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silly little guy. 20s. nsfw <3

[piercethechemicallow]

^get to know me^

im rory! they/he/it, 23yo.

this is an 18+ blog!

please have your age in your bio if you interact with me :T

my ao3 is fleet_foot

speedrunner brainworms

heavier kinks tagged as “harder kinks”, otherwise not much content warning

[0x1-deactivated20220826]

dick makes people mentally ill. dick havers, dick wannabes and dick lovers are all insane. it's like toxoplasmosis, you have compulsive need to defend and push and worship dicks all the time and spead your dick mania to everywhere you go.

this seems rational and grounded in empirical evidence

[afloweroutofstone]

#lost in a fugue of penis delerium

[crapscicle]

[sister-hawk]

reblog to spread your dick mania to everywhere you go

[piercethechemicallow]

hi :3 for the ask game... what haven't we talked about before... thoughts on sensory deprivation? 🤔 - @suffocraft

⭐️⭐️💫 (2,5) not judging but for myself i know i most likely wouldn’t enjoy it but that’s something that also intrigues me ? like it is the sort of thing that i don’t think i Like but that it’s a fascinating experience and way to do kink/sex. haven’t read much about it either, other than some like. blindfold ones. but i feel like im putting more complete deprivation in focus for this question (so both eyes ears and movement too). i do think there’s combinations that could have more personal appeal but its the sort of think id have to work on to enjoy i think

[piercethechemicallow]

spanking?

⭐️⭐️⭐️💫3.5, i like it and definitely love fics with it, enjoyable irl but not really a turn on lol. like it’s so nice as a grounding thing but i don’t sexually enjoy pain so. 🤏☹️

[daisynodical]

incest posting again not even anything concrete just the idea of doogile so so so so desperate to come, humping his mattress, one of his hands fisted in his hair, the other in between his teeth to keep his noises down because he's so desperate but likes teetering over the edge because it makes him feel so good. but he can't exactly be loud about it, because usually he does this when his brother's not home, when he's out with his friends or running errands or whatever, but he came back so much earlier than expected.

so doog had to hold his breath when his brother walked past his room, the door not even fully shut because he thought he'd have more time, and pretended to be asleep. he's already lying in bed, it was simple enough to shut his eyes and bite down on his tongue and force his hips to still even through the pleasure running through him, until his brother walked into his own room-- the room that shares a wall with his.

and it's not like he can get up to shut the door, because then his brother will know he's awake, and he'll want to talk, but doog is still hard and aching and dripping precome onto his sheets as he ruts ever so gently so as to not make any noise. he keeps pulling on his hair-- not entirely on purpose but it also makes him feel good and he can picture it's someone else, someone who sounds just like him but is taller and broader in the shoulders and could hold him down so easily.

so he can't shut the door, but he tries to stop and is so close to the edge, just a little more and he'll be tipped over. but doog always does this when he's home alone, he doesn't know how to be quiet. there's a reason he streams nomic on days he's pent up, because when he inevitably starts rutting up into the underside of his desk he can't hold back his whimpers and moans from how good it feels. how his hands stutter on his mouse and he'll fail a boatclutch and groan and drop his hand to palm at his dick through his shorts as he waits to respawn.

he tries to be quiet, he really does. it's just-- he's never had to be quiet before, not like this. and he doesn't think about how the thought of his brother catching him with tears in his eyes and a drooling cock makes it twitch under him. he doesn't think about his brother walking into the room and shoving a hand into his underwear and pulling his hair and calling him the names he usually means as a joke.

doog thinks he wouldn't really mind if they weren't a joke.

but he's not thinking about that, instead he grinds down into his mattress and tugs on his hair alone and pictures a hand on his throat as he bites down on his knuckles.

