Nfumbe Walk

Por el amor de los muertos. Muertería is my creation, my love, and destiny.

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Native Grrl? Ruminations On Everything, Sorry!!

My ID. photo is last year.

Should I just embrace the heritage? Probably look more German and Norwegian than Algonquin? If I had my hair in braids...ppl would do another take. And the right clothes too. Why not? The 12.5% is quite evident. Lol! My brother doesn't look like me. He looks like mom and grandpa Arthur! Goofy man! I have another photo to share! Its my mom, about two or three years old, happy with her dolly, its Christmas with tinsel on the tree, grandma Lia looks frayed, and grandpa Arthur looks goofy and prolly drunk as usual! Here, a piece of early 1950's Americana!

Weird in those days but ppl had resolve. Hardly anyone but older folks and conservatives know what that means. I only have resolve because my parents (early baby boomers) taught it to me as a necessary life tool. A easy way to remember the meaning: Intestinal Fortitude. Shit don't break you. You get up and live. You go on and don't dwell. Think that sounds easy? Yes, but you have to be tested.

I was present for both of my parents deaths. I know that made my resolve much stronger and made my parents happier because I saw life's finality. The end of their great service of bestowing me on Earth to lend others my service and care with the gifts they gave me. My mom's critical and careful eyes and dad's powerful psychic and empathic talents.

Surely that's not sad! I hope not! Just thought...damn dad, wish I would have gotten your black hair! Lol! It took him forever to go grey!! Natives often take a while, I noticed. Not me though. I mostly just have silver streaks. I do have the natural center part in my hair! :) When I was a kid, I used to bake in the sun, never burned, and got VERY dark colored. Darker than my black Irish best friend Sarah.

Absolutely Toasty! Now, I just have freckles of it left that are dark brown. None of us cared about fucking cancer in the 80's, not us kids. It was go outside at 9:00 am and come back for din din at 5:00, back outside until 8:00 pm for me cos mom read true crime and freaked out. Lol! Unless I was with Sarah - I got home at 10:00! Haha! I was the ONLY kid with parents who were still married. Trippy, huh? They married on March 8, 1968. Their song was "The Letter," by The Boxtops - aka "Give Me A Ticket For An Airplane."

My parents' song is The Letter because that's how they met. Dad was in jail but on work release. They were pen pals. Mom was living in St. Louis cos grandpa Arthur got transferred there. She despised it. But Frank and Monica met somewhere, ended up in Portland. Not sure where they married. My brother came along in June, 1971. In Portland. I was later in the second decan of February, 1979. Woodland Park hospital. Mercury conjunction Mars - a natural magician. Look for that in your astrology. Nothing online or in books will tell you anything - I learned this from an actual person! Physically! Wowzers!!

Why isn't it common knowledge? Because ppl will take advantage of it. Exactly why I don't write a description on it. I just say 'natural magician.' It also depends on other planetary placements, like moon sign, ascendant, certain signs in a few houses like the fourth house, eighth, ninth, and twelfth. I won't divulge the signs though. It is rare to even have any of these placements together.

Necromancy signs and placements are rare too. I strangely have those as well. A "Chart of Set" is extremely rare! My friend has it. If your birthday is the middle of June, 1972, you may. What does it mean? That you are a true walker between worlds - the necro arts are yours to behold, you are a strong necromancer that can gather muertos easily at will. I can do this but its from toil and practice, not natural skill. My friend doesn't use this gift though. :/ Its too bad. These charts do not happen willy nilly. No random shit "just occurs." If you are born that way, embrace it! :)

If anyone wants an intuitive peek at their astrological chart, I can help for free. Message me, don't be afraid. I'll tell you if you're a natural magician (Witch, whatevs your path) or born necromancer. If you want a a read with more details, it takes more time. Just ask. :)

An intuitive reading means that I look at the the positions and placements on the chart and interpret it, then put it together into a cohesive reading. Its all me writing the interpretation, not the internet or a book. So, I'm putting time into YOU. For FREE. I just need info, but it seems like kids these days are too afraid to give their details!! I delete ALL personal information of yours!! I have no use for it. Bye, thx!

For astrology charts, needed:

Birth date, time, and place (city, state/(or province, town etc) and country

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Por el amor de los muertos.

J. Thorp, thanks for my name dad <3

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Dark Silhouettes of Spirituality

Just the other day. New tealight holders. Special layout for client work without the work! Lol! Wish I could share. Not until its done. :)

I've been pondering about dark gods. Not about worshipping them, but about working with them. There's a difference. They'd still get an offering, but I would be doing this in the style of a ceremonial magician. My first god of choice is Saturn. I wish to evoke him. Yes, I know well the differences between evoke and invoke. I evoke my muertos too. Works a lot better, try it!

Why Saturn? Because he is awesome and has the qualities I'm looking for. Being a very Saturnian Aquarius also ties in with my desires to work with him - plus my client work is a heavy binding, his territory! Weird how it came about but Saturn just came up in my divination...yesterday, after my first ritual...he just wants me to dedicate further work to him. That's great! He's been around for a long time, I just haven't formally done magick with him. Roddy is also doing the very important work of protection of my client and her children. She has seen him before! Totally great, Roddy likes his presence known. :)

I always used to get huge Saturnian vibes from a Daemon I worked with. He was a close, favorite Daemon. Who? Lucifuge Rofocal. Why talk of my Daemonic past? Why not? Tired of stepping around it! It was 20+ years! Off and on, mostly ON.

Lucifuge was a very cool Daemon and he was a fabulous obstacle breaker and road opener. He is also a Daemon who is absolutely paramount for chain breaking and "cord cutting." These are similar but not completely the same. Chain breaking is more for personal battles with addiction, negative and harmful mental patterns, mental illness - this used with meds and therapy, inner torment you cannot share, habits that are too personal to share, etc.

Cord cutting is more for cutting out ppl in your life, or their energy - also if that person's crap still bothers you, emotional negative bullshit, and their effects haunting you - from you or some other person or ppl, after any kind of break up, after intense fights and disagreements that involve a SPLIT, upon return from jail/prison (HUGE because jail stays on you, infiltrates you, and fucks with you seriously - it did for me)...and other stuff...

Lucifuge was always like having a good friend around. I made a famous oil for him called "Death Lucifuge." It is SUPER powerful but it has to be made by steeping for eight (8) months. Why eight? In astrology, the 8th house is the place of death, transformation, rebirth, power dynamics and many other things. For some reason, everything fits here with my odd mixture of plants and a REAL coffin nail.

So I guess Lucifuge and Focalor are different - thought so, because Focalor is Water element for one. To me, Lucifuge feels like the firey part of Earth. For Focalor, they say Taurus. For Lucifuge, I would say Capricorn because it is a Cardinal sign - one of the "go getters" or initiators. Its about taking action and leadership. Lucifuge fits here awesomely! A primary reason that Lucifuge is so great at busting obstacles and opening roads!

