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Introductions

Rating: G Fandom: Critical Role Archive Warning: None Characters: Vax'ildan, Mollymauk Tealeaf, Shaun Gilmore Relationships: Vax/Keyleth (implied), Vax/Gilmore (implied) Additional Tags: Modern AU, Alternate Universe - Modern with Magic Summary:  Vax is pretty sure he's staring. No, he knows he's staring, because the tiefling is smirking at him.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 5/5 - Complete Fandom: Persona 4 Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Hanamura Yosuke/Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke/Persona 4 Protagonist Characters: Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke, Kujikawa Rise, Tatsumi Kanji, Kuma | Teddie (Persona 4) Additional Tags: First Kiss, Long-Distance Relationship, you can’t catch me gay thoughts, investigation team more like wingman team Summary:

Facing yourself is an ongoing process.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 4/5 Fandom: Persona 4 Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Hanamura Yosuke/Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke/Persona 4 Protagonist Characters: Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke, Kujikawa Rise, Tatsumi Kanji, Kuma | Teddie (Persona 4) Additional Tags: First Kiss, Long-Distance Relationship, you can't catch me gay thoughts, investigation team more like wingman team Summary:

Facing yourself is an ongoing process.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 3/5 Fandom: Persona 4 Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Hanamura Yosuke/Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke/Persona 4 Protagonist Characters: Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke, Kujikawa Rise, Tatsumi Kanji, Kuma | Teddie (Persona 4) Additional Tags: First Kiss, Long-Distance Relationship, you can't catch me gay thoughts, investigation team more like wingman team Summary:

Facing yourself is an ongoing process.

Now featuring drama that likely would not happen in any language other than English. (I am actually interested in other languages with singular/plural second-person pronoun issues, if any.)

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She had a garden behind her trailer, a luxury of being at the back of the lot, where it backed up against the forest. The children stayed out of it, partly because she asked, and mostly because no one knew where the last kid who’d messed with it had ended up, even thirty years later. No one knew what grew in it; if they ever asked Audra would only respond “oh, a bit of this and a bit of that”. None of the rows were labeled, and all the plants looked the same. Rows upon rows of tall, sturdy stems that sprouted perfectly round leaves, all identical, but she always knew exactly where to reach for what she needed.

A short story about giving kindness freely, and the unending nature of duty. There’s always one more.

PWYW for the full story now on Patreon, one week before it goes public on Wattpad.

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while we’re still able (Critical Role)

An idea got me in the shower, is basically what this is. I guess you could say lines in the sand is what I think will happen, and this is what I hope happens. (I feel like I read somewhere - maybe Liam’s last airport q&a on twitter? - that Caleb started out on the “Evil” alignment axis so this is also kind of a nod to that, I guess.)

Still big big spoilers for Campaign 2 Episode 26.

that’s [Mollymauk] in there dead on the table so come on, partner let’s end this thing while we’re still able

Caleb is sitting on a log, idly running a hand along Frumpkin's back. He would very much prefer to have his cat, all things considered, but the feathers are strangely soft and stiff at the same time, and it's a nice - if oddly alien - sensation.

Nott crouches next to him, putting her at about shin-height to him.

"You want to go," she says quietly. "Don't you."

She doesn't want to. He can tell it by her voice, by the way she's not looking entirely at him, but also back at Beau, sitting at Molly's graveside with her knees pulled up tight against her.

"No," Caleb says quietly, and while it surprises him as much as it seems to surprise Nott, the reasoning behind it snaps together in his mind like he'd released a spell, a flash of lightning somewhere in the center of his mind. Nott is looking up at him with wide eyes, saying nothing, and he repeats himself more quietly. "No. I do not want to go. I...I miss him, you know?" His voice is getting thick, and he swallows a couple of times before he goes on. "I miss him. You might not think that about me, because of me being the way that I am, but I do. He is..." There is a long pause while he swallows again, forces his hands to still against Frumpkin lest he clench his fist and remove several feathers. "He is one more person that I have killed." It's basically a whisper, and Nott closes her eyes. "By not being smart enough or fast enough or good enough."