he's not very successful at swallowing down his moan when his toes curl from the pleasure at a different angle. he's going to have to do laundry after this. he keeps his eyes shut, pictures his brother in the other room with his own dick in hand, moaning his name. he thrusts harder into the mattress, faster, a keen slipping out through his fingers because it feels so good. it's not anything like when he wraps his hand around his cock and jerks himself off, this is better because the sensation is less intense, just building and building like the tide growing in his gut and in between his legs and making his breath hitch when he gets close to the edge again.

he moans a broken thing that might've been his brother's name if he was any more conscious of anything beyond the pleasure he feels. it's blanking out his brain, his limbs fuzzy from the sensation, his eyes fluttering open to see his brother standing in his doorway, the door not even fully open.

oh. oh-- doog shuts his eyes only to blink them open when his brother says "don't stop on my account" and-- and he doesn't look away. neither of them does.

doog keens, the hand in his mouth slipping out and reaching down behind him to press a finger to his rim, farther down to his taint, his legs kicking off his sheets so his brother can have a better view.

he's hard, doog can see through his tears, a tent in his shorts that he makes no move to touch as he watches doog moan shamelessly and rock forwards and backwards. doog wants him to touch himself, to touch doog, to move away from the door and pin doog down and fuck him, to tug at his cock and then slap doog's hands away and make him beg for it. to shove his head down until doog chokes on his cock and gags and begs for it.

"please," doog whispers, his brother's smile growing sharper at his words, his own hips jumping when he finally steps into the room.

[tearsofshane]

I see the fic trope rating game going around but I'd like to do one for kinks instead. feel free to repost & play along <3

Send me a kink and I'll rate it:

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ all time fave. need it in my life.

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ very good. would like to explore it.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ fun to read. probably wouldn't partake.

⭐️⭐️ fine. I'll read it, but with heavy side eye.

⭐️ indifferent. i have no horses in this race.

🚫 hate it. no thank you. not for me at all.

Note: can be as broad or specific as you like eg. impact play vs spanking or face slapping

[headspace-hotel]

I’ve only recently started following you and my interest has been piqued. Can I get an intro to Bucky fanfic 101 from you? I’ve never been particularly interested in the marvel fanfic sphere but I’ve heard about Bucky as a standout character in the fandom ecosystem here and there, but since following you and seeing how you speak about this character and his fandom, I can’t help but feel like I’m missing out. Could you be the one to help me? Or this is a journey one must make on their own? I truly don’t know where to even start

Okay, so.

It would take an eternity to completely re-narrate my Bucky fanfic journey, so here's some links to my post threads from last year as I was getting into the Bucky fanfic world myself, where I discuss and recommend the fics I was reading. Part 1, part 2.

Part 1 has a lentil soup recipe in it as well if you're into that.

However, the rec list in these posts is my path exploring a lush, tangled, complex ecosystem of stories, and it would not be accurate as a description of everything the Bucky fanfiction ecosystem is.

A narrative of one walk through a forest does not capture everything about that ecosystem. I have learned that you can walk through the same forest a hundred times and see a hundred different forests. Living, breathing systems are labyrinthine. They are endlessly new with each path you follow through them, each change in the clouds and each shift in the slant of the light...

anyways. in the 12 years since Captain America: The Winter Soldier was released, stories have emerged and evolved and exchanged ideas and developed and refined new tropes and concepts and dug deeper into many fascinating themes.

Part of the reason the story-ecosystem is so well developed is just that it's huge; MCU being a massive mainstream franchise that, in the years of 2012-2018, most people had some contact with whether they cared for it or not, there were just a LOT of people into it at once.

and it reaches this point where the fanfiction is not just a work someone wrote based off of a blockbuster movie, it starts to become fanfiction of fanfiction, storytelling emerging from a seethe of ideas and themes tangled in this call and response between tellers and listeners who exchange places and read each other's work and create new stuff and pull new people in and pass the stories on.

I'm making it sound very grand and magical. It is, and it isn't. I go through Bucky's tag on ao3 and scroll past 20 fanfics in a row that make me think "You'd have to hold a gun to my head to get me to read that."

