carry on his shoulders each day sort of feels like there was deal made with an evil netloard anyways – only the didn't ask him if he wants to.

12. If your OC was arrested, what would the charges be?

His charges not only would be, they have occured in the past: – for electrifying a commanding officer almost deadly because the dude has been very inappropriate* to his assigned recruits. *Thyjs doesn't tolerate outdated drill behavior that is nothing but bullying the newbie soldiers for the own ego and because of being of a higher rank. - for having shocked a potential taliban member during interrogation so hard they fell into a cardiac arrest but have been brought back immediately by Thyjs using his electric cybernetic hand as defibrillator* *the captive took no real damage though but this wasn't the given order to do so, yeah, charged for that – accidental explosion of an ammunition depot caused by his grenade launcher during a field training session* * This happened when Thyjs had his cyberarm and the launcher brand new unable to fully control it yet. Noone died but nontheless he got charged for it as the whole depot with tons of ammunition exploded.

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WIP Wednesday

Got tagged by noone and making a new one!

But I tag: @dreamskug and @astarionhistears, @gloryride, @nervouswizardcycle, @streetkid-named-desire, @koda-shoulda-woulda-but-didnt, @robininthewoods90, @ouroboros-hideout, @wraithsoutlaws, @dustymagpie, @therealnightcity, @elvenbeard, @heywoodvirgin, @86maylin and @itzsassha – also everyone who likes to do it as always and no pressure!

Today I'm gonna talk about Thyjs on my wip as these unfinished thoughts have been sitting in my drafts for quite a while, so expect only a long text post — my mind still circles a lot about him how to portrait Thyjs the best way — mostly in writing but also in pics.

I know he looks all sweet and cute when he's together with Ryder, and I imagine he can be funny as well especially with his cute Dutch accent, but I think he definitely needs to have some negative trait too, since he's definitely 'the most sane' when it comes to uh … 'problems as a Night City citizen'? – as he's not from NC – and Europe being different than NUSA.

Since he's a soldier I think he should definitely have some form of ptsd. There is no way he doesn't have that.

The sudden loss of almost all of his squad definitely was the most traumatic event that happened to him, but also eventually led to him accepting he has to talk about that and accept and allow his emotions to come through, too.

I'm no expert (more likely a noob) when it comes to ptsd but I think losing his father two years prior made him more 'unemotional' than before as he was also drilled by Militech to be a war machine — to be strong, have less emotions to the point to shut them down. Maybe also combat stims provided to bring emotions into the background? (have to look it up).

He didn't see it happen how his father died, but he found footage later after he began to try finding out why and what really happened (Cynosure) that eventually leads to the traumatic end of his squad the more he found out. He always thought his father was indestructible. He looked up to him.

His tie with his father and mother was good, so no trauma through his childhood except when he got mobbed by other young teenage trainees for his albinism at first <- turned him into the direction: "show them you can do it nonetheless, that you can beat them in training", which led to Thyjs being one of the best soldiers in the end -> brought him to KCT and into the international spec ops team after many deployments worldwide.

So I think along his way to become a soldier and various events more or less traumatic (as he's seen a lot of death, destruction and had to kill on command, without mercy and even torture captives for information, was struck by lightning and the loss of his left forearm) he started developing some emotional numbness or psychical numbing. His affectivity went into the background (as he is not interested to form special bonds or a love relationship) and he's more distant towards the normal life as he doesn't have one (e.g. may not have spent his free time with typical army spare time activities like his other mates did. Instead he used it to train/educate himself even more). He cannot enjoy simple daily life and has to learn how to integrate again after the accident as his soldier career has ended. The loss of his future expectation lets him have no perspective at first and he feels empty inside and utterly betrayed by Militech. The army was his life.

Thanks to Ryder he is able to join the merc team and finds a new purpose (help and mostly protection of the team). Through Ryder and the others he learns to integrate himself into 'the normal' life (as I don't see merc life on the same level as soldier life). Night City is at first ofc too much for him so he often goes back out into the badlands to find some 'peace', away from the noise, time to think and breathe, process it all, grapple with all the new impressions and emotions that hail down on him. He needs some time-out once in a while to process the 'daily life' he consumes now every day as well. That may explain why he’s still a bit more distant towards Ryder/the team for a certain while as he has to learn how to get around with each of them and especially the impulsive character Ryder has until he knows him better, as he got offered to live in Ry’s flat. 

Then he discovers he slowly develops feelings for Ryder he never had felt before ever. They are subtle at first but get stronger and he accepts them eventually and starts to allow himself to show them to him. He rediscovers what feelings truly are, what joy is and how you laugh with a bright earnest smile on your lips and what it is to be in love with someone.

Last time he may have felt real and pure joy was when he was a child. As a small boy, before Militech school started, he was always obsessed over flowers and loved to draw. Now that he's a merc with having more spare time he begins to pick this up again and that's why he goes (and even asks Ryder to come with him) to art galleries and starts thinking about making art as well or just buys a bouquet of flowers he looks at for hours. Goes back to listening to classical music too. I think this is sort of his 'own' therapy choice to get back into normal life. He definitely sees a MedTech for treatment as well who may have suggested to him to just do that once they found out what Thyjs 'does enjoy'.

This will probably be super hard to write and I'll never reach that goal in perfection either but I try at least to steer it this way, be it only details or Thyjs talking about it.

Thyjs also opens fully up only to Ryder. He may be friendly to everyone (as he's learned to keep a fake 'joy' smile) and also likes everyone in the team but he only talks about his true insecurities in every detail with Ry. The rest of the team only gets a superficial version of it. That is my plan.

I always picture him more like a peripheral figure when the team enjoys e.g. a billiard play in The Afterlife. He's the one who just sits in the corner and watches rather than plays billiards. He's trained to watch the area and surroundings nonstop, so it's hard for him to let go of that fully — at least for a while.

Idk if Ry and Thy will ever argue about something. It's likely to happen but I can't think of any situation yet. I really do see them as one heart and soul and that they complete each other. Thyjs, being totally reserved, learns Ryder to be calmer while Ryder, being totally impulsive and full with all of kinds of emotions, helps Thyjs to rediscover and let out his emotions as well on top shows him how to live more normal (as merc life also is not that normal).

In fact I think everyone of my boys (except Jay maybe - maybe not, maybe he's got it too) had their own ptsd moments they have to fight with more or less each day. I don't want to analyze it entirely but thinking about it is just very interesting. But as said I'm no expert in that but I doubt there will be someone pointing their finger at me telling me "this is false what you wrote" in the end, so I spent my time with thinking about it and write down and share some bits and pieces.

Kudos if you read all this <3

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*I've watched a video about a German former KSK (Kommando Spezialkräfte) soldier not long ago who has ptsd that came along with psychic numbing and he told a bit about what he did and still does to integrate himself into normal daily living, surround himself with people, regain his emotions (like to laugh) and for him it is working with animals as he has now four dogs. Hard to explain. But I got inspired by that and now I'm trying to figure something out for Thyjs what might be good for him to get back into a 'normal' life as he's no soldier anymore.

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Zayn when the bar is crowded, vs Zayn when it's just the two of them.

boots -> [x] pants -> [x]

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A rare, quiet night