Squeakola

Darling your brittle rage is breathtaking. ( 19 ) ~☆They/Them☆~

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

[nikkasqueaka]

I didn't grow up with a dad, not really.

I had fathers, two of them even, but I didn't have a dad.

Dads pat you on the shoulder when you do a good job, Fathers regard your achievement with disinterest and walk away.

Dads sit you down for a talk, Fathers hold you in place so it's impossible to turn away from the spittle and painful words.

Dad's comments feel like warm blanket of pride, Father's comments feel like a knife to your stomach.

I had two Fathers, I never had a dad...

Until you.

Until you walked into the room and smiled, and made everything feel okay again.

Until you hugged me goodnight and held me tight, you protected me and restored my light.

Until you drove me to work every day, hosted birthday parties, fixed my glasses and built my bunk bed.

Until you built me a garden and built me a home.

You made me feel safe and made me feel seen, gave me a place to return, wherever I may roam.

[uncleromeo]

if you don't do anything else today,

Please have a moment of silence for the people who were killed instead of freed when news of emancipation finally reached the furthest corners of the american south.

have another moment for the ledgers, catalogs, and records that were burned and the homes that were destroyed to hide the presence of very much alive and still enslaved people on dozens of plantations and homesteads across the south for decades after emancipation.

and have a third moment for those who were hunted and killed while fleeing the south to find safety across the border, overseas, in the north and to the west.

black people. light a candle, write a note to those who have passed telling them what you have achieved in spite of the racist and intolerant conditions of this world, feel the warmth of the flame under your hand, say a prayer of rememberance if you are religious, place the note under the candle, and then blow it out.

if you have children, sit them down and tell them anything you know about the life of oldest black person you've ever met. it doesn't have to be your own family. tell them what you know about what life was like for us in the days, years, decades after emancipation. if you don't know much, look it up and learn about it together.

This is Juneteenth.

white people CAN interact with this post. share it, spread it.

[nikkasqueaka]

Just used the wrong "There" in a work email.. I will never recover from this shame 😭

[stillnaomi]

using violence to liberate people from sweatshops, unsafe mines, and grinding poverty isn't the same as using violence to impose those things on people. the idea that violence is morally repugnant regardless of context is a belief that every oppressor throughout history would love for the oppressed to hold

[nikkasqueaka]

Violence has historically been the only way to get progress and liberation for oppressed people, violence is sometimes the answer y'all.

[nikkasqueaka]

Hot take (apparently)

I think Mothers and other childbearing parents are the most important members of our society and should be respected for what they do.

I'd like to preface the rest of this post by saying that I will use the term "Mother" because that is the most common title for parents who birth and raise children, but I am speaking about parents of any gender that do so, including the parents who raise children they did not conceive themselves.

This is also not to invalidate the fact that there are definitely people who do not deserve to be parents and should not be.

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The way that this society treats Mothers is absolutely disgusting, I will never understand how you can disrespect people like that, knowing that you exist because of them.

Believing that being a parent is not as important as having a career is misogynistic and just plain wrong.

When someone says that being a stay at home parent is wrong or patriarcal, I genuinely want to throttle them. Some people WANT to be around to raise their children, it is an incredibly important job and takes so much time, energy, resources, patience, studying, and skill to raise someone well. The fact that this society expects people to raise children and work full time without support is horrendous, it makes it so much harder for people to spend the time they should with their children.

This is NOT to say that you are a bad parent if you work! Or that you shouldn't be allowed to have a career or anything like that! Capitalism just makes it impossible to raise children, because of how much energy and time it takes to simply support yourself let alone make the times and space to spend with your kids.

The way people treat Mothers in public is also fucking awful, it makes me SO mad when someone says some bullshit like "children shouldn't be allowed in public" or being angry when a baby cries or a kid does something childish. THEY. ARE. CHILDREN. and they have as much a right to be places as you do! Excluding children is excluding mothers and that is so sexist it's crazy!

The hate towards women who breastfeed in public is also insane because wtf do you mean it's inappropriate to FEED YOUR BABY????? What are you cunts on???

Mothers deserve our support as a society, if you do not have your own children (or if you do) it is your responsibility to protect mothers and their children, no matter what gender you are. Children are our future and yes they can be little assholes but they are LEARNING a child does not pop out of the womb fully realized and treating children like little adults and holding them to that standard is so horrendous! No they cannot self regulate without being taught, no they cannot understand complex things and unstated social cues and boundaries, no they cannot be silent and still when YOU want them to, they are not pets to be trained or objects you can turn on and off at your convenience.