And it's easy to get caught up in just...the sheer glut of it all, the heaps and heaps of formulaic and generic fanfics that erase anything distinct about the characters to plug them into standard tropes. But that's what abundance looks like. Art that isn't necessary or even good, art that isn't cream skimmed off of the top, art that hasn't been judged or approved or selected or granted value by anyone. But it's part of that ecosystem, and it's a sign that the ecosystem is thriving.

So. I meandered my way aimlessly through Bucky fanfiction, through these entangling vines of context and connection and evolutionary relationships that I could only get a glimpse of. I started to recognize how certain ideas in fanfics were derived from other fanfics, further developing and expanding upon what previous storytellers had done.

Broadly speaking, some fanfics are interested in Stucky as a pairing, but don't delve deeply into what I consider to be THE hallmark of Buckyfic proper: the unmaking of Bucky Barnes into the Winter Soldier. The fundamental Thing about Bucky as a character, for me, is that he is formed out of a person's shattering.

And, yes, there are fics that are deeply interested in Bucky as a character as opposed to Bucky as one half of a slash pairing, that still treat him as basically the same guy but with PTSD now post Winter Soldier, so this categorization is wrong, but the unmaking aspect is what Bucky fanfic seems to iterate upon and extrapolate and develop most intensely.

Bucky fanfic is absolutely lush with explorations of what it means to be unmade. I plunged straight into a dense layer-on-layer sediment of storytellers "yes-and"ing what other storytellers had developed, exploring the ways that a man could have selfhood and personhood ripped from him.

The canon gives us these wrenching hints at a story that could be told: Bucky, as the Winter Soldier, wears a mask that looks like a muzzle; he is completely passive and lets the antagonist slap him across the face without retaliation; he cooperates placidly with his own torture; he hurls his body around as though it doesn't matter what damage he takes; he is scarred where the metal prosthetic that replaced his severed arm attaches to his body; he looks confused and scared and childlike and it's a shocking contrast to how brutally and swaggeringly he tears apart cars and slaughters people.

It's dripping with awful implications and that's what fanfic writers delved into so ravenously. Bucky was stripped of his name, his memories, his identity, and treated like a thing. His body was rebuilt to his captors' liking and used for their purposes. And fanfics explore every aspect of this.

For example, it's very common in these fanfics to have Bucky, as the Winter Soldier, be referred to with it/its pronouns. This is not the case in the canon but it's an accepted part of the story in this corner of the ecosystem.

There are several fanfics that portray Bucky as having Dissociative Identity Disorder, but even among the fanfics that don't explicitly conceptualize it this way, there are TONS of stories where Bucky has multiple "selves" that are like different persons that co-exist within the same body, to the point that some level of "plurality" is almost accepted as a standard part of the character.

The Winter Soldier is sometimes understood to be a separate personality from Bucky, as if man and machine are two persons in the same hybrid, cyborg body, and it's common for him to "switch" from one to the other. The Soldier can be conceptualized as nothing but a sucking void, an absence of self, or it can be its own "self" in the form of the remorseless killing machine, or (and this is where it gets really interesting) it can be this necessary darkness that was always part of Bucky, a self that fully unfolded when he was a sniper in WW2. Sometimes, the scared, broken man that is left after Bucky is rescued from Hydra is a third distinct "self" from the Soldier and the Bucky from before the war. It's fascinating. I could talk about it all day.

In fanfic, Bucky is very often physically disabled in multiple ways from his treatment as the Winter Soldier. It's fairly common for him to need to be tube fed, temporarily or permanently, or to have GI tract difficulties; I've read multiple fics where he suffered from seizures; I've read multiple fics where he suffered from drug withdrawals after escaping. Sometimes the prosthetic arm needs to be removed and he has to live as an amputee. Bucky's speech patterns vary wildly in fanfiction, but it's common for him to have a stilted, robotic way of talking, and sometimes his speech is impaired to some extent.