This is also home for Saturn. Lucifuge fits Saturnian duties very well though he also goes well with Air sign activities - in particular with starting new friendships, writing, parties (he stirs charm!), retaining knowledge from books, and divination via tarot and smoke (incense/ritual burner). I don't know of Sighting (scrying). I'd have to try it and see. I haven't worked formally with a Daemon in seven (7) years! Not scared but very nervous if I did.

He's a dark silhouette from my past. I won't go back to Daemons. But I will now express more positive experiences, thoughts, correspondences and many things about them so ppl here at my blog can receive spiritual enrichment about Daemons as well as the muertos if they desire. I am not seeking to say ill anymore.

If anyone is interested in Daemonic oleums (oils) and other recipes, check out my other blog!

HexeHaus (@hexehaus) on Tumblr

Herbs, potions, oils - all original. Free use, J. Thorp. Muerterist. <3 8=X <3

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New Practice, Bare Bones

Old.

Forgive me for a very long and winded post. I'm manic and hungry plus I haven't slept for some time. I'm extremely lucid and aware though. Read!!!

I have been working and studying my path and discovered its a pile of shit. The African deities obviously don't like me for several reasons, in which are too personal to voice online. There are too many personality clashes, I'm too rebellious and won't follow rules, they hate my house and husband and many more! Hey now, I was strict and followed all rules and protocols, even moforibale. Not every Orisha student knows it (they should!), my Baba didn't teach me, I learned moforibale during my own studies. I did shit by myself correctly but tired of the constant watch of my behavior. Torture!

I abhor drama. That's one reason I'm not into "communal" types of religions like Santería, Palo, anymore - I'm DONE. Soloing doesn't work and do not tell me that it does. This proves that I really am a misanthrope, just dislike ppl. Loud echoes of my Algonquin great grandma heard here...she absolutely despised ppl. Who says that feelings cannot be inherited? Memories can, right? Ah fuck, dunno. Great grandma has choice words about my hackneyed (as in meaningless) religious journey. Has it been meaningless? Kinda!! I've learned lots. Did I gain anything?

Fell into ancestors, they want to chat...Grandma came through!! Read on!

No. I didn't gain shit! My clairvoyance, precognition, and astute necromancy gifts were inherited. Necromancy comes from the placement of my stars and other skills have been traced back to my great grandfather Fred Thorp, who was English in origin and was a successful fur trader. Thorp means "a small village" basically.

Great grandpa Fred was said (by my uncle Jeff, uncle Bob, my aunt Jane and my dad) to drop the "E" on Thorp because it struck him as "obsolete." I just looked up Thorp and it had the "Alternate Forms: thorpe - obsolete." Fuckin weird!!! My dad used to say the "E" is obsolete whenever my name was misspelled in my school yearbook. Tried to make me feel better by what great grandpa did!

Well, it worked. Lol! I recall many times the Thorp origin. It never changed and was also affirmed by my grandma Jane and my uncles. All are dead but one, god, I hope Paul is living! My family is estranged. No one talks. I dunno if my dad's family knows he is dead. :/ I don't wanna be the harbinger of death!! Got my older bruh through dad dying. May have to bear bad news if I can find anyone!!

Grandma's!

Grandpa Ben calls my grandma Jane by her given first name, Frieda because he thought "It fit her feisty ass better than plain ol Jane did. Boy she was rough around the edges but I kept her around for the goddamn food! It was great, kid, right?" I heartily agree with grandpa. Her food was better than a spiritual experience! Both of my grandma's were heavenly cooks in the kitchen and both worked a long time as line cooks at bars, juke joints, delis, and bowling alleys. I didn't get to know her well because she lived in Waukesha. But she scared me because she drove with one eye closed very fast in her little green and white Hornet coupe. I was crushed by my cousin and aunt in the "backseat."

My German grandma Lia, spoiled me with Sirloin beef tips with handmade spätzle and beef or a sauerbraten (homemade) gravy. Instead of a roast, she used the beef tips to go with the "sour roast" gravy. She knew I loved it so much that she made jars of it for me to reheat on the stove. <3 Miss her! We didn't have a microwave yet. Lol! Memories of her are coming to me. So beaming and smiling with her bright red painted lips. Always laughing and telling stories about girlhood in West Germany with a heavy emphasis on "West." Even though East and West did not exist when she grew up. I mention below when the Wall was erected.

The reason she put emphasis on West in Germany - if you don't know - is in simple terms is the not commie side as grandma used to say. East was commie. To explain why she said this, follow along, its short. After the war (WWII), tensions and ideological differences remained high and West Germany adopted a capitalist system with democratic institutions. While East Germany implemented a socialist system under Soviet influences.

Berlin, once the former capital, remained divided into East and West sectors, becoming a focal point of Cold War tensions. The Berlin Wall, built in 1961, symbolized this division. Ppl used to visit at that Wall, trying to slip their fingers in, just to touch a friend or relative - film footage once existed of this, perhaps check out YouTube for it. The Berlin Wall's fall in 1989, which I watched was amazing but slow. It was a wonderful day and the ONLY time I ever saw my grandma cry. I mean really sob! She was SO ECSTATIC! She talked to her sister Marie in Germany. My family was boosted that day. November 9, 1989. Our garage fire had happened less than a month before. Its traumatic, even as a kid.

My grandma is coming through but through imagery, no words. I keep seeing the South side of a small farmhouse with a red brick chimney, thin edges of black that accent four paneled windows and a small garden with what grandma shows me are pear and plum trees. She looks proud of the garden and points at a crazy mint and rosemary bush. She is *saying* (finally!!!) that: "I missed my 4 o'clocks when they bloomed." <sigh> I SERIOUSLY did NOT know that 4 o'clocks are flowers!! Great herbalist I make! I had to look them up! Hope someone reads my crap because my husband doesn't listen or care about my spiritual hooey.

Lost connection with ancestors. Stupid me for telling nonbelievers.

Por el amor de los muertos.

My Practice Changes

So I've done some stuff like cutting soda and drinking lemon lime water, more active meditation - maybe Hong Sau in the future, listening to Solfeggio frequencies, reading the Bible for Roddy as well as prayers I wrote for him. Writing out as much as I can. I have very dry periods of not writing and have to get to it. Things help me though! Like:

I LOVE crystals. They work awesome for me, probably because I'm weak in the Earth element having only three placements and crystals totally balance me out - the more the merrier. And no, I do not wear everything everyday!!