Children are the most endangered members of our society and deserve our love and protection! AND SO DO THE PEOPLE WHO ARE RAISING THEM. The effects of pregnancy on the body and brain are astounding and mothers deserve so much grace for what they went through to bring all of us into the world. Making fun or saying child birth is "disgusting" or "body horror" is a terrible thing to say to someone going through something so important and difficult, you need to keep your fucking opinions to yourself.

Also invalidating the pain of women who lose their children, are unable to carry, or go through an abortion is so disgusting and I genuinely hate you for that.

It takes a village and YOU ARE THE VILLAGE! So stop shitting on parents and do your part!

Everyone has their own aspirations in life, just because you personally don't want or like children does not give you the right to disregard and disrespect those who do. It is misogynistic to diss mothers (especially stay at home mothers)

It is SO fucked up and elitist to tell people that they should not have children if they are poor, or that it's wrong to bring children into the world because of the state of it. THE WORLD HAS ALWAYS AND WILL ALWAYS BE DANGEROUS! Mothers are raising our future, put some godamn respect on that title.

[whineosaur]

There is no greater bond on this earth than when you all despise and carry untold righteous anger about one person and then when you’re all together someone is like “so about that dead horse” and everyone starts sounding like Michael Jackson with the way they’re chanting beat it

[imjunebitch]

[nikkasqueaka]

Wanted to share something!

My mama is Disabled, she got diagnosed with lyme disease at 12 and has been slowly becoming sicker as she ages, collecting new and fun diagnoses along the way. She is incredibly autistic in the way that is obvious to the people around her and inhibits her ability to make meaningful connections with peers. She was also raised in a very abusive and harmful environment, and got stuck with some very awful men, only very recently pulling free from abusers and finding safety in a way she never had before.

Despite this, she has tried very hard to not let it hold her back from living her life. She did incredible in school, was offered positions at art schools (but declined), she went to college for Biochemistry, and to school for herbal medicine, she won dog shows and trained dogs, helped on her family's farm, she single handedly raised and homeschooled me and my sisters (all autistic, eldest Audhd), while protecting us from abusive fathers and her own illness.

She took us to travel the country, she took us hiking and skiing and took us to ballet, she helped backstage for the over 8 years of performances through her pain and sickness.

She took in and protected kids and young adults that had nowhere to go, she taught people, helped people, protected people, ran a wildly successful blog, was featured in the New York Times, there was a documentary made about us, she created and managed our little farm. And never once in my life did I feel unheard, unloved, uneducated, unaccepted or unappreciated because of her.

Through this all she struggled with her health, trying different things; diets, exercises, western medicine, easter medicine, everything.

And she has NEVER stopped studying. She studies childhood/human development, psychology, sociology, sex, death, medicine, religion/spirituality, politics, education, art, literature, critical thinking, sciences, argumentation and negotiation, the list goes on.

As my sisters and I age, finding our footing in life, she has been struggling with feeling valueless in the family. She prides herself on giving, and with all of us growing up and away, it has been a tough time.

We hung out yesterday (went thrifting and got coffee) and she told me that she had enrolled in Yale courses online. It was the first time in a long while that I had seen her light up and be excited about something, she told me all about her classes and the ones she wants to take, and we talked about how she was doing (best in the class, of course.)

I am so incredibly proud of her for finding something that she loves and is able to do without putting her body in jeopardy, that she is stepping out and doing things for herself, following her passions, and furthering her life despite her self doubt.

My mama is my role model, my muse, my inspiration, and my mentor. She believes her biggest failure is passing her illnesses onto us kids, but it is because of her that DESPITE my disabilities I am able to follow my dreams and live a full and happy life, because of her I have the confidence and the skills to navigate adulthood, acquire high paying jobs that fulfill me, go to college, pursue my hobbies, have healthy successful relationships, and be capable of taking care of myself and others no matter what.

She taught me how to be a person, an adult, an artist, an academic, a teacher, a student, a community member, a sibling, an activist, a woman, and will someday teach me how to be a mother, an aunt, and a grandmother too.

I would not be the incredible person I am if I did not have my mama, and she did all that while struggling under the weight of societal expectations and her failing body.

Never let ANYONE tell you that being disabled or chronically ill means you cannot follow your passions, contribute to society, be a parent or a partner, have a career, and lead a good life! We are so strong and our disabilities do not define nor confine us. We take the hands that we are dealt and we learn how to turn it into something worthwhile. I may never be a professional ballerina like I dreamed of, but I will be happy and I will be strong, and that is because of my mama.

