Don't know if my posts will remain on Tumblr once I delete this blog, so I am taking an extra step in at least Glazing/Nightshading them before they go public again
...Tumblr didnāt implode? Really? Wow. Uh, anyway, yeah-Iāve been away for the better half of 2 years. Let me explain.
If you want to read more about why Iāve been away, Iāll say more under keep reading. This update is gonna be long as it is...but without further ado:
Iām going to be deleting this blog.
Huh? Whhyyy? Says the non-existent person in my head.
My main sticking point with Tumblr is that Iām no longer using my main blog (a personal account I made in 2012.) This art blog is considered secondary and I canāt delete the main one without deleting the whole account. Annoying, yeah, but Iād rather not keep my weird fandom/personal account that I made when I was still in high school. So...
Iāll be starting fresh with a new blog. New username, new tags, theme, ecertea,Ā etcetera.Ā
Iām really thankful for the 131 followers Iāve gotten since I made this blog. Iāve been posting art since 2015, but I still get reblogs and likes on old stuff every few days. Itās weirdly heartwarming. Despite Tumblr being considered dead for a while, itās been one of the better places to post my art because itās easy to find. *cough*UNLIKE DeviantArt*cough*Ā
But back to the topic at hand. Like I said, Iām not leaving Tumblr entirely, just making a new account...eventually. Iāll be sure to post the link to that new account once I make it.
TDLR; Iām making a new blog, look out for details!Ā My Instagram is the best place to keep up with me right now.Ā Iāll also be posting some stuff I forgot about...eventually.
SO, about the hiatus. Iāve been working full-time. And when Iām not doing that Iām just...exhausted. If it's not work, itās me; every time I try to draw I get anxious because Iām constantly angry on not drawing. I feel guilty for not making art, much less finishing and posting something.
I feel awful about myself because I donāt feel like Iām where I should be at. Despite being anĀ āadultā; having a job or whatever.
I always wanted and Iād still LOVE to work in animation. I went to art school a few years ago, and even though I got burnt out and basically scammed, I was somewhat happy because I thought I was going to have a bachelorās degree and maybe a job at the end of it. I didnāt. I dropped out after 9 months of back-to-back grueling, difficult, and unhealthy crunching.
But learning by myself, beingĀ āself-taughtā, isnāt for me when I have a day job or other responsibilities. Thereās so many online courses and resources out there, but I canāt put in the work without a due date on an assignment. It forces me to work, basically; to put everything else aside and actually draw.
I know Iām not great at a lot of things: backgrounds, perspective, color theory, whatever; but I just want to start drawing again and I am slowly getting there.
I still look at my old art, drawings Iāve made before art school or right after. I drew more frequently and, more importantly, I was happy just drawing. Now Iām not drawing and Iām unhappier for it.
Sorry this is kind of like Iām writing in a diary... My little story is probably a dime a dozen, but hey, Iām being honest and Iām glad I am.
Iām taking on animation classes soon hopefully. Then once I have a good foundation, Iāll start putting together a portfolio. I wanna be a liberal arts major, dammit! I think Iād really like storyboarding! I only have to sketch and clean it? Hell yeah, I love sketching! I LOVE VISUAL STORYTELLING!!
I WANNA MAKE MY OWN STORIES! I THINK ABOUT MY OWN CHARACTERS ALL THE DAMN TIME! I FUCKING LOVE ANIMATION!!!!!!
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ok iām done, thank you for coming to my ted talk
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