For mineral assistance, I am getting a Blue Apatite, Iolite, and Sodalite bracelet, each separate, for my right wrist. On left, I wear a Mookaite, Citrine, and Carnelian. Rings are Lapis, Amethyst, Garnet, and Tiger Eye. Not done, I'm fuckin bejewled! My necklaces are Shungite and Yellow Obsidian but change by day. Black Obsidian, Black Tourmaline, Smoky Quartz are favored necklaces for balance, temperance, and grounding. I'm YUGE Aquarius and we get big heads. Black and white (like Howlite or Moonstone for example) stones negate the engorged ego and inflated importance.

There will be more about practice changes coming up.

Idea for a blog

A crystal blog would be fun! But mine would have different crystal meanings of my own, photos of my specimens and would include my planetary/astro correspondences not the traditional ones. It will include gender because all living beings have a gender according to Hermetic law - which I adhere, it will have an herb, Zodiac sign(s), good or osogbo Iré - how to tell via cowries plus correct invocation to use; traditional rites associated with pagans, Christians, and Muerterísts, cleansing crystals depending on Moh's scale, consecration via lustral water and the practice of no salt use.

Also empowering your crystals, caring for them, and how to gift them. And, how to build your ancestor altar - the right way, as taught by Babalawo Ifaleye to me, in 2011. It is powerful and it works better than a Pinterest post does!!! That's for fuckin sure, it vibrates and fills your home with utmost positive vibes.

With the crystal blog, just about 98% of it would be my knowledge. The list would start out at maybe 40-60 crystals. Hmm. I'll think about it. :) And my info could be freely used like HexeHaus!! :D Guarantee its gonna be better than Cunningham but not near Melodie! My lore of crystals is not UPG. They give me vibration (another Hermetic law, that of vibration), and feelings from their spirit. A lot of the correspondence comes frm personal studies of actual WORK with the crystal - not just the subjective given. Objective work including experiments, magic, and success/failure ratio is present as a non-biased measurement that is encouraged to be examined and tested. I'm doing my best to be sort of scientific in a metaphysical scope. Hard to believe? Yes! But try!

Fuckin done with this raggedy post!

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My Strange Life

Its true...everything about me is atypical. But with my Aquarius craftiness, my oddity is accepted most times. I hate it when my husband mutes his Twitch channel when I banter though. I got good stuff! Ack, well, many don't appreciate my dark and anatomical humor... xD

I've had some neat moments with my grandpa Ben! He's been trying to fill gaps and inform me about the family. Its so fuckin cool! He mentioned him, my pregnant grandma, and two of my uncles living in Spaulding, Wisconsin before moving two hours East to Fond du Lac, where my dad was born. I never knew of Spaulding. Grandpa told me to look at the unincorporated town. There's not much on this place. Its just spooky when my grandpa tells me to look up something and its totally real. Lol! Muertos each have a rate of vibration. You can only feel it either by being near their spirit or by having their ashes/other DNA. That's another story, HTDE, my little theory. What is HTDE? Highly Transmutable Death Energy.

I think electricity, as energy and usable force, is gathered on the left side of the body because it is naturally receptive, i.e. the Yin. Therefore, the right side of the body stores the electricity as energy and usable force, i.e. the Yang. A human being is killed by 1 amp, which can hold us and make us seize but we cannot possibly make that much electricity with our bodies own electricity or, energy. So, we cannot kill ourselves with Death Energy. Seems silly! Or even psychic and magical energy. We simply do not have 1 amp in us. A capacitor that's 1 amp from a stereo can kill you, not any energy from death can.

HTDE, or Highly Transmutable Death Energy is Death Energy that has a very strong vibration from being born as matter (the soul) and has been transformed. It has an innate, bright and translucent quality. HTDE forms in a spiral of light, that twinkles like crystals. It is firmament. It has intelligence, strength, and staying power. Anyone can have HTDE who is deceased. It's unique and special for all. All you need to do is prepare your soul and body for it to come. The spiral is in us all. Think: Deoxyribonucleic Acid, or DNA, baby!! It's a spiral too!

What is done with HTDE? Primarily healing. Positive outcomes, no curses.

Divinity makes the rules and if you don't take this work seriously, your power will be negated. Curses can kill but rarely do - we are more likely to die from that 1 amp than a foolish magical operation to blow off steam.

There's more of this somewhere housed by Spirit, whoever chooses to channel it to me! :)

Por el amor de los muertos.

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A Necromantic Herbal Essay

These are plants that I've researched that have necromantic properties. This comes directly from MY knowledge, not books or the internet. Reblog with credit please.

Acacia: Use this resin (commonly burned) to draw the dead to you.

Aloeswood (Wood Aloes, Oud): Sacred wood to burn for the dead, helps with Elevation and conjuration.

Anise: Opens portals to the dead. Protects the Medium.

Balm of Gilead: Used in Amatory necrosophic practices (strong love and lust) and helps the dead with materialization.

Basil: Protection, love of the dead. It is a very lucky herb and it vibrates with love energy for the dead.

Bay Laurel: Communication with the dead, protection, triumph, used in funeral wreaths.

Birch: Rebirth.

Cedar: Calling the dead, protection, purification. Good after graveyard visits as a smudge combined with a salt bath.

Comfrey: Healing and grieving.

Copal: Use Copal Oro from Mexico because it is the most authentic to what the ancients used. Copal brings dead. It honors them with the correct vibe and makes the vibes clear and strong.

Cypress: Endings, transformation, grounding. Sacred tree in Muertería.

Elder: Transformation (alchemy of the dead), draws Death Energy to you.

Epazote (Pazote): Relieves a heavy atmosphere after a funeral.

Espanta Muerto: "Frightens dead" or "Ghost chaser," this herb WILL get rid of the dead, low level demons, and ancarthic larvae. Combine with heather flower for more potency.

Frankincense: Elevation and purification.

Garlic: Protection against a home invasion of the dead.

Heather: The dead do not like heather.

Jasmine: Honoring Death Energy. Best in incense and perfumes. Also charm bags to set nearby while sleeping for dreams of the dead.

Kewda: All necromantic practices.

Lavender: Memories, peace, gentle offering. Use as a smudge.

Lemon Balm (Melissa): Immortality, happiness; used in tea for emotional cleansing and uplifting.

Lilac: Sacred scent of the dead. Use with Jasmine.

Lotus: Comfort after a death.

Lily: A flower long used to honor the dead. Resurrection.

Marigold: Flor de Muerto is a very popular flower to honor the dead with, particularly for Dia De Los Muertos. Being a "sweet herb," it can increase status of love and money. Marigold is sacred to La Santa Muerte and is used to decorate the tombs of the deceased.

Mastic: Materialization of the dead.

Mugwort: Inner sight, necromancy (divination), manifestion.

Mullein: Cleansing, some graveyard work. Not a substitute for graveyard dirt.

Parsley: A powerful liminal herb. Opens up the gates so you can experience Death Energy. Must be freshly boiled and imbibed with or without sugar to really get a chance to "see beyond." Don't doubt this little plant!

