Hi hi hello , i'm anvil and i have a critical condition that causes me to never shut up so i pour it into fan fiction. 18 he/him. eng, ind, and deustch. ENTJ sp/so 385 so3w4 -sp8w7 - so5w6 VELF chol-sang sloEI. i am also active on twitter on which i do not proofread my tweets ever
this blog is multifandom; my main /main/ interest right now is myct — dsmp (tntduo), unstable (odyssey duo), state smp, the likes. all seperate from cc.
But I also like/write about genshin, honkai, project sekai, hamilton, James Bond, stardew valley, and perhaps some classical lit here and there. George Orwell's and Han Kang's #1 fan
Asks are always open, whatever it is I probably have 3 paragraphs ready for you
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thank you and remember: any reading is good reading!
But a person can spend years gathering information about another. They can memorize routines. Learn habits. Catalog preferences. Predict reactions with statistical accuracy. They can watch from windows. From doorways. From observation rooms and laboratories and security cameras. They can trace the trajectory of an entire life the way astronomers map the movement of distant stars.
And they can still fail to understand what they are looking at.
Because comprehension does not occur in the eyes, it occurs somewhere afterward.
It must be relaxing, Parrot thinks, to possess a mind so thoroughly insulated from embarrassment.
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Link :)
Longest chapter at 13k words… Wrapping up a lot of stuff here. Theres still one one more epilogue but I hope this was worth the wait!
Anyone who catches the big reference I will give a big gold star.
Additional Tags: Beta Unstable Universe, Researcher ParrotX2, Avian ParrotX2 (Video Blogging RPF), Evilfies LEvil Wifies (Video Blogging RPE), Clone Wifies (Video Blogging RPE), Dubious Ethics, Dubious Morality, Minecraft Mechanics, Mentioned Spokeishere (Video Blogging RPE), Canon Compliant, tons of references to uu, Potential duo, but ... squared, basically all my thoughts on them poured into one, Research, though the subject is depending on who you ask, parrot's wings are clipped, beta uuparrot and uuparrot are different people
hey, its been a while sinve you last posted, everything alright?
Haha I did not expect to get asked for my wellbeing, and sorry for the super late reply!
Yes, I am okay. I’m doing very well actually. I’ve just been very busy with life. I was on a trip for 2 weeks and have been having several assignments and exams back to back for about 2 months so.
I am working on stuff little by little in between work, but I hope you understand my predicament lol. I’m sorry for keeping everyone waiting 💪
Additional Tags: Beta Unstable Universe, Researcher ParrotX2, Avian ParrotX2 (Video Blogging RPF), Evilfies | Evil Wifies (Video Blogging RPF), Clone Wifies (Video Blogging RPF), Dubious Ethics, Dubious Morality, Minecraft Mechanics, Mentioned Spokeishere (Video Blogging RPF), Canon Compliant, tons of references to uu, Potential duo, but ... squared, basically all my thoughts on them poured into one, Research, though the subject is depending on who you ask, parrot's wings are clipped, beta uuparrot and uuparrot are different people
Mind vomit of my thoughts! All personal opinion and interpretation, this includes headcanons. I do not claim this interpretation is 'correct'.
Parrot from the start has been living off fumes and it goes without saying he has an array of issues. His saviour complex in the first place stems from selfishness/a need to distract himself from his suicidal ideation (or rather it's what he wraps his suicidal ideation in). Meeting Wifies, who he's finally able to at least confide in on these matters — a person he can open up to about these issues.
The thing is, odyssey duo from the start isn't and has never been built on mutual respect (even if it looks like it on the surface), because Wifies has always put Parrot on a pedestal. Seeing him as something almost divine when he is unfortunately, human. He's an enabler in a way, seeing Parrot as his 'saviour' and validating Parrot's skewed ideals. He doesn't see Parrot's flaws or his selfishness or the root cause of the problem. Rooted cause he's also passively suicidal and a clone and whatnot with nothing to live for prior to being with Parrot. The director arc — or their ‘divergence’ stems from Wifies putting Parrot on a pedestal and something precious to 'protect'. They were good friends who cared and confided in each other (moreso Parrot than Wifies) yes, but in retrospect it was not healthy, but they were happy.
(Tangent that I am also of the opinion that Parrot never truly knew Wifies simply because he didn’t consider having to do so. Wifies to some degree in Parrot’s mind is more of a ‘pet’ than a friend, putting it harshly. He was always there for him).
Then post director arc until mafia tomb of course a total whiplash to Parrot. His bestest friend turning out to be a monster, as well as this guy who he could always lean on and validated his skewed sense of self is gone. Now not only is he unhealthy but also unhappy.. Hence he goes into again living on fumes and blatant avoidance and dealing with everything himself. The suicidal ideation going much worse and he presses gas into his saviour complex via the treasure arc. The treasure arc as a whole was a distraction to him from his feelings. During this time he essentially forgot what companionship is/probably has forgotten for a long time because of the codependency from Wifies.
