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Still forgetting call my doctor for my migrains, why do i keep forgetting to call?

My( half)sisters birthday is coming up so my younger (half sister) asked me of a picture of me and her with a message. Since i'm not that close with my half siblings and then think of a cute sweet message look weird to me. After i asked IA to think of a message i suddenly came with one it is short and not sugar coated. I wrote: 40 years already, but always my little sister? All by myself i didn't like what IA suggested to me. My younger sister on did not responded yet.

Nilama-.

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[nilamasafeplace]

I keep forgetting to call the doctor for my migrains what pops up almost everyday.

Nilama.-

[nilamasafeplace]

In-laws a house full of people around who never makes you feel like home.

So true this even when a (young) woman getting married in family, the family turns to be a toxic in-laws unfortunatly.

Nilama.-

[talking-to-the-sun]

i don’t know why i keep believing that you will change. you’ve proved to me that you won’t.

[nilamasafeplace]

[nilamasafeplace]

This is so true!

[nilamasafeplace]

You may feel unseen, unappreciated, or forgotten by people... but never forget this: you are always known to Allah.

He sees the goodness in your heart, the patience you show, the silent struggles you carry, and every tear you wipe away.

Nothing about you is ever unnoticed to Him.

So even if the world forgets your worth, remember that you are always precious to

Allah.

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[n1sma]

O Allāh, let us feel the sweetness of closeness to You, so that we may no longer feel loneliness.

[nilamasafeplace]

♡

[nilamasafeplace]

I feel like i'm unwanted in this dunya.

Nilama.-

[talking-to-the-sun]

i don’t think i’ll ever be able to forget the words you said.

you forgot them as soon as they left your mouth.

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It is snowing here today, the snow looks beautiful.

Nilama.-

[nilamasafeplace]

Goodbye to my childhood and teenager memories i had with MTV. I remember warching this channel from my childhood til my teenage years after coming home from school.

[rosemvry]

via pinterest

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I cannot believe that my husband humiliate me in front of my sister-in law aunt and my niece, he was talking about me like i'm retarded that i'm mentally not stable, it hurts that the person i love and trust treat me the same like my dad use to do. My husband was angry at me because according to him i don't buy or ask him what i want, that i just keep quiet. When i don't like anything or don't need it i don't buy unnecessary unless i like something right? But how my husband described me was like i'm crazy, on top of that my niece confirmed it that i'm like that! She my niece thinks now she is getting married she can say everything that little snob. Also my sister-in law saying that i'm my husband baby because he is most of the time handle everything and that family think i can't do anything by my self. I appriciate it, but i tell my husband that i can handle things on my own. But now they all think i can't my aunt who was there asked me why i don't do things on my own and i snapped at her telling her i can do things perfectly on my own! I was so angry and disappointed that my own family think like that about me. Now i dislike them, all of them my sister-in-law never liked me from the start even she is family. Since i came back i'm trying to avoid them, i didn't text my aunt like i usually texted her sometimes. It is for the best like that.

Nilama-.