Patchouli: Only useful for scent profiles because of its unique earthy smell. Its not very useful in actual Muertería or Death Energy Keeping.

Rosemary: Very useful because it is for remembering and memories in general. You can carry branches during funerals for this symbolism and also use it as a smudge. It smells great!

Roses: Subtle but definite Death Energy flower. Use its leaves for banishing sadness and grief. Roses should always be near the workers of Death for extra protection. Does not matter whether fresh or dried. They both work. Roses cast a protective shield around you for about five or six hours.

Rowan: Protection from angry muertos.

Rue: Karmic completion, protection, purification.

Sage: Wisdom, purification.

Sandalwood: Great incense for the dead. They tend to pick this incense or Nag Champa.

Willow: Releases, cleansing.

Wormwood (Ajenjo): General work with the dead. Amplification of personal power. Curses.

Yarrow: Immortality, endings, protection.

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The Living Altar II - Altar Placements

Muertería's Reather. Please excuse the dust!

I suppose that I will cover the different glass and candle positions first! :)

My favorite position is what I call the Everlasting Circle. I use one large pitcher or vase in the middle of the altar and four alternating glasses of water and candles, making nine in total. As I said in my other post, nine is the sacred death number in more than one culture.

This arrangement on the Living Altar brings in the Death Energy clearly and crisply. Those with some psychic ability should pick up a nice energy flow and as your ritual goes on, you'll notice that everything is evenly moving in a uniform circular motion. The muertos do favor this layout. :)

The "Kinda" Trapezoid Placement is another top favorite of mine. It has SO much power!

This is one of the only times that there wasn't more water to match the flames. So, why only half the water? For extra muerto energy to send a spell out into fruition. There are only a few reasons to ever "over flame" the Living Altar. Sending important spells/magic that you do with your muerto tops the list. Another reason is waning energy if you are compromised in some fashion. Like magical attacks or illness.

The Upright Arrow Placement

A very old but tried and true layout used on bóveda's (ancestral altars in Santería) is the Upward Arrow. The candles and glasses alternate and form and upward arrow. This means that you are "putting the muertos to work." I don't have a photo of this one.

Upside Down Triangle Placement

I have to repeat this photo from another post. Sorry!

This layout really brings in power. It does flow downwards but it goes into the earth, grounding you, your muerto, and your magic effectively. It almost guarantees that your request will be heard and thoughtfully considered by your higher power. Your muerto will work harder with this placement.

The Square Placement

A controversial setting is my Square setting. Originally, this layout did not work. It caused a blocked energy flow and my muerto Rodolfo didn't like hanging out at his shrine. I revisited the setting after an Ah ha! moment. I realized that I could use something to interrupt the blockage. What is it?

It is simply a copper bowl, seen at the left front. It doesn't have to be a bowl - anything copper. It opens the blockage, interrupting the negative particles of Death Energy from overtaking the positive ones.

The Misa Placement

This layout is a classic only for Misa rituals. Daily Misas do not require this. These are special ones for special days like holidays, except for Muertería holy days, called Riptein. That's because during "ripping time" there is fixed Sighting (scrying). Only certain tools are allowed as well as certain muertos. Daily misas are casual and can be used for readings and just about anything. High Misas are formal, Sighting is set and fixed with only Quartz and Obsidian balls or mirrors and this altar is decorated for one. (I didn't have crystal balls for this one!)

Bubbles in the water. Good? Bad? I have learned that it just indicates activity. Count that as a positive sign though. I've had both kinds of muertos. Bad ones, for me, tend NOT to make bubbles. Just observe. :)

Death Energy Keepers!! Use these placements too!!

I mentioned in a last post that I'm going to try a new setting soon. It should be cool! Gonna check out the energy and make sure to take a photo. I'm going to clean Rodolfo's shrine and put his black cloth back on, maybe with some red cloth too, since red is his color. I've done Roddy's astrological chart, since he gave me his birth time.

He was born here in Ore - Cottage Grove. His chart is interesting!! He has a stellium in Virgo. He is VERY heavy in Earth which is weird for me. I never have gotten along with a Taurus with even more Earth! I'm getting a lot of info from Roddy about himself. So cool. That darn biker! I <3 Free Souls! Look at Roddy's chart! I know that I've missed stuff. Not a stellium in Gemini though - there's a node there, not a planet. Must be three planets. :)

Sorry - when I learn stuff, I get excited and write more.

So long!

Por el amor de los muertos.

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Scrying On Elder Scrolls Online

The Antiquarian's Eye - The Scrying Tool.

I never thought I'd end up posting about this, but I'm so passionate about scrying and I absolutely love this feature on ESO. Above is the tool used to scry for "dig sites." With the Antiquarian Eye, there is a little puzzle for you to do that transports you to the general area of the site. On your map, it highlights for you what area the treasure is located in, and you take your mount over to the place that looks like an excavation dig.

You only have a short time to dig in the marked area. It is a very short game of hot and cold. You will also get "leads" about other items. You get some cool shit for your house! :) At first, I thought the scrying was weird but I came to love it. If you love ESO, try Scrying and come to Cyrodiil, our toon is named Sonnillion. Tom plays her. We are AD and have been there since 2015. Stupid shit is happening and Tom and I talk about it on voice.

More on scrying, but a load of ads, gamerant:

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Por el amor de los muertos.

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Grandpa Ben

I have only one image to post for this. It is the only one I've seen.

Grandpa Ben came through unexpectedly today. He just said that "You were right on correct about my mother and her ways (referring to her mean attitude, spiteful spirit, and how she hated people), her Indian tribe (Algonquin) and my dad (being French). I can't believe your accuracy, my dear. The things you have written about her and our family have been great - please continue to keep our family alive. The Thorp's are not long survivors physically so maybe we can be famous in the annals and torrents of spirit?"

Odd terms grandpa! He was a very smart guy who liked playing with words. I must of got that from him! Love messing with words. :) This may look trivial but it means a lot to me. He doesn't often speak this way, so I treasure it! And boy...I got his nose, and so did my dad. Lol!

<3 you my grandpa Benjamin J. Thorp! <3

Circa 1918-1978.

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The Living Altar For Death Energy Keeping

The Living Altar, pretty recent. On the left, with the peacock feather is Muertería's Reather, another Vessel but portable. It has a pact with Rodolfo in it, along with herbs, stones, palos, and various kinds of dirt that is sacred. This is for Muerterísts only as are bottle Vessels. I make and sell Vessels but they are expensive because they require a lot of work. Its Palo work, not witchcrafty do-it-yourself shit. Get it? If you don't know the mambos in Palo, your ritual doesn't work. They aren't online or in books. These Vessels are Palo....so. Anyway!

