Sorrow of being. Doubt of becoming

Avid Fannibal and Trekkie, but currently in a Loki mode ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[nexusyutopia]

The woman is trying to relocate dogs with disabilities from heavily-shelled Irpin to a safer place. Ukraine. 10 March 2022.

Photo by Christopher Occhicone

[pennypaperbrain]

Nexus managed to get the vulnerable members of her family on a train west today. I’m not sure how far they plan/will be able to go, but out of Kyiv. Nexus is staying in the city because she has a car and will help out by ferrying medical supplies and food around.*

I’ve had a chance to feel not-completely-helpless by spreading the fundraising link. Some people I know IRL are in a position to give three-figure donations. so the total amount will be fairly significant. 

On Facebook I accompanied the post with a charming heads-together selfie of me and nexus from December, to catch the scroller’s eye. We did not take a bunch of photos in the expectation that they would be useful for a charity appeal. This month we were supposed to be going on a road trip to Mariupol and visiting S, not raising money to help S and many others deal with being bombed out or worse.

Well. Here we are. Nexus is answering emails while on air-raid-watch duty for her little commune, and I am a thousand miles away extracting money from former colleagues.

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* Нет, и не под чуждым небосводом, И не под защитой чуждых крыл, — Я была тогда с моим народом, Там, где мой народ, к несчастью, был.

Ахматова, Реквием

[nexusyutopia]

a poem written two days ago by my friend: «Ця музика Instagram недоступна в вашому регіоні». Зате в ньому доступні «двухсоті». А ще занепокоєння євроспільноти І обстріли обстріли обстріли. «У сховищах недостатньо їжі й води», — коментує столичний речник. Зате в кожної з нас доступно сліз. І побажань миру, переважно з Німеччини. В моєму регіоні недоступна безпека. Ми поза межами міжнародного права. Кланяюсь низько в уклін тобі люба і братська північна держава. Твоїми молитвами наш небокрай — не зірки і не хмари дивної форми. Твоїми молитвами наш небокрай — це пошук десанту в триколорних погонах. Я хочу тавром у собі карбувати дні-спогади: Про заклеєні вікна, про щосекундне «обновити сторінку» новин, про завчасно набрану воду і міський план бомбосховищ Я хочу затаврувати цей день, щоб якщо чи коли усе таки вижив, Завжди і усюди Мати рішучість В імперіалістичне їбало Харкнути звучно. – Наталка Чех

[pennypaperbrain]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Thor (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Loki/Thor (Marvel) Characters: Loki (Marvel), Thor (Marvel) Additional Tags: Damaged Loki, Damaged Thor, Dom Loki, Sub Thor, BDSM, Love, Angst, Blood, Mental Health Issues Summary:

The relationship between Loki and Thor is strange and difficult and profound. It wounds and heals them at the same time.

This isn’t a single sequential story but (is planned to be) an open-ended series of one-shots, mostly but not all kinky/sexual in nature, looking at the different facets and possibilities of that relationship. I don’t want to flood my author page by doing them all individually, and they’re united by theme and tone.

Get your strange, sad, beautiful hot mess here.

[nexusyutopia]

Are we really daring this, brother? Are we really?

[mcufam]

Loki vs. Valkyrie Thor: Ragnarok (2017) dir. Taika Waititi

[nexusyutopia]

I can't not reblog this.

[elizabethanism]

Soviet postcard, 1955

[heartlessqueen]

do you ever think about this quote by mary lambert because i think about it all the time

[wiremothers-deactivated20230129]

Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters

[sykesarchive1]

natalie wee, our bodies & other fine machines

[sweatermuppet]

sam sax, hydrophobia

[nexusyutopia]

as simple as that; yes

[brigittefitzgerald]

pan’s labrynth dir. guillermo del toro | quote by guillermo del toro at the 2018 golden globes | where the wild things are dir. spike jonze | nothing to find by the war on drugs | bros by wolf alice | beasts of the southern wild dir. benh zeitlin | where the wild things are by maurice sendak | atlantis by seafret | a monster calls dir. j.a. bayona

[nexusyutopia]

I am not identifying as non-binary, and yet this picture explains ideally how I feel about my gender. Love it.

[charlotvanh]

I remember a shadow. Living in the shade of your greatness.

deviantART | buy print

[pennypaperbrain]

Oh wow, this is so expressive. And sad. It fits very well with the fic I just posted.

[nexusyutopia]

A rare gem.

[pennypaperbrain]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: ½ Fandom: Thor (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Loki/Thor (Marvel) Characters: Loki (Marvel), Thor (Marvel) Additional Tags: Whump, Canon Divergence - Avengers (2012), Rough Sex, Biting, Skin Hunger, Dom Loki (Marvel), Sub Thor (Marvel), Feral Loki, Mad Loki, He’s really quite far out of his tree, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Fix-It

For centuries Loki has waged a battle with himself. But when he returns from the dead gaunt and hollow-eyed, raving about conquering Midguard, Thor realises that another, more sinister force has taken control.

This fic is set during the scene on the mountaintop in The Avengers, diverging from canon partway through. It’s a fix-it in that Thor actually listens to Loki and shows him a bit of kindness (eventually).

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My first full-length (well, it’ll be about 5,500 words when it’s done) Loki fic.

[contessinadeservedbetter]

𝙇𝙪𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙯𝙞𝙖 𝘽𝙤𝙧𝙜𝙞𝙖 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝘾𝙚𝙨𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝘽𝙤𝙧𝙜𝙞𝙖

[nexusyutopia]

The one and only heterosexual ship I was ever invested in. Guess I just like the 'impossible love' trope that much. The sheer LONGING with these two.

[natjennie]

how did this episode air??? why was this episode allowed on tv?? fx?? I have questions??

[nexusyutopia]

Guillermo my love <3

[kinkyloki]

Loki mewling with desire as a hand reaches around his neck and slowly pulls his head back by the hair, exposing his slender throat.

[nexusyutopia]

postcard for @mazaherstuff

[sailor-moon-moon]

I have yet again made a venn diagram

[nexusyutopia]

«so the space between Jennifer's Body and Venom is Hannibal?» (by slutforchocorobos)

YES.

[illwynd]

All the thorki horror movie ficlets

If you missed any of my thorki horror movie ficlets, here they all are in one place!

[nexusyutopia]

I missed them, and now I am happy to discover them! Loved every single one <3

[emungere]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

COMPLETE, only took me MOST OF A DECADE, thanks for sticking around to read it <3

[nexusyutopia]

This is like a thousand of Christmases! Newly completed, LONG, fascinating story from a favourite author in the fandom – after 7 years since the first chapter was out. Can't wait for a weekend to binge-read it! (Asdfghjkl, I won't have it for unless two weeks from now, but I guess a couple of weeks after 7 years is nothing))