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Chamomile | late 20s | she/her | +18 only, MDNI | Don't repost my content | Requests closed

[nightfallenangel]

⟡ I go by Chamomile. She/her, late 20s. Used to be nightfallfromgraces. Still am on Pillowfort.

⟡ I mainly post nsfw with some art and whatever miscellaneous things catch my fancy.

⟡ As such, this blog is only for adults and I will block minors and ageless blogs.

⟡ Additional DNI, I will block you: Pedophiles, MAPs, zoophiles, sexists, racists, actual misogynists, homophobes, transphobes, trumpists, putinists, antisemites, islamophobes, pro-contact, consang, AI slop supporters etc. among others, as I reserve the right to block people for reasons beyond this list.

⟡ Many of the fantasies posted here contain taboo subjects which I do not support or condone in real life. If you can’t understand the difference between fantasy and reality, leave.

⟡ DMs are open for mutuals.

⟡ #chamomile answers is for any answered asks. The ask box is completely open for now, so come say hi! I love getting asks and peoples’ fantasies. Just please check my limits at the bottom of this post first. Emoji anons are welcome!

⟡ Taken anons: 🥀

⟡ #chamomile brewing is for any nsfw stuff of my own. This will range in quality and effort very wildly. Please don’t repost my stuff.

⟡ Requests are not open rn. I also will answer things as and if inspiration strikes.

⟡ #chamomile bubbles is for any other text posts, rambles, vents, polls, shitposts, etc.

⟡ #chamomile draws is for my art, usually featuring #chamomile ocs. I might also tag some of the text posts with that but I usually try to write them in a way that lets you imagine whoever in it — they are less characters in the story itself and more muses in my inner eye.

⟡ I try to be consistent with my tagging but I can’t make any promises.

⟡ Limits can be found below and will be updated every once in a while. They are not a DNI, but please do not talk to me about these subjects or I will block ↓

— Hard limits: Scat, farting, vomiting, ABDL, weight loss, eating disorders, loli/shota, genital mutilation

— Soft limits (only when the stars align just right, so don’t talk to me about these unless I’ve given you explicit permission): Piss, ageplay, graphic torture/gore, death, cheating

[ace-trainer-alice]

There's a fairly deep eroticism to be found in "if [it] wanted to leave [it] would leave". Social control mechanisms, ignoring obvious physical barriers, the forceful implication of consent. I of course especially just like the social control of it. Sitting it in my lap and touching it while it makes noises singing of discomfort and insisting that it could get up and leave if it wanted to. Very good.

[warmthkink]

rb this post if you’re a nsfw blog who’s trans/nb friendly!!

[tomb-mold]

Frances Benjamin Johnston’s self portrait as the “New Woman” (1896)

[girlhonestlywhocares]

If someone in a dominant role is making you uncomfortable, ignoring boundaries or saying you are too sensitive

Just fucking block them

It's not taking advantage of them and throwing them away

It doesn't make you abusive

[mistakesjmakes]

it’s a rainy sunday morning, so i’m going back to bed for a little bit.

i want to doze in between hushed breaths and messy kisses and fingerprint bruises that aren’t hard, they don’t hurt, they just stain my skin with desire and adoration.

i want to fall asleep under too many blankets and i want you to have kicked most of them off of you because you run warmer than me. i want to tuck myself back in, all cozy, in my fuzzy blanket straitjacket, and then when i wake up, you’ve picked at the blankets tucked under me until you’ve unrolled me.

peel back the layers like a chrysalis shell, one that leaves me open and vulnerable and displayed, hair tangled and tossed across the pillow, a little tendril tickling your cheek and probably getting into your mouth, but you don’t care.

it’s about my sleep-warmed, soft body that you pull closer with an arm around my waist, even though i’m far too warm from all those blankets, and you’re still running hotter than i do, but now you don’t know if it’s from the blankets you kicked off or the sight of me in your arms.

you want to press sweet little kisses to my hairline, and soft, open-mouthed bites along my throat. anything to complement your hands on me and your voice in my ear. all sleepy, soft panting and under your breath sighs at the wonder of getting to feel me next to you, beside you, tucked up against your chest where you have easy reach.

and sure, it’s about sex. it’s hot, it’s about the slide of skin in a humid room where the raindrops are still falling and echoing outside, not a storm, not a scream, but a sigh.

but it’s a rainy sunday morning, and you don’t want to waste it sleeping, but waking me is a long, honey sweet process, all sticky desire and soft longing and once i’m finally there, turning my head to finally look at you, blinking into the soft gray light of the morning-turning-rainy-afternoon, it’s with heat in my eyes and desire on my lips, which is exactly what you wanted.

[proletprincess]

forced intimacy is so cutesy. imagine laying on the couch together while watching a movie and stroking her hair, and the entire time shes cold with fear because you have an open blade pressed against her throat to make sure she doesnt go anywhere.

youre gonna cuddle me whether you like it or not.

[magicalhome]

A home library with beams, a loft, and a secret door!

House & Garden Magazine, UK

[mvttslvt]

there should be a way to get the fuck kicked out of you until you pass out for sex reasons without the...like...organ damage

[sounddesignerjeans-deactivated2]

I wish kinky sex ed wasn't so stigmatized even among left-leaning "sex positive" circles. Everyone's all "uwu I'm a sub I'll do anything you ask" okay mommy wants you to read The New Bottoming Book so you learn how to sub without hurting yourself since your sex ed up to this point is porn and your ex boyfriend Jared who liked to choke you incorrectly

[sounddesignerjeans-deactivated2]

I’m so glad you asked! Let me list off what I’ve got for you:

Books I personally recommend:

- The New Topping Book and The New Bottoming Book, by Dossie Easton and Janet W. Hardy

If you’re having kinky sex at all, you need to read at least one of these two books. Point blank. They’ll teach you the very basics of negotiating properly (which is critical!), and help you identify what you are and aren’t into.