The Living Altar should be a little sanctuary for both you and your muerto, when you either receive one or gather them yourself as a trained Reaper. The altar needs a lot of attention but in reality, the maximum time needed is about an hour and a half a day at most. The average day on a non-washing glasses day its about 45 minutes. Add another 10-15 for washing, depending on how many glasses you use.

I love this setup because it equals nine. That is THE death number in African faiths like mine, and for others as well. If you're really smart, you can research this number and check out the numerology too. Its eerie.

This works great doing alternate flame and glasses. I'm going to try a new layout soon - my client had an interesting take on my circle set. Need to check it out!

I take time to make Rodolfo's shrine look nice. The effort that you make with this altar - right down to washing glasses, gets reflected to your muerto, and in turn, your muerto makes your life easier and better. Very serious here. And ppl ask me the reasons for keeping a muerto. Quite a few reasons, but I'll address individuals because not everyone is "all muerto ready." Some ppl do not believe and some ppl get real scared or will bad mouth me and say I'm crazyballs. Lol!

Death Energy Keepers have to address the All Dead, or what Palo folks refer to as the Kalunga - the Vast Dead or collective Dead. The All Dead isn't too hard to grasp. I may not be a pagan, but I know that the All is real. I used to be pagan but in Palo, there is one God - I studied and l learned, then felt different. Nsambi. Creator. But this doesn't affect my teachings at all. You can be pagan, Wiccan, or whatever you vibe to. Muertería can be either a religion or path, its up to the practitioner.

Death Energy Keepers need to learn how to tap into the very root of necromantic practice by daily meditations (which I provide), specific chants (they are in African language - I use Yoruba, not Congo because I'm learning it), tuning into frequencies by listening on YouTube (Solfeggio frequencies) - these are healing sounds. You'll notice a difference pretty quickly. Pain lessens and mood lightens. :) Helped my chronic pain (gone) and my depression eased a bit (mine was very severe, its completely gone via ECT).

Also, the graveyard visits are imperative. They need to be at least three times weekly or you won't get the beneficial energies and awesome tuning that only a graveyard can supply. I'm talking about real visits where you stay for at least an hour, and not walking but sitting on the naked ground, pulling up the energy from that ground. Not ordinary earth but blessed by death earth.

It should feel good - cool and clear. Make sure you always carry nine pennies just in case of a random gnarly muerto. If it feels bad, start leaving. When you aren't too far from the gate, quickly scatter the pennies behind you and promptly leave. You've paid off the gnarly muerto and he won't follow you. Pennies create a barrier. Hence, "paying at the gate." Keeps the muertos in by using the coins, or the paying the gate dwelling deity to keep the muertos in. Never seen anyone else describe it like I do, but I have not read everything. I'm sure its out there somewhere. Heh! xD

Tuning into Death Energy isn't difficult, really. You can get "in the mood" by doing a void meditation, listening to ambient music like Aghast, my favorite, burning Aloeswood incense (Japanese, not Holy Smoke! Ehhh! Don't waste your money!!) or good quality (not Hem) Sandalwood incense - also real Copal Oro is excellent. Handle or wear Amethyst (A master stone in Muertería), Smoky Quartz (only channels muertos), Onyx, Tanzanite, Black Tourmaline, Yellow Obsidian, Leopardskin Jasper, and Yellow Jasper (these last three if you can channel with any being), Black Obsidian (A master stone in Muertería), Aqua Aura Quartz, Record-Keeping Quartz (for gathering muertos and a temporary muerto hold), Bloodstone (Vitality stone to muertos, a sign of life - important to them), and not a stone - mirrors. ALL Living Altars need one mirror that can stand on its own. My blog has it already but here's mine for quick reference:

Why the mirror? Partly for Sighting but really to see muertos during rituals. Its awesome and I love it! I see Rodolfo and other muertos too. The mirror is the proving point that says "Hey, muertos are visiting my rituals, its great!" Don't be scared. I wasn't. See your handiwork in action. Show yourself the power and energy that you shift. Its there, use it. Manipulate it. Death Energy is real - its actually pulsing with life! Its not about being morbid, though I personally always have been. Its my curious medical orientated mind, not much else. I do prefer darker shades of colors but always have, since I was 10? I'm too old to give a shit about ppl criticizing me about my wardrobe. I love white but instantly get it filthy. Rofl! Truth! Too much analyzing. Done.

Post is ending. Hope this is interesting. Got more altar stuff - more info about the shapes to put the glasses in for what purpose, and more tools n stuff.

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Preparation For Death Energy Keeping

Welcoming Misa for John K. Held for his arrival. Blue candle for Elevation and Coors for him and Rodolfo.

Candle Habit

The muertos need the bright halo of a flame to give them light. By giving them light, it makes their inner fire burn and gives them a reason to go on - to persist. To prep for Death Energy Keeping, start saving up for your Living Altar. It isn't terribly expensive except for candles. I suggest always using white and use tea lights if you want to save a little over $50. I usually buy from a Catholic supply - cheapest you can find! My order of 288 (2 gross) is now $102 with shipping. A bit rich for my habit of eight candles or more daily. So I get 300 tea lights from Amazon for about $47. The Sterno little candles suck for about $82, trust me. My big tea lights burn around eight hours - they ain't cheap crap. Muertos like them fine! And they are much safer!! You will need at least seven or eight holders for your candles. Amazon is cheap for large amounts. More is always better for this practice. We can go up to eleven.

Water Sippers?

Muertos are thirsty. Not like the living, but its their waning energy that needs water supplementation. Like flames, it gives them sustenance. Fuel for that inner fire. The water and flames have a kind of rhythm together. You'll notice it after a while. There's a few things to notice. For this D.E.K. (Death Energy Keeping) practice, you will also need at least six clear glasses. Any kind you find pleasing - but wine glasses are easy, cheap at the Dollar Tree, and look stately. We can go up to eleven. And - one glass must be bigger than the others, or use a clear vase. The water needs changing and glasses need washing every 3-4 days. Some ppl stop there and think this practice is too much. Well, use your vase and one candle! Save the others for Misas or other rituals. :)

This is paramount: There can always be one more flame than water glass. But water glasses cannot outnumber flames. Why? Too much water douses the flames. One more flame does not hurt the gentle balance created by water. How do I know? Exhaustive research of my own Living Altar for years - about three or four now. Daily, almost nonstop. I bleed science with my muerto!

One thing you can do now: Take a piece of Amethyst or Smoky Quartz jewelry to a graveyard. When you think you have found the heart <3 of the graveyard, sit down on the grass and place your jewelry there. Does not need to be a grave. Hold your hand on it until it sings. It feels different to everyone. May be a buzzing, a weird vibration, or maybe a heartbeat. After about nine minutes, put the jewelry on. You should feel a change. If not, try another time or a different graveyard.

A tiny peek into Death Energy Keeping...I've already gotten into the Living Altar!