"Caleb..."

"But this one," he goes on, body relaxing slightly from how he'd drawn himself up. "This one I can do something with, I think. We are alive," and he reaches down to touch Nott's shoulder as he says it. "We are alive because of Mollymauk. He gave us a very wondrous gift with that. And I intend to use it."

"What are you going to do?" Nott asks quietly.

"We," Caleb corrects. "We are going to go find our friends. We will free them, Fjord and Yasha and Jester, and we will kill every last fucking slaver bastard that even looked at them. And then...then we will find Lorenzo." His eyes go a little vague and a little distant, and Nott feels a creeping sense of worry, somewhere in the back of her mind. "His death will not be so quick, I think."

They're both startled by a sudden movement; Beau has stood from Molly's grave, and is shrugging her pack onto her shoulders.

"Sounds like a fucking plan," she says. Her voice is hard, mostly likely in an attempt to disguise what her red eyes and nose give away. She secures the pack over her shoulders, and turns to face Caleb. "Lead the way."

He takes another moment at Molly's graveside, the dirt of which is still under his fingernails. With a quiet promise whispered into the trees, he turns away and heads out of the small glade, Nott and Beau moving silently behind him.

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lines in the sand (Critical Role)

I don’t have an excuse for this. This might become an It Wasn’t My Idea chapter later, but I’m just tossing it here for now. 

1. it’s two am and 2. I have never written any of the campaign 2 characters in my life, but 3. @malaloba put this in my head and it wouldn’t let me go to bed until I finished it  4. because the best way to find character voices is when they’re all yelling at each other. 

big big big spoilers as of episode 26. 

there’s no lines in this sand no going separate ways and we can’t count the cost of what we’ve lost  ‘cause some scars never fade

The deed has been done. It's a simple grave; they hadn't had the time or resources for anything else. Caleb stands there for a moment, the ghost of a memory burning behind his eyes, and he turns away to gather his things in silence. When he turns back, Nott is still standing over the mound of earth with her back to him.

"Come on, Nott," he says quietly, and she turns around. Her eyes are shining with unshed tears, one sliding out as her face twists with confusion.

"What are you doing?"

"We," he corrects, in that same quiet voice. "We are leaving."

Beau whips around then, and she has not shown the same emotional restraint that Nott has; a steady stream of tears pouring down her face even as it contorts with rage.

"What the fuck?!" She advances on him, one finger aimed at his chest like a javelin. "What the fuck," she repeats. "We just buried M-molly - " her voice cracks on the name and she has to swallow hard before she can continue. "And you're just - you're just leaving?"

"Ja." Caleb's voice has not changed in pitch or tone, and he is not looking at Beau, but at his feet, one hand lifted up to rest in Frumpkin's feathers. He would very much prefer his cat at the moment. There are lots of things he would prefer right now. "We are."

"He died to save you - "

"And we are taking advantage of that, and leaving while we are still alive." He looks up for the first time, meeting Beau's eyes with a cold, steady glare. "I do not expect you to understand."

"Fuck you, Caleb. If you're gonna go, fine. Go. Worthless ungrateful heartless piece of shit." Beau jabs the finger in his face, turns on her heel, and paces back to the grave, the little pile of stones that will have to suffice as a marker. Caleb breathes out in a long sigh, and makes a little gesture at Nott.

"Come on."

Nott looks at him, then back at Beau, the way her fists are clenched and her shoulders are shaking. She watches for a long moment, then turns back to Caleb.

"No," she says simply. Behind her, Beau's head comes up almost imperceptibly.

"What?" Caleb asks, blinking at her.

"I said no." Nott glances back at Beau again. When she continues, it's all in a rush, like if she doesn't get it out in one breath she won't get it out at all. "They need us. Fjord and Yasha and Jester - they need our help, Beau can't get them out alone, and I'm not going to let her try. I'm staying."

Caleb stares for a long moment, trying to piece together what she's saying. "Nott, you almost died - "

"Trying to save them," Nott interrupts. "Just like they would have done for us. Don't you see, Caleb, it's better this way, in a group, with our friends who want to help us - "

"The risk is too great." Caleb shakes his head. "It is too great, and the reward is too little."