[nikkasqueaka]

I hate AI

Yesterday while writing a report that GOES TO STATE! I had to genuinely sit and evaluate if using a semi colon and the words "Thrice" and "acquiesced" would make it look like my report was written by chatgpt 😭😭😭

Fuck this shit man, people are starting to say an OXFORD COMMA is only used by AI?!??! I CAN'TTTT

[redstonedust]

gender is a performance and i'm a short lived off-broadway musical adaptation of a cult classic movie that got mixed reviews from critics.

[stealingpotatoes]

cat summer begins the literal millisecond they see one (1) spot of sun

[nikkasqueaka]

Young Maria

By Nikola M. La Vallée

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If young madre Maria came to your door. Would you turn her away? Would you call her a whore?

Would you shame her for bringing a child to war? or would you step back, and widen your door?

If Jesus was out, feeding the poor, would you call the police? Would you ask him "what for?"

Would you hide young Maria? Hire José? Would you help them as neighbors? What would you say?

Would you tell them to leave, go back where they're from? If that place was Gaza, would you call them scum?

If young, desperate Maria, stole bread from the store, would you call it in? Say to knock down her door?

If she told you they came, from the middle east, would you tell her they deserve the war we brought to their streets?

If she wore a hijab would you call her a killer? If she had henna on her hands would you say it was blood? If Jesus was Black would you hear his word? Or would you call him a criminal just as they did?

Do you only call "neighbor" those with your skin? If you saw theirs was brown, would you call ICE in?

Would you call them "Illegals"? Say they live in Sin? Would you call her dirty? Raise your moral chin?

If your love is conditional, respect saved for few. If you don't accept, those not like you. Do you truly believe that your faith is true? Do you believe freedom is only for few?

[sacred-portal]

[alttxt]

[ottermatopoeia]

[theshitpostcalligrapher]

[mxjackparker]

some of you need to re-learn the word "selfish" and stop calling everyone a fucking narcissist

[nikkasqueaka]

Yes! It undermines when someone is actually a diagnosable narcissist! Some people are just assholes.

- Someone with C-PTSD from narcissistic abuse

[doomsbury]

I'm a marauder fan and curious about Snape (I'm in the same boat as you, I have read the books ages ago, but I refuse to villainize any character completely lol), do you have any fic and meta recommendations ?

hello! absolutely i do!

here's my list of severitus/mentor snape fics:

leo inter serpentes by aeternum (completed seven part series, 900k words. 1 - 3rd year teen and up. 4 + 5th mature & underage sex. 6 + 7 explicit, graphic depictions of violence & major character death) severitus, snape adopts harry & drarry slash

child of the amaranth wards by suugabee (ongoing series, 1st part complete and is the main story. 40+k words. remus/severus slash. no archives warnings but it's pretty angsty)

the echo of silence by snapeismyspiritquill (40k words. ooc snape so maybe not what you're looking for lol, mute harry. snape adopts harry, no slash)

we'll keep the king by bluesundaycake (jewish sev, remus/severus raises harry. 26k words. one of my FAVOURITES)

the secret language of plants by endrina (373k word series. completed. remus/severus raise harry, eventual drarry. i didnt finish this one but the first part of the series made me so happy. and then the cliffhanger ruined me)

found family by doctor_who_cares (post 5th year fic. 148k words. snape adopts harry & drarry slash. weasley bashing, explicit.)

the feral child by chemfreak (snape adopts harry, pre-hogwarts, 20+k words. very fluffy very cute absolute favourite. ooc snape? yeah kinda i suppose)

namesake necklace by wiceba (121k words. snape sort of adopts harry. no slash. deaged harry. post fifth year if i remember correctly. loved this fic so much)

reading the signs by goldencompass (fanfic.net fic. 50k words. 1st year fic. harry loses his voice. mentor snape.)

glimpses by lilyisawesomerthanyou (fanfic.net. 40k words. sequel called about a boy snape adopts harry. pre first year. sequel is first year. very cute fic)

any of etherian's works omg they're the best. my favourites are finding harry and nobody cared.

okay im getting tired of linking fics but i have MORE than this list. a lot more. so if you want i can make a proper list and tag you. that literally applies to anyone who sees this post tbh. just ask!

[nikkasqueaka]

Y'ALL new Hyphen song dropped!