Por el amor de los muertos. <3

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Death Energy Keeping 8=X

Very early Living Altar. This is before I knew the water/flame dynamic with muertos. How did I find out? Experimentation, trial, and error baby! This is all outta balance here!

What is Death Energy Keeping? It is the practice of keeping a Living Altar and maintaining it with the appropriate water, flames, and offerings while having a heavy handed relationship with a graveyard: I mean a serious real relationship by going at least three or four times a week and getting to know the residents; studying said graveyard by map; and leaving offerings of food, liquor (optional), and coins - never put Florida Water on near the grave!! Put it on you nearby. Most muertos think its too strong because their sense of smell is heightened after dying; maybe super old muertos wouldn't mind, John K. didn't - he died in 1888; my muerto Rodolfo hates it, he died in 1991;

Do not collect graveyard dirt mindlessly. No, even if you read "hoodoo" tutorials, sorry, but they do it wrong. Ask me and I'll tell you. There is no need to cover your head in white. No need to appease a gatekeeper unless there is a godd/ess you worship (like Centella) who rules over graveyards not just death in general. I scatter nine pennies neatly by the opening part of the gate for her. As instructed, not by feeble human thought or emotion.

Also, graveyard conduct is important. Mostly: No shouting, running, or sex in graveyards. Ask me and I'll prolly have more. Haha! Not trying to be mean or too sober sounding. Just respectful.

Death Energy Keeping will be a bigger topic here. I need to over the Living Altar and setup, the dynamics of the water glasses and the flames, how the altar is arranged and why, jewelry or as Muerteríst's say "regalia," because certain pieces are of importance, Elevation, Sighting (scrying), crystals and their uses, and some oil plus loose incense recipes, maybe some Muertería specific stuff dunno yet. I will discuss my theory more about Highly Transmutable Death Energy and hopefully my information about Electromagnetic Radiation. I dabble in science-y and electrical stuff because my husband was an Electrical Engineer (retired) so I bounce my ideas off of him. Love that!

I do feel a pull to work on these things. I may have to add a blog! I would hope that some would find it interesting! Posting it all here would prolly get messy, huh?

I'll definitely have to post updated Living Altar info, though first, I should do a Prep post! :)

Skulk ya laters!

Por el amor de los muertos

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Beware of Wrong Knowledge

This graphic can either come with serious meaning or not. I take it very seriously. My ancestors were both African and Algonquin.

I am frustrated! I go for searches on the damn AI bullshit and it is wrong because the "summary of the Internet (AI)" gets their information from websites that are WRONG! And seriously, fuck the Magickal Spot - everything I've read, collectively has been erroneous, either completely or partially. How is orange related to the Air element? Their explanation is because red and yellow makes orange? Fucking rookie mistake!

Orange is not related to Air, nor Mars, or Tuesday and Wednesday! Holy balls! It is ruled by the Sun, Orange's day is Sunday, and its element is Fire. Ever pick up a basic magic book (not the internet) that is 30 years old or older? How about Cornelius Agrippa or John Dee, maybe? Something really old and musty? Hell, its all online anyway. Check out the Sacred Texts Archive, lots of stuff there. Oh, but its too old...wanna learn it right? Don't do BALG for fuckers sake! Lol! xD That dude can't even do Palo right. I digress...

Ppl are just making up their own stuff up. What I do with channeling is different because I do it with authenticity and I back up my knowledge with truth and reality the best as possible. In other words, I prove my work. Like my grandpa Ben. All I knew is that he was a machinist. I had no knowledge of what machinists do.

He knew I wanted proof so he told me two things - both critical to machinists. The term to "turn" and "Sliding Head Machining." Looked them up and whoa! Grandpa Ben gave me shivers! Check it out. I channel him pretty often. He has also located two items for me that were completely buried and in odd locations. Now I'm channeling my ancestors and the muertos for customers at my Etsy shop.

I've seen some funky correspondences going around here on tumblr. This herb list was mind boggling. It listed fennel for hate! The only thing I can think of is a bastard usage of fennel instead of coriander in the old Barrabas spell. But I dunno. Use of fennel would instead nullify the spell. Its coriander for a reason - mostly an attribute of Fire and Mars. Fennel, I believe, is Mercury and Air. Not in key. Does not jive. Fennel's best use is for divination and light (not permanent) love spells, with more flirtation involved.

Where do I get my knowledge? Old books, silly! Intuition (I check books). And lots of experience handling and using herbs. As well as crystals and just about anything else magical. I don't really acknowledge the title of witch, but I guess I am. I'm just a Muerteríst and Palo Mayombe devotee. Nothing else. The thing is that magic is serious, it is an art and shouldn't be trifiled with. There are too many "fair weather witches" or, you can call them eclectic...anyway.

Just counted...been doing magic and witchery for 34 years now!

Por el amor de los muertos.

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At Work

A simple trabajo with Centella. Note: The bandana below the plate IS purple, just looks kinda blue in the afternoon light.

As you may see, this is a very elementary candle ritual, though there are some symbols some ppl may not notice. I used four candles: Four is the number of foundation and four stands for the builders and workers of the universe, those who pay attention to details, have discipline and structure, but can be rigid and hard headed.

Then there is the square symbol in which I placed the candles in. What do squares mean? Stability and grounding. The square is associated with the Earth element and the material plane. It represents the four cardinal directions—North, South, East, and West—and the four elements—earth, air, fire, and water—highlighting the sacredness of the physical world. In short, the square is a profound spiritual emblem that connects the material and spiritual worlds, offering guidance on stability, balance, protection, and integrity, while encouraging mindfulness and groundedness in everyday life.

There are Centella's items above. Her red bowl to the top left, stones, patipemba on Kraft paper, water and brandy in the brass (real) goblets, and the little Indian statuette. Sorry, its my own culture and I don't call myself Native American - my great grandma said: "Using the name Native American is silly way to use a sentiment only made for guilt-tripping." Ouch! My great grandma was NOT a liked person, but I absolutely adore her and her brutal honesty from the 19th century.

Just some secrets - steal! :)

Back to topic!! On the bottom of the altar, my little Quartz sphere lends its power to the candles - which colors I shall address. The green candle is used for money and prosperity. The yellow candle is for quick action - the power of Lucero, who has Mercurial traits but for this ritual, I chose yellow. Not his red/black scheme. The orange candle removes blockages and helps with personal transformation.

And the brown candle opens the roads. This isn't easily found. I got it from some Spanish witchcraft I was reading about in a book. I used essential oils as well. Basil for green candle; Lavender for yellow candle; Cinnamon on orange candle; and Rosemary on the brown candle - maybe ppl already know, but Rosemary is great as a road opener. I learn from Spanish witchcraft and it is good!

So, short post but there is useful knowledge here.

Por el amor de los muertos.

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A Vessel for a Muerto

Recent Vessel, May/June 2026.