Relatedly, there's a subset of fics where the Winter Soldier's mask is somehow attached to his face or he can't remove it. Since this changes the canonical identity reveal, it's not as common, but it is one of those collectively iterated tropes (denoted by the tag maskfic, sometimes)

I've also read multiple fics where he was chemically castrated as the Winter Soldier, which sometimes caused lasting problems.

There is, I shit you not, an entire canonical tag on Ao3 for portrayals of Bucky with erectile dysfunction.

When I read, these things did not seem like individual decisions by writers to iterate upon canon in a certain way. The fanfics that used these ideas had clearly been influenced by each other. Once a certain aspect had been refined, other authors could just accept it as "their" canon and run with it.

And, I can say personally, from the experience of reading fanfiction and later writing it, that it's virtually impossible to keep canon and the broader story ecosystem separate in your mind: even if you can remember what is and isn't "canon," part of you just knows that they fed the Winter Soldier through a tube and bathed him by hosing him down, because that's the way you always heard the story told.

The Bucky fanfic ecosystem has done a lot of fascinating things with the lasting psychological effects of being the Winter Soldier as well. A really common theme is that Bucky is so accustomed to his dehumanization under Hydra that he switches to viewing the Avengers as his new "handlers," who he knows will abuse him if he doesn't placate them correctly. I believe Ao3 has a canonical tag for this as well, but I can't remember what it is. In general, Bucky fics delve deep into how the survival behaviors created by abuse don't go away after you escape the abusive situation. In more extreme iterations, Steve or someone else has to basically pretend to be Bucky's "handler" to provide some kind of stability for him mentally. It's fucked up and a lot of fun.

It's the same with the lasting impacts of having his pain disregarded and treated as unimportant: there's a recurring thing that happens in several different fics where Bucky, when he is hurt and someone asks how he is, responds "functional" (because his functionality is all that matters, not whether he's in pain). It's a little phrasing that spread like a virus between different stories written by different people.

It is, of course, impossible to discuss the Bucky Fanfic Ecosystem without discussing Hydra Trash Party.

In the posts at the links at the beginning of the post, I discuss how it's a really, really common element in fanfic for Bucky to have been raped during his captivity as the Winter Soldier. At some point I say something like, "Wow, this [the rape] shows up in a lot of different stories, I'm not sure if it's an unusually common thing with this character for some reason or what..."

This is so funny to me looking back. I really had no idea.

To quickly summarize what took me literal months to figure out: Bucky fanfiction, back in the day, was basically the Dead Dove Cambrian Explosion, except that Hydra Trash Party came before "dead dove, don't eat" and in fact is sort of what "dead dove, don't eat" is based upon, as per the post that literally coined "dead dove, don't eat" as a fandom term.

(There's a Fanlore page that explains everything, you can look it up. )

Technically, Hydra Trash Party can refer to a variety of things related to horrible awful nasty things happening to the heroes of the Captain America films, but in usage, it overwhelmingly refers to the idea that Bucky, as the Winter Soldier, was sexually abused by his handlers. As a tag, it essentially communicates that the fic is going to explore this idea graphically, extensively, or in detail.

I was like "Wow! So this is the fucked up and immoral fanfiction I've heard so much about!"

Obviously, a lot of fans are not interested in reading about these disturbing topics in depth. There's a lot of Hydra Trash Party that I can't stomach myself. However, the idea that sexual violence happened to Bucky when he was the Winter Soldier is everywhere in fic, even if it's only alluded to with a single line. It's another of the things that is commonly accepted as part of the story everyone is collectively telling in the story ecosystem.