- Mindfucking Mindfully, by Sir Ezra Where this book really shines isn’t actually in helping you “mindfuck” people, it’s in taking a close look at how to do so ethically. It’s a great answer to the question “how do I get someone to consent to something and still surprise and shock them with it?”

- Real Service by Raven Kaldera and Joshua Tenpenny This is a slightly niche pick but there simply isn’t a better book on the subject. It’s written from a 24/7 M/s perspective, which is not what I do, but the book itself is an indispensable guide to giving and receiving service. The phrase “if the Master doesn’t want it, it isn’t service” will be burned into my psyche for quite some time. I love this book a lot. Maybe my favorite out of all of these.

- Enough To Make You Blush: Exploring Erotic Humiliation, by Princess Kali This one’s high on my reading list; I’ve heard it recommended by a number of people whose opinions on these things I trust.

- Pretty Much Anything Midori Has Ever Done Midori is a great resource for this stuff - I haven’t personally read much of her work, but she’s a well known sex educator and great at what she does. She’s known for bondage, but has a lot of range beyond that.

- This Negotiations Worksheet from Bex Talks Sex This is what I default to using a lot of the time for negotiations. Forget BDSMtest, you don’t need that, it’s no good. Just look through this worksheet’s wordbank with your partner. Big fan especially of the “how do you want to feel?” section.

Books I can kind of recommend:

- The Ultimate Guide to Kink, edited by Tristan Taormino This book is weird. There’s a lot of good info for experienced players, but some of what’s written here skeeves me out. I think if I had a top that thought the way some of the tops in here think, they would not be topping me for long. But there’s some good techniques and so on to pick up that I wouldn’t have otherwise. I liked the distinction one of the authors makes between being sadistic in the sense of inflicting pain and being sadistic in the sense of doing something your sub doesn’t “enjoy.”

- The Ritual of Dominance and Submission, by David English Man, this book fucking sucks. The writing and editing are garbage, and the fear and protocol play described need way more careful negotiation than he ever lets on, let alone recommends. This is some 50 Shades bullshit. The only time I recommend this book is to tops like me who tend to be very affirming to their partners and need a guide on how to really scare them - when their partner consents and when you negotiate it, which this book sucks at teaching you. Really good content on fear, punishment, and protocol play, really terrible presentation of the topic though. Don’t read this if you don’t already know what you’re doing.

- Paradigms of Power, by Raven Kaldera I love this book. Great book. Very focused on 24/7 M/s play though, and, being an anthology, some chapters are better than others. If you can’t read something and pick out what is and isn’t for you, don’t bother. But some really great inspiration, and generally pretty well written. Big fan of the discussion of leather throughout the book.

Hope some of these are helpful for people ^-^ for the average person reading this I recommend New Bottoming/Topping, but they’re all important parts of my library and I’ve recommended all of them to friends at some point or another.

[sparklefartstheunicorn]

May I also suggest Hell on Wheels and Kneeling in Spirit by Raven Kaldera, d/s companion books that address kink with a disability. They're a should read for everyone, imo. You never know when you or a partner are going to have changes in your body that affect what you can physically do. Temporary illness/injury and even just age can affect your sex life.

[dogspouse]

I'd like to suggest Better Bondage for Every Body! It goes really in depth on anatomy, pain processing, self-tying, and has chapters specifically focusing on how to do rope bondage on/for someone who is disabled or has chronic pain, which was really important to me.

[orpheuslament]

its imperative you sexualise that mentor/protégé relationship

[professional-sinner]

Good cop bad cop but with doctors/scientists. One barking orders "I said lie STILL" the other holding you down, tightening the restraints "just do as he says, sweetheart okay?"

[mistakesjmakes]

girls who grew up as the smart girl and never the hot girl have “brain off no thoughts” as their number one fantasy, and love to be “fucked stupid.”

but girls who grew up as The Weird Smart Girl come with an extra challenge called “they want to be brain off no thoughts but you can’t call them stupid or dumb or else they’ll cry because their entire value has been placed on their intellect their whole lives, so you have to find really stupid sounding nice ways to tell them when you notice their minds are starting to quiet down.”

[girlknots]

[praebitorem-glaciei]

I think being strapped to a cold examination table while a touchy doctor feels me up could fix me

[southernsuccubus]

I'm over here cooking up a laundry list of historical situations other than princess/knight for y'all's consideration bc I'm a little burnt out on princess/knight even if it's a charming concept

[southernsuccubus]

Alright here are my pitches so far

One is a Huguenot and the other a Catholic, and it is 1573

One is an Irish farmer who is trying to warn the village that vikings have landed and the other is a Viking that has just landed

You are both domestic workers in a fine household but if you are caught you'll both be fired

One is a tuberculosis victim wanting to experience carnal pleasure before they die and the other is a handsome doctor who wants to give it but does not want to catch the illness

One is the witch and the other is the witch finder

One is a French aristocrat offering to do anything for their jailer if they help the aristocrat escape and survive the terror

One has been promised by a god to be the prize if the other accomplishes a task for the god, whether the prize wants it or not

You are two composers constantly compared to one another and wanting to one up the other

One is a selkie and the other has the sealskin hostage

[barbatusart]

🔞ROTTEN, or: gorehound's retrospective

🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞 an autobio comic about repeated exposure to irl gore in the era of web1.5's internet. CONTENT WARNING: gore, discussion of shock videos, explicit contemplation of death

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