I received a trabajo to create a Vessel back in early May for a client at my Etsy shop quoVeneficium. I gathered some basic deets about the fella I was going to build it for, like general birth chart information. This helps me see what he needs on a basic level. I gather what colors - 1-5 of them, older the muerto the fewer colors typically or if they are military, they get fewer too.

Why? The fewer the colors for them means they still hold rank and are seen as guardian muertos. The actual colors themselves are at a soul level. I cannot share them here but my client has purple and black indicating "The Gran Muerto," or muerto in charge. I only knew that I was building something very powerful and that I needed to treat it with great care and responsibility.

The first steps were consecration and smudging. I was very particular about my herbs for my omiero, which is a lustral water mostly used in Santería. I got trained how to make and use omiero via muerto and books in Spanish. I use palos (sticks), Spanish herbs, as well as European/American herbs with no shame. My omiero's are cooked but work amazing.

Anyway, I carefully clean the Vessel with omiero, smudge it with Yerba Santa and begin the process of filling it. I cannot give ingredients but a few...For some reason, I had an intuition to take my tiny print NLV Bible and tear out Psalm 23 to put in the Vessel. Never done that before! This will be notable later!! ;) Another ingredient is Black Tourmaline. This stone guards against EMF, which muertos despise.

Jet beads are an ingredient in which muertos stick to like glue! Jet was worn by the Victorians for mourning as a part of their wardrobe. "French" Jet is black glass. Real Jet is extremely light, feels like wood, and is quite effective for grief, I found! So, this "stone" is great for Vessels. The thing that ppl don't know is that Jet will absorb any Death Energy that it can. ANY. So know where you're going when you wear it!

The herbs and powders that I use are not written down. In fact, most of the items aren't because each Vessel must be a completely separate entity than any other that I've built! Really, all humans differ, right? I'd never insult a muerto by using the same ingredients! The Vessel stayed on Roddy's shrine. I figured he could chat.

John's place. Very sunny that day. My husbands shadow on the left. There's another photo too on findagrave.

Back at the beginning, mid-May, I had a vision. It was our graveyard. I saw the right side of it. Never where I go when I gather. I'm always on the left by the bikers. My inner vision showed me a quaint place. I put the vision away.

Graveyard time came! We had some shitty weather, then Memorial day..the next day we made it. My husband takes me into the country about 18 miles away. I'm armed with my graveyard kit: Black pouch, record keeping quartz, Florida water, coins for muerto and Centella, a railroad nail, jar, and sandwich. I had no liquor so Centella told me to offer food. I don't use any device to find a muerto, ever.

With my "deady" senses, I located the back side of a old, broken nearly in half tombstone. I wasn't feeling sure until I looked at the front! The old stone bore a military crest with just a name and service of duty (MOS). It said:

John T. Kyniston --Co B -- 5 Iowa Cal

No birthday or death day. I felt immediately: CIVIL WAR!! My husband doubted me. :/ But that was later.

I set up and did my "muerto gathering." Its very friendly and its not commanding. John was very easy and quick. I told him what I was doing and he practically jumped into the crystal. I never have done constraints. John was an angel. He stayed until I released him by voice into the Vessel. Other muertos don't wait for me and leave Roddy's shrine area. I have to call them back by using a tool like my Baston de Muerto. The bells get them! That's one reason we use bells.

I was enticed to check John's name on the internet. I found the 5th Iowa Calvary easily but doubted I'd find him. Well, lo and behold - John is listed at the end of the K's! So he WAS Civil War, for the Union! Swear that I was a young man in that war. The Civil War has fascinated me since I was young. I feel called to that area. Anyway! I went to findagrave and found his whole name, birthday, death day, and dead family!

Its funny too - John told me that he loves psalms and I did not know when I put psalm 23 in the Vessel. I had no previous knowledge of him. Then he told me which ones were his favorites so I could tell my client. Looks like John responds really well when my client recites them! From what I hear, the Vessel is awesome! :D Sweet!

To that vision that I had? It is exactly where John's grave is!

Por el amor de los muertos. <3 8=X <3

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Family and Ancestors - NEW Stuff

This is my ancestor altar today. Its got more items on it but same photos. I added certain crystals/metals said to assist muertos (pewter, silver, Pink Opal, Amethyst, and Lapis Lazuli), a St. Michael vigil LED candle, a bowl of coins, a tape that has a psychic reading for my dad - I can listen to his voice! But only have once and he's only asking about me. He was always so worried about me...anyway - photo is crooked! Sorry!

Get something from a witch - expect there to be a spell on it.

Don't mess with mojo hands! My husbands brother did a no-no years ago with a mojo pouch I made him! He didn't just toss it in the garbage immediately. He investigated the ingredients! He said he had to understand "what that shit was." There were herbs, stones, and a piece of folded parchment. He reallllly messed with it - and shouldn't have!

He is an atheist (I didn't know back then) and he tears apart everything to its most minute level, its maddening! And a Gen X too, like me, but he's 55 years old now. This happened about 20 years ago! Thing is, I was a devout Demonolator back then and chose to put tiny curse attachments on my mojo bags if you doubt them or try to open them to look inside. He told Tom, like I said above, that he investigated it then destroyed it. In those words. Well...a few years down the road he got stricken with Multiple Sclerosis.

At present, he is blind in one eye, in constant pain, cannot drive anymore, calls up his mother and Tom, calls them racists and says that he needs no religion for he knows all and doesn't get why ppl need faith in something cos all he needs is faith in himself! Eric calls me the c* word, attacked his brother back in '20 because he has TDS, because he didn't like my goddamn tee shirt. They were in a full on fist fight - his brother very sick but he is 6'3" and used steroids in high school to win football. Fuckin BIG dude, could crush my skull with one squeeze...but the fight ended when my hubby's head went through the drywall. My father-in-law had heart surgery the other day and our family friend Gooch (Gary) is too crippled to help. I stayed out of the fight, but Eric whispered to me before he attacked: "He better keep his woman in line." Huh, bro? Shaddup asshole.

Sorry, random memories but I have a feeling ol Eric may try contact. I have his number and I ain't blocked him. Mom won't block him for obvious reasons, she has to keep an eye on him and contact the Veterans Administration if necessary. Tom (hubby) blocked his arse. Eric calls me a racist because of the way I vote. Whatevs man. Would a racist study and practice an ATR for 16 years at a uninitiated level? That's fuckin devotion. Sorry. Don't give a hoot about race.

No, listen. I come from a background where some of my family were racist but for mostly ignorant reasons that were fixable. My great grandma, of the Algonquian tribe in Quebec, was supposedly racist. But why? Because white settler Lutherans came in her small wigwam and murdered her parents and four siblings right before her eyes. One of them held her head tightly and he peeled her eyes open. She tells me "They was shot in the head after being hog-tied and beaten."

