ND-diaries

Undiagnosed(in progress) This body is 23 and honestly this is just a blog for us to rant/sh*tpost etc.

[neuro-queer]

And I don’t know who I am, who is this?? This is like a fleshy prison that I cannot escape.. are my thoughts mine? Is this a “we”? Am I faking this? Am I faking everything? But if I were, wouldn’t that be a sign of something else going on??

I don’t know what I like, I don’t know who I am, or even if I am an “I”, ADHD, Autism, OSDD, BPD, they are labels, and people keep telling me that we are more than our labels, but what if the only sense of control I have over myself is differentiating what I *do* have??

I don’t want to shield behind any diagnoses, we are not looking for an excuse, but more of clarification of what the hell is going on inside..

[actuallyautistichelpblog]

[leafsea]

hologram // 2.15.2019

[myreticentvale-deactivated20231]

Keep the flame going for those we have lost to suicide. 

[maddisonkennedy-deactivated2017]

Couldn’t scroll

[thy-devil-princess-deactivated2]

I don’t give a fuck if this doesn’t suit your ‘theme’ have a heart and reblog.

[mental-wanderings]

Be kind and gentle to each other. And yourself.

[transstuffandmore]

Please Reblog is Your Blog is Safe for Non-Binary People.

[victim-or-survivor]

the trauma moods

i wonder why my life is in shambles that's weird

i'm going to redesign my room and paint a portrait and binge watch six shows and dye my hair and start a makeup brand and write a novel and read poetry and clean my whole house and

i Can't Get Out Of Bed

uh oh sisters! *showers with the lights off*

cries in the car and almost crashes accidentally

tv static noises

*wakes up* [redacted] *goes to sleep*

i haven't slept in 72 hours and i'm talking a lot about ophelia and reciting hamlet's soliloquies and everyone around me is worried

trying to sleep but there's Something In My Room

*texts abuser(s)* oh this is a fantastic idea

i'm horny and angry about it

i'm horny and sad about it

masturbates and then cries

If You Touch Me I Will Kill You

*thinks about trauma* oh that sucks for whoever that was

oh, wait, that actually happened?????

Shame

i'm going to starve myself until i'm so small no one will want me

i'm going to overeat until i'm so big no one will want me

*throws up for unknown reason*

talk about trauma, but make it funny

I CAN'T DO SOMETHING REALLY SIMPLE AND INSTEAD OF WORKING THROUGH IT I'M GONNA YELL AND HURT MYSELF UNTIL I GET TIRED

i have forgotten every single coping skill i've ever learned

hnnnnnnng

*listens to music from That Time and gets weirdly nostalgic*

i Want To Be Abused

i will never love again! ever!

confuses platonic and romantic emotions because anything that feels Good is confusing

[alittlebitmessedupgirl]

[heavensghost]

Brenna Twohy

[neuro-queer]

TW-Mild swearing, inv*lidat*on, other mental disorders and idk what else tbh..

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For some st*pid reason we tried to tell our mom that we suspect OSDD-1b HOWEVER she proceeded to invalidate us and say that I’m (Tam) just being hypochondriac and that “my voices” could be just schizophrenia or psychosis... honestly that hit hard and everyone is just quiet... hurt.. I feel (personally) very hurt, even though mom wasn’t related to a specific trauma, being physically and emotionally unavailable for almost 2 years (it had to be done but I didn’t understand that, I was 4) kinda did a number on the abandonment issues and trust issues... either way.. that sh*t hurt like h*ll....

[zosoicons]

like or reblog ✧

[mabylc]

me: not today, satan 

satan: you’ve been canceling our plans for weeks now. if it’s something i said, please just tell me

[bugfluids-deactivated20250511]

americans get this through your fucking heads

[theprismkids]

*laughs in system*

[sarahseeandersen]

[user-boxer]

This user doesn’t like to be yelled at

[hitomimaii]

[coldcreature-deactivated2023072]

@trashydragonartist7

[autistic-axolotl]

I've seen a lot of people on here discrediting people who have developed ptsd from emotional abuse. Please stop gateeeping trauma. It's not your place to decide on what's "traumatic enough" to develop a trauma based disorder