For me, this idea comes part and parcel with this essential broader theme of unmaking. Bucky's body and mind are profoundly violated; he is powerless despite his strength and prowess. He is tortured and surgically altered against his will. He has no control over his own body. The deep, nasty, visceral horror of all of this fascinates me. Conceptually and thematically, sexual violence fits perfectly with this story, to the point that it almost feels implicitly present even if we don't say it out loud; when reading an academic book about torture I came across the quote, "all torture is rape and all rape is torture," and while I believe that of course there's a reason those are separate words, it's expressing a truth about torture that is often erased.

Part of the reason it came to fascinate me was my initial reaction to reading a story where Bucky was portrayed as a survivor of sexual violence. At first, I thought, "Wait, does that even make sense? He's a super strong murder machine who could easily kill anyone in a matter of seconds." Then, I thought, "Wait. Rape isn't about whether the victim is able to physically fight back or not. That was a really shitty assumption to make." Then, I thought, "Wait. This is actually realistic to what happens with torture, and fits with the villains' philosophy of power and dominance."

It's rare to get caught off guard like that by a piece of fiction, caught in the act of automatically thinking some shitty thing that society programmed into you even though consciously, you would never, never, never endorse it. I got kind of slapped in the face by the fact that my first instinct was to doubt that someone physically strong could be raped. I think that communicates how important it is to tell that story.

The stories people have written from these ingredients, I have found to be cathartic and moving and thought-provoking.

It's the story-ecosystem that fascinates me, really, not the "canon" itself; the aliveness and interacting of all these elements. When I wrote my own Bucky fanfic, I picked out the things that had compelled me in other fanfics, I delved deeper into things that I wanted to be explored more deeply, I dug into new ideas that I felt would interact in interesting ways with the existing ones, and I grounded it very strongly in my own experiences and interests.

I could go on and on. Even more than I already have gone on and on. And doubtless there is so much more that I haven't even explored yet.

[small-good-wolf]

number 1 premature ejaculation enjoyer. number 1 surprise erection enjoyer. number 1 precum leaking everywhere enjoyer. number 1 cumming from nontraditional methods enjoyer. number 1 blissed out without ever cumming enjoyer. number 1 no-orgasm sex enjoyer. number 1 teasing enjoyer, number 1 handjob enjoyer, number 1 vibrator on the dick enjoyer, number 1 genitals responding to non genital sex enjoyer, number 1 erection that doesn’t get used for penetration enjoyer, number 1 penises not doing the like 2 things they’re expected to do enjoyer. number 1 guy who likes that stuff that’s me

why are we always acting like these things suck

[astrowarr]

is this anything or

[piercethechemicallow]

finally wrote fic again!!

silver/feinberg, first time (?) blowjobs in front of hbg inspired by the recent cabin trip :]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/88862821

[yoursweetcorpse]

boy who whines and moans "please please please oh god" while masturbating alone..... im boy

[whatever-gomypenis]

can someone in hbg blackmail infume (or someone else but he has such that vibe) into like. well rn i just am thinking about how it's kinda hot for someone to have an experience (prob. fingers or like a butt plug lol) that they don't really want to do to themselves but they have to do. and he should get the hardest he ever has before about it :) and also he should be recording it so someone can make him watch it later

and also they should send him toys in the mail <3

(obviously i don't want this to actually happen to anyone irl.) and it can be. i also love the vibe of it's a joke like (poundy voice) hey show me ur ass or i'll post this photo i have of you sleeping looking stupid! and infume blushes and gets all shy but does it... (bc they both know if he actually didn't want to he wouldn't do it.) but he just needs a little push! it escalates to him doing stuff in call w more of hbg and. they make fein buy him all sorts of stuff (of course they make him wear all sorts of lingerie) (and bc it's my. Idea they all want to do this and like. infume is uncomfortable but in a way where it's. growing pains and also tbh bro has suchhh a degradation kink)

half related but hbg joking about how much blackmail they have on each other and. someone gets an idea like bro i bet infume would suck dick to make sure this dosnt get out. and infume whines and they go ohhhhhhh he would and he would enjoy it! hbg meetups where they do all sorts of stuff and take more photos so if infume gets cold feet (like the first time they want to do anal w him he gets a bit scared) they can use that to 1- yeah blackmail lol 2- go hey remember u were scared of this before and it was actually so good?