Whoa! She's never talked to me before. She said "This talk won't be last." Looks like Eric's violence brought her out!

But now that I've truly felt her, I fully sense that she's NOT racist a bit. She had a horrible four years with those folks, then found a job doing some kind of sewing or mending. At 16, she left the Lutherans. By the time she was 20, I believe she met my great grandfather, Fred. He was a fur trader. I have been wondering about a connection to Menominee Falls with them for many years. Beautiful place.

Great grandma Victoria is beautiful too. A little lady like me but black black hair and coal eyes. Like my dad and his brothers Bob, Jerome, and Paul and my aunt Cathy. Aunt Jane, well, she's more grandma's side. Uncle Jeff was the spitting image of my grandpa Ben. Only one! Lol! Only two or three alive in this paragraph.

I see her now. What happened? Always tried to envision my great grandma, couldn't do it. Another snare removed. Talking to my mom's side? Dunno if it will work, honestly. Uptight ppl, secretive, prefers not to speak. Though I *may* be able to get through to my grandma Lia from Germany but I need a German beer. Lol! Lots of crazy family dynamics on my mothers side unfortunately. And most of them are dead. When she does talk to me it is loud and shrill. Ugh. I will wait for her.

Ending this post. Hope its interesting. If I get any words about politics, I'll erase this post. I'm not aiming to identify as anything. I don't care, it was central to that story. Thx.

Por el amor de los muertos.

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Projects: What's Going Onl

Roddy's shrine looking extra spiffy! He always glows when he's got the "right" stuff going on! What's right? (Note: Roddy's patipemba can be seen etched into the purple Elevation candle)

Well, Roddy and I just finished a Muerto Pact for a client. I shipped the Vessel yesterday. How long does this ritual take place? I give it a month but it takes three weeks or so if I'm quick. Having a bottle to use is necessary - liquor bottles work best. I generally choose regular size, I think 750 ml bottles. No wine or beer bottles are ever considered. I've used mostly tequila bottles and just finished the awesome Suntory Japanese Whisky bottle for my client. It has a dark green hue and looks very cool. I have to ask him if its ok to share a photo. It is so fuckin cool though! This fella is super interesting but again, I'd need permission to share info.

After a Vessel is chosen, the important task of finding the totem colors is next - those vary from one to five colors, and any color is used for decoration with wax, cloths, ribbons, etc. This muerto was very old and only needed two colors to represent him. Other decor really varies. In Muertería, there are a couple extremely important items added to the top of the Vessel, flanking it on to ground it. Not all Vessel's receive these though. Muertos who expect a lot of power or "say" in their muerto activities tend to need more colors and accoutrements added to the Vessel. Though muertos with "say" are rare. They need to realize that its a pact, a treaty - and they may get heard. Tata Angel told me that it is basically an nfumbe in a Vessel, just much lesser than a fundamento (cauldron). There's no nkisi (god or force) grounding the Vessel, so it is much more unpredictable than the nganga.

Muertos that just have wax, a chain and with no lock and some kind of shells are typically older muertos (before 1900's) though locks are still used as human deterrents, NOT for "keeping the muerto in," okay? Because you CANNOT! Doing a pact in a Vessel is for the practitioner who owns it is for mainly peace of mind. The muerto doesn't stay in the Vessel, but MUST come at the owner's call. The Vessel is a tool and you can leave the bottle open anytime you want.

My vessel doesn't have all kinds of bells and whistles but I'll be adding a symbol to the outside very soon and maybe three bells! These symbols for Vessels vary from: Shells, bells, chains, locks, keys, jewelry, rosaries, feathers, other milagros, crystals, bells, mirrors. The one thing I will say that though Vessel decorations sounds kinda involved, but its because we are building a world for someone and caring to make it comfortable for the muerto.

All of these little things we put in the Vessel are mutually shared but there's a certain energy that feeds back: HTDE. The muerto has it and it emulates back to us. When working with a muerto, it is important to have the give/take relationship going very strong. Probably don't think of this or realize it, but your muerto can help you in more meaningful ways than scrying or a magical spell. :)

Onto other changes...

Realized what I've been doing the past few years is NOT invocation at all!! Wow, what a difference! I work it SO much better than invocation. That's fuckin wild! How did I just come to that realization? Would my relationship with Demons change? xD Jajajaja! To tell the truth, half the time I felt wrong for invoking Demons. Like not awakened, closed minded, fooled, too young to understand, and that I needed a better teacher. That's for fuckin sure. Even I was a better teacher! My old teacher can't get mad - she admitted in the past of disliking teaching and not being great at it. Not my words. Lol!

But now, I'm on the right path. Cylinders are firing, neurons are sparking, spirit is aligning. Mental faculties and body slower but catching up. That's why She is here. Everything she has shown has been true. She unblocked a lot of things and she is fiercely guarding me. Protected by her. She said I can share who she is because that cannot do a thing, but keep our secret words silent.

Centella.

She came back to me after a very long time and a period of serious thinking. Centella wondered if it was worth coming back - was this lady to be fixed or even ready to receive? Centella told me that she always has deeply loved me since we met - I did feel like her child. But Centella was really the only being who saw the real me through blood and bone. Antonio always said on our everyday chat that I'd go far with my skills but would probably work on the fringe just like him. He says its better being unclaimed and that Palo is only possible if I conform. He said I needed to create my own niche because I'm most powerful on my own.

I'm digging my own path out like I'm etching Rodolfo's patipemba into the cold and wet ground. Finally doing what Antonio envisioned. A girl tearing her way through - her own "scratching." Finding my own new road. Speaking of that, my roads are better now. Those three messages I got to "help" me? Then they all ran away? That was Centella getting rid of more blockages. She ripped them out. It all happened within the same 8 week period. Three spiritual women, all ATR related. Hmm. Well, whatever these gals or should I assume, sorry...ppl saw, it matters not.

Something busted my blocks at least for me to get up and get shit going again. I rise triumphantly with Centella's strength, fortitude, and I tightly grasp my resolve. I continue to bust down any barrier I face becoming new again - shedding off that skin of confusion and unsurety.

Why do I have so many changes? Really not new changes but old past things I didn't get to explore or finish. These come back to me during my daily life, not haunting me but reminding me to FESS UP and DO IT. I did psychotherapy for over 20 years - with that, you do become more aware of how your mind works and what little things might trigger you, even unconsciously. In good hands, therapy is awesome. But the wrong therapist can practically kill your psyche dead. Jus sayin!

I know that Muertería will be mine forever as long as ppl don't steal! And Centella isn't just hanging out. She just helped me designate which necklaces for channeling who! Lol!

I am still not doing a book. I have one client at a time who pays me for files as well as help and extra information. It costs a couple hundred bucks.

Por el amor de los muertos.

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Kiss Of Death

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Such beauty. <3 8=X <3