★ lost in space

i don't care if you're contagious ★ i: todoyamas

[newtypisms]

★ oh, your heart. aortic work of art!

☆ kamille * they/them * 22!

☆ carrd!

[newtypisms]

been getting really into this dnd podcast and have been watching it basically constantly lately. honestly it's helped me feel a little less lonely during recovery. i'm just getting sucked into the story and humor.

i love playing dnd also but i get very embarrassed about roleplaying sometimes that it's hard to really get into it. but it's a lot of fun.

[newtypisms]

Please survive the "guns or fireworks" game of america today! happy celebration if you celebrate at all? Or fuck the corrupt system if you do not celebrate?

- ☆ Music Anon

hi music anon!!!!

i will probably survive o7 honestly fireworks sometimes scare me and sometimes dont so im not sure how i'll react tbh. it's weeird. but thank you <3

i don't celebrate, but it's mostly because i'm not really a party person. i'd rather be at home or watch the fireworks with a small group, instead. but tonight i am still in a lot of pain from Wisdom Teeth so i will be resting inside!!

also i love that you've added a little star :) i love stars soo much ★☆★

[newtypisms]

alao big sorry to everyone i havent responded to yet/asks i havent gotten to. ive been really exhausted and not feeling great. i see yall and will at some point 🫶

[newtypisms]

waking up is probably the worst. because all the pain sets in and it's been way too long since i've taken some kind of painkiller and just. Ouuuugh. ouuugh.

i also had a not so great dream so life really is kicking me in the ass

[a-silly-poll-side-blog-yay]

You just teleported to the last movie you watched! how is it going?

good

bad

great

awful

FUCK YOU I'M IN THE BACKROOMS NOW

dead

results

Remaining time: 5 days 4 hours

[moldavite]

hopefully i'll get to do something other than endure soon. that would be really nice

[muraxxx]

wish upon a star

[dholic175]

Quick sketch... Maybe i fully render it in the future. Who knows,

As for new lore,

Their band is called Final Turn, aichi is the vocalist and guitarist, ren is on drums, kai plays the keyboard, I've considered adding leon as a bass but we will see, soon. I will keep everyone updated.

Hah... I just wanted an excuse to draw them touching.. peh

[newtypisms]

How's the 17 deaths treating you? But I hope you're surviving the heat waves well, it seems to be getting bad all around the world at such an insane rate TwT

For music (to identify myself as the music anon haha), have you ever heard of Starset? I haven't listened to much outside of their Transmissions and VESSELS albums, but they're pretty neat! Vaguely similar to Set It Off in a very loose way? My Demons is a well known song of theirs, but their full albums can be interesting to listen to! Anything past those two albums and I'm sorta iffy on their music? And they've used ai visuals for their newer music videos so I'm no longer a fan, before that they used to put more effort into things

Frequency, My Demons, Monster, Down with the Fallen, and Anti-Gravity are some good songs of theirs? If you like the genre at least, those two albums are very strong in sounding like their "genre"! No worries if it's not your cup of tea though, if you don't like that genre then you wouldn't really like majority of their music!

it's crazyyyy. it's 94 f/34 c where i'm at right now, and the sun is just starting to go down so i think it'll go a little bit lower. thankfully i'm recovering from getting my wisdoms out and have the next two days off work when the heat is the worst, so i can just stay inside with my sweet sweet ac, but i do truly feel for everyone else that has to work in these conditions. it's truly truly AWFUL!

i have heard of starset, though i don't listen to a lot of their music (not for any specific reason) though i do listen to my demons on the regular. i had noo idea they started using ai visuals that's literally awful. gag!!! gaaaag!!! being music artists that are okay with using ai is genuinely so insane to me. like you know and understand how precious art is as you make it yourself... and yet you still will use a platform that steals art from others... ewww.

i listened to them :) my demons still has to be my overall favorite, but since i've listened to it since forever, i think monster is my second favorite! i liked it a lot, thank you for the recommendations :D!!!!

[newtypisms]

also im craving a cigarette so fucking bad right now and i can't. Have One

[newtypisms]

might delete that later who knows

[newtypisms]

feeling... strange i guess. mommy issues central here

my mother wasn't always the best to me and she put me through a lot. for a long time it felt like she hated me, and once told me to my face she gave up on me because i was "too much to handle" with my mental health issues (that her and her husband caused, if i might add). she's transphobic and it was a long battle to get her to use my correct name and pronouns. she wouldn't then, but does now. one of my online friends once bought me a binder and my mother constantly threatened to rip it up. she once tried to cut me in order to "scare" me out of self harming. i have other body issues because of her.

i first moved out of her house at 17, because i wanted to get away from her and everything i was going through. her and my dad were more than happy to get rid of me then. i moved back in for a few months at 19 and ended up in the psych ward, and after that i moved out again. i stayed away until my then-boyfriend who i was living with broke up with me and kicked me out at 21.

and now she acts so sweet and always tries to be there for me, and it's confusing. i get that she was a young parent and my dad was abusive to her as well but there's a lot she did to me that i just can't get over. i've tried to forgive her, but it's just so hard when i think about everything she did.

i just got my wisdom teeth out and she's been nothing but kind and gentle. downright sweet and it's just so confusing. she's doing everything to care for me and make sure i'm okay and i honestly just don't know how to feel. like where was this you when i needed it? why could you not love me when i was younger? why does it have to be NOW that you suddenly want to be a good mom?

i understand she was young (i'm the youngest of 3, my sister was born when my mom was 16, my brother and i in her early 20s) but it honestly just hurts a lot to think about the child i was, being sick and begging to be heard only to be berated.

and now, here she is, offering to microwave me canned soup and taking care of my meds, and asking if im okay. and it's just weird. so weird.

[undasura]

smooshy

[kyana313]

my fav t4t yuri couple… their ship name needs to be lillypad

[kosmogrl]

[copperisbald]

almost didnt post it cus i hated how it turned out but fuck it we ball lmao