[infumeow]

hello aria infumeow for something im writing i need to know... infume is 5'11 how big do we think it is...

i wanna write some freak horny shit but ever since ghostie mentioned looking herself up on ao3 i am scared. is this a sign to not write horny ghostfume lol

my guess would be that he’s pretty average? not overly big but not overly small either? but also i dont rlly know what the average is for certain heights bc um. i have no experience with penises. LOL. so i’m also opening this one up to the people for their opinions. but my general take is that i think he’s very average for his height. maybe slightly below but around there. the most important thing however is that he has No Idea how to use it or what to do with it. he needs to be talked through everything. ghostie needs to ride that boy until he’s crying

also tbh i wouldn’t be surprised if ghostie does search herself up on ao3 again but she does seem to have the mindset of “if i don’t go looking for it, it can’t hurt me” so. u should always write horny ghostfume ❤️

[spicy-blocky-blorbos]

living the #tummy troubles life rn and imagining a fun little "oopsie fein's rly rly easy to put into subspace" scenario to feel better.

like, we're talking "fruit pushes him against a wall for the purpose of the meme and fein blushes and stares at him with his pupils blown out". fruit grins, says "oh, you like this? what if i do this?" and uses a hand to tilt fein's face towards him, giving him a brief kiss. fein moans loudly into it. fruit slots a knee between fein's thighs and he starts humping it. fruit coos about how adorable he is, how this is amazing and he loves seeing fein like this, and fein blushes darker, whimpering. he cums in his sweatpants.

we're talking "meets boosfer irl and boosfer jabs him in the neck while pointing and bitching and fein's mouth falls open to pant". boosfer interrupts himself to respond. "bro. you cannot be serious right now. if i put my hand on your neck and you moan i will lose it." and he does. fein doesn't moan - but his hips buck forward and his eyes roll back. boosfer degrades him for being easy, for being so horny, for how hard he gets from the slightest threat of violence. fein tells him to shut up, but his voice is tiny, and boosfer sneers and hits him. fein meekly requests he do it harder. boosfer does, and when fein falls over, grinds his foot onto Fein's dick in complete disgust and fascination. he tells fein to open his mouth and stay quiet, and facefucks him, cumming down his throat. for every sound fein made, boosfer slaps or kicks him. fein is left needy and unfinished.

we're talking "poundy gropes his ass in an elevator for funsies and lols, and fein visibly rolls into it, and is visibly semi hard when they leave the elevator." poundy sees this, and teases him, how he's actually such a slut, isn't he? maybe poundy could show him a good time, let him bounce on it and make out with someone who treats him like the eager cumdump he is. and fein is now tenting badly. poundy palms his dick and says it's a shame how useless it is on a guy who doesn't use it. when fein just mewls and looks dazed, poundy reaches into his sweatpants, grabs fein by the dick, and tugs him to his hotel room like he's holding his hand. and he debates if fein is good enough at sex to please him if poundy rides him, because if he can't get poundy off that way, he's probably good at getting on his knees for his superiors. and oh boy does fein blush and moan at that. in the end, poundy preps himself, and makes fein fuck him just the way he likes it. when fein cums fast, he laughs and ribs him for it. he demands fein to get on his knees, and fein is drooling on his dick before he can get much further. poundy pulls out to cum on his face, and takes a pic for the memory.

[piercethechemicallow]

bruh i’m in the void

[retainerfox]

silverr: does anyone else watch doogile’s handcam streams and get really happy

caro: i thought you were going to say horny

(laughing)

silverr: i wouldn’t (inaudible my bad) on stream. off stream though

[nosybirdnoises]

the cam adds a whole new layer to his frustration and I reallyyy like it