Until the mafia tomb episode where Marlow’s story reminded him of just what friendship truly means — an epiphany. Parrot so far has always justified only his own actions because it’s for a greater good and its baffling to him how others can do so too. Him finally realising how bad he's been to Theo and reminded of what friendship actually is. The end of the episode genuinely moved me. Parrot admitting that he doesn’t know what he wants to do now and comforting his emptiness, no longer running away from the feeling.
Initial anomaly: Attachment.
Secondary anomaly: Possessive restructuring of environment.
Final anomaly: Self-authored mythos.
Subject maintained throughout that he was not identical to ‘him’.
ERROR: Data does not support this claim.
// Or, Unstable Universe, as told from Wifies's perspective.
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Yoyo surprise! longfic from me. prologue of a retelling of uu through wifies's eyes is up. Tune in if you are mayhaps interested. Tags below the cut. Link!
Rating: Not Rated
Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
[CHAPTER 6] The sun, the sea, and all the ways you undo me
“I said what I said,” Quackity replied with a shrug, breezy, like he hadn’t just lobbed an emotional grenade into the middle of the table. Like he hadn’t spent the last year and a half doing the exact opposite of this. “I get why people fawn over him. It’s whatever. He’s got that whole tortured-poet thing going on. I’m not afraid to admit it.”
Charlie nearly toppled sideways in his chair. “You just called Wilbur Soot cool.”
“Okay, yeah, he’s annoying as hell,” Quackity said quickly, pointing at him, “and he talks like he’s being recorded for an indie film. But I’m not gonna lie— he’s good at what he does. That’s respectable.”
Purpled blinked. Once. Twice. “Dude. Since when?”
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Quackity POV after a month hiatus who cheered. me and the other 7 tntduo fans!
tags below the cut :)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Alexis | Quackity/Wilbur Soot minor dreamnotfound, skephalo, and established beeduo
Characters: Wilbur Soot, Alexis | Quackity, Dream SMP Ensemble, Sleepy Bois Inc. (Video Blogging RPF), Lovejoy (Lovejoy)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - High School, Rivals to Lovers, Enemies to Lovers, Pining, Banter, Arguing, Valentine's Day, Phil Watson | Philza is Wilbur Soot and Technoblade and TommyInnit's Parent, Wilbur Soot is Bad at Feelings, Wilbur Soot is So Whipped, Oblivious Alexis | Quackity, Alexis | Quackity is So Done, actually, everyone is so done, Schlatt is A Menace, almost the entirety of the dsmp cast is here, spot your fav, Student Council, Debate Club, all that good high school jazz, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Idiots in Love, Childhood Friends, Mutual Pining, Happy Ending, Long Chapters, Slow Burn
Additional Tags: Beta Unstable Universe, Researcher ParrotX2, Avian ParrotX2 (Video Blogging RPF), Evilfies | Evil Wifies (Video Blogging RPF), Clone Wifies (Video Blogging RPF), Dubious Ethics, Dubious Morality, Minecraft Mechanics, Mentioned Spokeishere (Video Blogging RPF), Canon Compliant, tons of references to uu, Potential duo, but ... squared, basically all my thoughts on them poured into one, Research, though the subject is depending on who you ask, parrot's wings are clipped
ive been neglecting my tntduo audience so bad.. i promise you i am still working on the sun the sea but this chapter has been an absolute pain in the ass to put together (this is only about 2/3 or half of ch 6) so! also my schoolwork has been insane lately so here we are
It may well be that we'll never meet again in this lifetime, so let me say before we part—so much of me was made from what I learned from you, and you'll be with me like a handprint on my heart.
The beta unstable videos with parrot as a scientist… an au where evilfies and parrot work in the same lab
Parrot being the only one who can keep up with evilfies, evilfies’s fascination and parrot’s absolute idgaf he just wants to research, their exploits together…
Additional Tags: Beta Unstable Universe, Researcher ParrotX2, Avian ParrotX2 (Video Blogging RPF), Evilfies | Evil Wifies (Video Blogging RPF), Clone Wifies (Video Blogging RPF), Dubious Ethics, Dubious Morality, Minecraft Mechanics, Mentioned Spokeishere (Video Blogging RPF), Canon Compliant, tons of references to uu, Potential duo, but ... squared, basically all my thoughts on them poured into one, Research, though the subject is depending on who you ask, parrot's wings are clipped
[CHAPTER 5] The sun, the sea, and all the ways you undo me
The paper bag in his hand was crumpled slightly where his fingers had been gripping it too tightly, knuckles pale with tension. Inside, nestled far too innocently, was the bouquet.
