damn bitch you live like this?

(dante | it/its | adult) i should have died as a child. but i just keep getting older. idk what to do anymore. vent blog.

[lilyflxwers]

i. The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, Sylvia Plath / ii. As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks 1964-1980, Susan Sontag / iii. Suddenly, It's December, Margaux Paul / iv. Waiting for This Story to End Before I Begin Another, Jan Heller Levi / v. The Picture of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde / vi. The Letters of Gustave Flaubert: 1830-1857, Gustave Flaubert / vii. unknown / viii. @inanotherunivrse / ix. @violentcherries / x. Heaven, Mieko Kawakami (thank u @aworsening for attaching the sources)

[devoteddeer]

That sickly feeling when you realize you don’t know how to love. You only know how to be devoted like a dog which has been abused all its life yet licks the hand which beats it.

[neglectedmutt]

neglecting my needs because that’s all anyone has ever showed me how to do

[elzuuur]

I feel uncomfortable in my own skin

[nettles-bpd]

“it gets better!!!”

yea for two weeks until i fall apart again and end up at the starting line. it’s just a vicious cycle

[mistermachoman]

"are you okay?" absolutely not but i'd rather kill everyone in the room than talk about it

[motelhymns]

when you’re laying in your bed crying and wondering when the pain and fear will stop and suddenly you’re 14 years old again and wondering why everyone you love hurts you and uses you and leaves you and why you aren’t good enough

[mistermachoman]

the worst part about moodswings are when i know i'm being irrational over something so i have to sit there and seethe.

[allygirlll]

[your-arms-are-my-cocoon]

it really hurts how im so behind in life

[bpdmutt]

“just communicate” becomes a lot harder when your brain keeps treating uncertainty like a physical threat

[neglectedmutt]

backing away from you like a wounded animal

[bpdmutt]

being self-aware but still unable to change your own reactions is such a uniquely miserable experience

[peanutgallerymemes]

unfortunately i’m cursed with being right

[jupitertears3]

fuck i just remembered i’m fundamentally unlovable

[pastelcottoncandyunicorn]

i feels like there’s something missing in me that the rest of the world has and it’s not fair

[maladapt3d]

What doesn't kill you leaves you bleeding for the rest of your life wishing it did