Perfect Chaos

Pacific Time I DO NOT hail from Cali, but my drugs definitely do 22 y/o Capriquarius Cusper with Pisces tendencies Happily taken: mind, body, heart, and soul. So zero interest in sexual shit. You're not my man, fuck outta here. Borderline Disclaimer: I frequently borrow material to express myself, but I don't ever pretend I created something that I didn't. Please don't attack me. I do not promote illegal activities, but if they're gonna happen anyway....then I DO promote safety, knowledge, security, no judgements, harm reduction practice, and a listening ear. We come together to find comfort and common ground, and I do what I can to be a friend for anyone in need. I do not tolerate harassment. Don't ever be the source of invalidating anyone. TTF - no matter how infrequently I log in, know I still hold fam dear to me, miss you when I'm out, and will return home again. My blog is adult content, but only regarding mental illness, explicit drug and alcohol content, and adult language. And nothing more.

[nikki-spunshine]

[yvngbebe]

stuck between wanting to feel something and wanting to feel nothing at all

[nikki-spunshine]

Why do porn/nudes/dick pics/sexual blogs follow ME?!?! JFC

Reminder: Meth and sex do NOT *ALWAYS* go hand in hand! 😒😬😠

I’m one of the five meth blogs to not be about that. Go find the other 98.99999% that are.

[nikki-spunshine]

Reblogging felt necessary. I was about to apologize for how long I've been away.....But now I kinda remember EXACTLY WHY!

Not only not interested and never was..... but now I'm very much taken.

So triple fuck off!

[marisatomay]

My therapist just told me that I “use humor to cover up past trauma so I don’t have to deal with it” and that “it will take years of extensive therapy to genuinely recover from it all” and I literally burst out laughing and finger gunned @ him

[methodicalmethematics]

[marisatomay]

My therapist just told me that I “use humor to cover up past trauma so I don’t have to deal with it” and that “it will take years of extensive therapy to genuinely recover from it all” and I literally burst out laughing and finger gunned @ him

[methodicalmethematics]

[nikki-spunshine]

Person: If you don't stop, you're going to kill yourself.

Me: Yeah, that's kinda the point.

[inkskinned]

Can I tell you a secret? You don’t have to be in a relationship.    I mean it. I know they force it down your throat until you choke on it. Girls aren’t pretty unless they’re wanted. Boys aren’t men unless they’re having sex with someone. People aren’t lovable until they’re dating someone.    But a relationship won’t always make you happy, and as wonderful as romance is, it isn’t the only love that exists. I have seen friendships that are deeper and more pure than couples who swear it’s forever - and yet the friendship is the one people ignore.    I have heard so often “nobody loves me” out of the mouths of people who are single. And it kills me because if you ask them: where are your parents, your teachers, your classmates, your pets - they say, yes, okay, but it doesn’t count. Of course it counts, love doesn’t diminish just because someone doesn’t want to have sex with you. In fact, doesn’t it sort of make that love more real that they want nothing - not even a date - out of you?   It is pretty to be in love. It’s magical, I’m sure. But it’s also wonderful to stop for ice cream in your prom dress with six other girls. It’s also wonderful to go visit the world with nothing but a bunch of buddies who are really excited about learning.    The problem is: we’ve made everything about “the one”. But maybe “the one” is just you, loving yourself, having fun, and being happy. Maybe instead of looking for our other halves, we should be piecing ourselves together.   Maybe I wasn’t born unfinished. Maybe I am the one who makes myself better.

Single serving size // r.i.d (via inkskinned)

Just something to think about.

(via jet8050)

Took me 22 years to learn this.

And the minute you quit looking to someone else to complete you. The minute you fall in love with yourself. The minute you're happy as fuck doing you. The minute you, not only quit looking for "the one", but don't even WANT ANY one......is the moment that fucker comes along and knocks you on your ass. Lol!

Least, that's how it happened for me. 😁❤

Growing up in an abusive household is a fucking trip dude……If you’ve never had someone angrily wash a dish at you or fold a sock in your direction then how are you gonna understand why I get nervous when you quietly do the laundry, or why I ask “are you mad at me?” when you set the bag of groceries down too hard? It’s a totally different way of living and it impacts you long after you’ve left the situation.

[sothisistherapy]

This is so important.

[notsafevorework]

Abused kids speak a language you can’t learn

[opiote-deactivated20231007]

*feels uncomfortable emotion*

WELL TIME FOR A SHOT

[nikki-spunshine]

Not proud of it, but yep

[stixfordays-deactivated20170111]

Why can’t drug dealers have a Black Friday sale, smh.

[blowtorchart-deactivated2017040]

I support this! Door busters on vein busters, all tweakend!

[inkaholic2316-deactivated201702]

**JUST A REMINDER, TAKE CARE OF YOUR SELF, ESPECIALLY WHEN USING. SHOWER, BRUSH YOUR TEETH, EAT SOMETHING, ANYTHING. VITAMINS ARE GREAT, I SUGGEST MULTIVITAMINS LIKE “ONE A DAY”, STAY HYDRATED. TRY TO GET SLEEP IF POSSIBLE, IF ANYTHING JUST LAY DOWN AND CHILL THE FUCK OUT**

take a break for a day or three to restore dopamine. its totally worth it

I know it’s hard as fuck to remember shit and easy to get side tracked and I see posts like this often, but this shit is key to avoid unneeded attention and to continue living the high life. not to mention helps tremendously with the come down. do whatever it takes to remind yourself.

if I help at least one person remember I’ll be satisfied thank you for reading

-your fellow meth user

[inkaholic2316-deactivated201702]

reblog fuck it lol

#tweaker nation

[thatonegirlwholovesboth-deactiv]

! (:

[ireallyfuckedupthistime]

!! Great post. Too often the importance of self care goes unrecognized !!

Crystal one hell of a fun drug but a horribly destructive one…Self care is KEY!! Brush your teeth TWICE AS MUCH than you would while not using, seriously. It can save you a lot of trouble in the long run. Make sure to take time each day to eat ATLEAST something small and healthy. Even if you don’t want to. Suck it up and do it. Protein filled things are good. Light and basic foods like yogurt, fruits, and ice cream are good choices. HYRDATION HYRDRATION HYDRATION IS KEY KEY KEY you can get so fucking dope sick from dehydration, and the best thing to do is stick to some good cold water, but anything is better than nothing. And yes. sleeping or even just kicking back and resting your eyes is good!! listen to your body. its ok to take a break and chill its ok to put the pipe down and rest. i promise. going too hard too long just makes the comedown that much worse. Last but not least, HAVE FUCKING FUN, BE SMART AND GET SPUN. ~

[blowtorchart-deactivated2017040]

Sound advice.

[scarlett-ryder-deactivated20200]

I really need someone to talk to. Someone that will listen, try to understand and actually give a shit.. I’m breaking down again. Like I have many times before and I’m scared to return to a place I’m so familiar with that I know is easy for me to find.

(via addiction-n-depression)

[nikki-spunshine]

As I've said repeatedly: I am NOT from Cali I am NOT single I have NO interest; I love my S/O so much, it's surreal! I am merely a lone wanderer in search of like-minded friends. FRIENDS!

[dankalung-deactivated20170224]

[battlingadrugaddiction-deactiva]

[nikki-spunshine]

I apologize for being so ghost lately guys! Between my birthday and getting sick...... Hopefully I'll up soon and rejoin the fun! Love ya fam!

[nikki-spunshine]

Wow none of you hundreds know what tomorrow is? Wow. Fucking whatever. Might delete this then. Jfc