Sunflowers.
God, he was a dolt.
This was stupid. The joke was stupid. The flowers were stupid. The fact that he’d convinced himself he could do this — stupider still.
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Valentine's chapter is finally up! Read it here!
What's been foreshadowed for 40k words is here,,, tags under the cut as always.
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Category: M/M
Fandom: Dream SMP
Relationships: Alexis | Quackity/Wilbur Soot, Minor or Background Relationship(s), Ranboo/Toby Smith | Tubbo, Clay | Dream/GeorgeNotFound (Video Blogging RPF), Zak Ahmed | Skeppy/Darryl Noveschosch | BadBoyHalo
Characters: Wilbur Soot, Alexis | Quackity, Dream SMP Ensemble, Sleepy Bois Inc. (Video Blogging RPF), Lovejoy (Lovejoy)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - High School, Rivals to Lovers, Enemies to Lovers, Pining, Banter, Arguing, Valentine's Day, Phil Watson | Philza is Wilbur Soot and Technoblade and TommyInnit's Parent, Wilbur Soot is Bad at Feelings, Wilbur Soot is So Whipped, Oblivious Alexis | Quackity, Alexis | Quackity is So Done, actually, everyone is so done, Schlatt is A Menace, almost the entirety of the dsmp cast is here, spot your fav, Student Council, Debate Club, all that good high school jazz, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Idiots in Love, Wilbur Soot-centric, Childhood Friends, Mutual Pining, Happy Ending
The beta unstable videos with parrot as a scientist… an au where evilfies and parrot work in the same lab
Parrot being the only one who can keep up with evilfies, evilfies’s fascination and parrot’s absolute idgaf he just wants to research, their exploits together…
I want you to know that i’m awake / i hope that you’re asleep
Jacob’s ladder, except Flux wasn’t the dreamer.
He must be a sick man for wanting to be with someone like me.
// Or, winter comes every year, and with that, Flux is reminded of what he can never have.
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Read it on ao3 here!
Hihi :) first published fic for polarityduo! this can be read romantically or platonically to be honest. I really enjoy writing character studies and mentally ill characters so here. Tags beneath the cut
Rating: Not Rated
Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Additional Tags: Introspection, Character Study, Angst, Fluixon-centric (Video Blogging RPF), Fluixon Needs a Hug (Video Blogging RPF), Seasonal Affective Disorder, References to Depression, flux is just not okay, Self-Hatred, Possibly Unrequited Love, this could be read platonically or romantically, State SMP Season 2.5, State SMP Season 2.0, As A Backstory, Mild Gore, aculon family is mentioned, Canon Compliant
[CHAPTER 4] The sun, the sea, and all the ways you undo me
Wilbur shuffled forward, elbows tucked close to his ribs, eyes darting between Bad and the scattered muffins on the counter. “So— hypothetically, right? My friend— they’re rivals with someone,” he began, voice tight. “And this has been going on, well… forever. And, so hypothetically, they want to give flowers on Valentine’s Day. Purely as a joke. To throw the other off. You know? Make them— er, confused. Off-balance.”
Bad tilted his head, brow furrowing slightly. “Uh… a joke?”
“Yes!” Wilbur said immediately, waving a hand. “A joke. Not romantic. Not like— I mean, it’s a prank, technically. So… what flowers would be appropriate? Besides roses, obviously— roses are too basic. But also, nothing that screams, ‘This is genuine and I care about you.’” He paused. “Do you… get me?”
Bad could only blink at him.
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read it here!
yoyoyo another one. Hope your january is going well dont succumb to the seasonal depression, have some tntduo! Tags + info under the cut
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Category: M/M
Fandom: Dream SMP
Relationships: Alexis | Quackity/Wilbur Soot, Minor or Background Relationship(s), Ranboo/Toby Smith | Tubbo, Clay | Dream/GeorgeNotFound (Video Blogging RPF), Zak Ahmed | Skeppy/Darryl Noveschosch | BadBoyHalo
Characters: Wilbur Soot, Alexis | Quackity, Dream SMP Ensemble, Sleepy Bois Inc. (Video Blogging RPF), Lovejoy (Lovejoy)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - High School, Rivals to Lovers, Enemies to Lovers, Pining, Banter, Arguing, Valentine's Day, Phil Watson | Philza is Wilbur Soot and Technoblade and TommyInnit's Parent, Wilbur Soot is Bad at Feelings, Wilbur Soot is So Whipped, Oblivious Alexis | Quackity, Alexis | Quackity is So Done, actually, everyone is so done, Schlatt is A Menace, almost the entirety of the dsmp cast is here, spot your fav, Student Council, Debate Club, all that good high school jazz, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Idiots in Love, Wilbur Soot-centric, Childhood Friends, Mutual Pining, Happy Ending