"A greater risk than being out there on your own?" Your, she says, not our, and it rocks Caleb a little.

"Are you trying to tell me there is safety in numbers?" There's a little sardonic laugh at the end of it, as he jabs a finger at the grave, the dirt of which is still under his fingernails. "Mollymauk is dead."

Beau flinches, visibly. Nott is yelling now, previously unshed tears running down her cheeks.

"Beau said it! He died for us! Not just me and you, for the others, too! They've all risked themselves for us, and us for them. That's what having friends means, Caleb."

"Friends? Like the one over there who just called me a piece of shit?"

Beau starts to turn. He sees one narrowed blue eye before Nott speaks up again and she stops.

"Is her namecalling more important than the fact she's saved both our lives?" She's almost pleading now, and the smallest corner of Caleb's heart is starting to twist. "Molly did too, and he gave his life for it. Can we really let what he started go unfinished?"

Caleb is silent for a long moment. His face is stony, impassive. Beau is still watching him over her shoulder, fists clenched. Nott is still staring up at him, waiting for him to answer. But he barely sees them. Hypotheticals are flashing behind his eyes. Nott, dead on the ground in front of Lorenzo. Himself, bleeding out next to her. Any number of things that even one changed variable could bring crashing down around them.

Then he takes those scenes and runs them again, this time without Beau in the background. Without Fjord or Jester or Yasha.

In doing so, he pictures their faces, and that small, twisting corner of his heart tears itself completely in two.

The risk is far too high, he tries to argue to himself.

You stopped caring about that a long time ago, comes the reply. For better or for worse.

"Fine." The word is out of his mouth before he even really knows it's moving. Nott freezes, staring up at him with those big eyes. "For now. Until we retrieve the others." He turns away, sitting on a log and pretending to pull a bit of debris from Frumpkin's wing.

The others don't move for a long moment. When they do, it's on quiet feet, as if excess noise will make him change his mind, make him storm off into the woods alone. They redistribute Molly's things between their own bags, and at one point Nott crouches next to Caleb, a small cloth bundle in her hand.

“Here," she murmurs. "Figure you might need this."

He can tell already what it is. The almost pungent smell that wafts up from Nott's hand is unmistakably incense. Molly's incense, the same stash he borrowed from what seemed like years ago. In truth, it has only been weeks. Weeks he has known these people, and what have they done to him?

He takes the bundle wordlessly, finding a secure place inside his bag to store it.

"...thank you," Nott says hesitantly.

"For what?"

She meets his eyes. It's not the first time it's been an uncomfortable gaze, and not the first time he's looked away. Her voice comes from beside him as she moves away.

"For not giving up."

She and Beau finish divvying up Molly's things, and settle the added weight across their shoulders as comfortably as they can.

"Alright," Beau says. Her voice is raspy, her nose stuffed, and she's not looking at either of them, but at Molly's grave. "Let's go kill some fucking slavers."

Caleb is the last out of the little glade. He stops, turning back to the mound of dirt, already practically blending in with the surroundings if not for the little cairn on top.

"Thank you," he whispers, his throat tightening for the first time. "My friend."

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 2/5 Fandom: Persona 4 Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Hanamura Yosuke/Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke/Persona 4 Protagonist Characters: Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke, Kujikawa Rise, Tatsumi Kanji, Kuma | Teddie (Persona 4) Additional Tags: First Kiss, Long-Distance Relationship, you can't catch me gay thoughts, investigation team more like wingman team Summary:

Facing yourself is an ongoing process.

Commissions | Patreon

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She had a garden behind her trailer, a luxury of being at the back of the lot, where it backed up against the forest. The children stayed out of it, partly because she asked, and mostly because no one knew where the last kid who'd messed with it had ended up, even thirty years later. No one knew what grew in it; if they ever asked Audra would only respond "oh, a bit of this and a bit of that". None of the rows were labeled, and all the plants looked the same. Rows upon rows of tall, sturdy stems that sprouted perfectly round leaves, all identical, but she always knew exactly where to reach for what she needed.

