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I’m right on the edge of seeing black forever

It’s sounds like the greatest gift I can give myself and the world

Leaving you be like you wanted

Why is it that everyone can understand but you? I really wish it was you

I know I’m about to hurt myself by doing this. Nothing good can come of it.

I self harm to punish myself for existing. For hurting the people around me.

I have made people the worst versions of themselves and how do I forgive myself for doing that to the people I love?

Wanting to tell people to stop giving you things and treating you because it’ll all be a waste if you don’t survive

I’m sorry

Missing you more than usual tonight.

I’m doing everything I can

I can feel myself living fast

I’m exhausted

I can’t stop to think or I’ll just stop moving

Why can’t I do anything right

Why does it feel like I can’t trust anyone

I can’t lean on anyone

Look towards anyone

That song is more than music

It’s hearing your heartbeat with my head on your chest while we’re dancing

Feeling the warmth of your body and your hand clasped around mine

The smell of your shirt after a long day

And love

And to love someone more and more after each day because in reality….that is one less day you will have with them

I wish I could heal myself