A short story about giving kindness freely, and the unending nature of duty. There’s always one more.

PWYW for the full story now on Patreon, one week before it goes public on Wattpad.

[nochiwrites]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 7/? Fandom: Mystic Messenger (Video Game), Critical Role (Web Series), Voltron: Legendary Defender Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Additional Tags: Additional Warnings In Author's Note, General spoilers Summary:

A collection of drabbles and one-offs mostly inspired by conversations with friends, hence the title. Fandoms will be many and sprawling, and noted in each chapter.

I know it says Mystic Messenger, but that’s just bc the first chapter/drabble is from that fandom. I also have commissions open, and a Patreon for my original fiction!

[nochiwrites]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/5 Fandom: Persona 4 Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Hanamura Yosuke/Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke/Persona 4 Protagonist Characters: Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke, Kujikawa Rise, Tatsumi Kanji, Kuma | Teddie (Persona 4) Additional Tags: First Kiss, Long-Distance Relationship, you can’t catch me gay thoughts, investigation team more like wingman team Summary:

Facing yourself is an ongoing process.

(I also have commissions open!)

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daytime reblog bc I don't know how to post things at any time other than 2 am

[nochiwrites]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/5 Fandom: Persona 4 Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Hanamura Yosuke/Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke/Persona 4 Protagonist Characters: Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke, Kujikawa Rise, Tatsumi Kanji, Kuma | Teddie (Persona 4) Additional Tags: First Kiss, Long-Distance Relationship, you can't catch me gay thoughts, investigation team more like wingman team Summary:

Facing yourself is an ongoing process.

(I also have commissions open!)

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Heyyy our car tire just exploded so COMMISSIONS! $2/100 words, or 2c/word. I write both fanfiction and original fiction, and I will write your OC! Examples of my writing are here, including previous commissions.

Fandoms I write in:

Voltron Legendary Defender (Sheith, Allurance, any poly combination)

Critical Role (mainly campaign 1, any ship)

Power Rangers 2017

Avatar: The Last Airbender/Legend of Korra

Yu Yu Hakusho

Psychonauts

I’ll also help you worldbuild, set up plot ideas, or work up an OC for $5 flat! I can do this in many more fandoms than the ones listed, so if you’re interested throw the fandom at me and I’ll let you know if it’s one I can play in!

I will not write:

rape

pedophilia

incest

beastiality

scat/watersports

extreme gore

I’ve also got ko-fi and paypal.me links, and I sell shirts on Redbubble and Teepublic. All those links are listed below. If you’d like a fic or original story written, or help smoothing out ideas, drop me a line and I’ll be happy to work with you! 

Ko-Fi Paypal.Me Redbubble Teepublic

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Keith/Shiro (Voltron) Characters: Shiro (Voltron), Keith (Voltron) Additional Tags: First Kiss Summary:

Forget the Galra, Keith’s either going to die from sexual frustration or embarrassment, whichever reaches critical mass first.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Keith/Shiro (Voltron) Characters: Shiro (Voltron), Keith (Voltron) Additional Tags: First Kiss Summary:

Forget the Galra, Keith's either going to die from sexual frustration or embarrassment, whichever reaches critical mass first.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 6/6 Fandom: Power Rangers (2017) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Characters: Jason Scott, Kimberly Hart, Trini (Power Rangers 2017), Zack (Power Rangers 2017), Billy Cranston, OFC, Rita Repulsa Additional Tags: Brainwashing, Hallucinations, battle at the center of the mind, Unreliable Narrator Summary:

At the end of the day, it's about who you are, not who made you.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 5/5 Fandom: Power Rangers (2017) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Trini (Power Rangers 2017), Zack (Power Rangers 2017), Jason Scott, Billy Cranston, Kimberly Hart, Alpha 5, Zordon, OMC/OFC - Character Additional Tags: Gender or Sex Swap, magically-induced transformation, rita smash the patriarchy, Post-Movie Summary:

In her final moments, Rita laid a curse on her power stone, letting it fall to earth to continue her work.