Confused and Conflicted

A Brand new remade Private, Selective and Mutual Only Rp blog with different versions of Noctis. Mostly Omen Noctis/ Brotherhood Noctis/Versus Noctis and Normal Noctis. . This blog will have dark themes and maybe triggering content. I am AU and Crossover Friendly. Oc selective. Mun is of age and goes by Kris.

[verumvoid]

Hello. Long time no see, I know.. it’s been a while.  I’ve been very unwell..the other day I thought I was having a heart attack/stroke.. However, I didn’t but I have lost the feeling in  my left hand. It’s a bit difficult to type but I’m going to try  and get back into Rping. It will be a slow process…However,  I think this will be a good thing as my mental state is much much better! I left due to that ..so I’m sorry, If I worried anyone in the process. Some times  I just need to take care of myself ya know? I’m going to be trying to get active on this blog and these: @cloudstriferp @verumdusk @verumlune @nightlightsora  and @blindebony

I have also remade my personal blog.. and it’s here: @midnightmiddy

I love you all so much and just wanted to make an update. 

[noctisisms-blog]

Rules have been Updated Please read:

Rules

[noctisisms-blog]

So as some of you might recall, last week something triggered me really badly. I let it really get to me. I’ve decided that I’m not going to let something like that keep me away from being here. I’ll do my best to be more active on this blog and my other ones. My eyes have been bothering me lately, but I’ll try to be here as much as I can. I hate having eye damage because It, keeps me from doing what I love.  

It would however be nice of you guys..to tag your slurs and any topic ooc or ic related to homophobia. It really set me off deeper into my depression and I’m struggling to get any muse back what so ever.. it’s hard for me to think properly when all I can do is sit here and cry thinking about all  the times, people have called me a f*g and other slurs like ‘it’  speaking of please also tag your transphobia.. Thank you for your time 

[bnbnb]

[astral-artz]

“This is supposed to be Serious!”

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Alt-Ending Where everyone lives, no one dies, and Prompto is Noct’s Royal Photographer who can’t resist messing with the King’s Vulnerable Sense of Humor during Official Photos.

[d-cookie-deactivated20210317]

when you finally realize the type of ships you like

[d-cookie-deactivated20210317]

…HOW DARE YOU CALL ME OUT ON MY SHIP TYPE

[noctisisms-blog]

@mcrtis  Liked for a Child Noctis starter~ 

Noctis shouldn’t be here. He knew this but his dad and the staff, came by here often. They always came back with all this cool stuff. There it was-- The  Odditorium. Excitement filled his eyes as he entered the store and he was amazed by the things, he was seeing. He couldn’t wait to find something his dad, would love to add to his collection. Noctis had grown up with seeing what some people might find odd, but to him it was normal. His dad loved odd things and so did Noctis but-- the amount of things here, was amazing. 

Everything caught his attention. He stopped however as he saw a man, standing behind the counter and he went up to the counter. The man seemed to be busy and Noctis wasn’t sure, if he should speak up or not but-- maybe this man could give him an idea of what to buy. “Excuse me, Sir. I wish to find something to buy for my dad and M’ not sure, what to look for. I hope M’ not bothering you. If I am, I’ll be quiet but I’d love to hear your thoughts, on what a collector might like..” 

[noctisisms-blog]

BABY NOCTIS IS SO CUTE ;;;;;

@nattjeger

Thank you ahhh <3 I think so too and that made him happy too :D 

[noctisisms-blog]

@radianceofdestiny Liked for a Child Noctis Starter~ 

One moment everything had been fine but the next, someone in a black hooded outfit grabbed him. He found himself being all but dragged into a scary dark place. His back was hurting and all he wanted to do, was lay down and rest as the masked figure continued to grip his wrist and pull. Was this a kidnapping? Iggy and his dad had warned him about people, who might try to harm him. This person seemed to fit exactly into the type of person who, might hurt him. Before he could blink, he found himself in a place he didn’t know-- 

This Clearly wasn’t his home anymore. He had to escape this person and Noctis waited for the man to pause, before he sank his teeth into his arm. The man yelled and let go of him, causing Noctis to dart away -- he needed an adult or at least someone who would help him. After a few minutes he found himself losing the man. That’s when he ran into someone so hard, he fell down and hit the ground. “Ouch..” He let out a wince as he looked up, to see someone with brown hair and he tried to push himself up. “M’ sorry...sorry, I was running from someone mean...” He moved to stand up as he blurted out. “It’s not safe here! Bad people in black hooded robes, took me!” 

[noctisisms-blog]

I’ve been extremely sick over the past week and today I got worse. I’ve been in no shape to be online and it’s understandable, that I would lose followers/mutuals while not being able to come online. What’s NOT understandable however, is how some people expect me to still make them their starter-- even though, they are no longer following me. Yeah--No. Not happening. I still owe a lot of replies/asks and starters and people who have unfollowed me, won’t be getting theirs since we are no longer mutuals. Sorry guys...but, this is a mutual only rp blog.  

[todoyamas]

you are the sun and i am just the planets spinning around you

i know this whole damn city thinks it needs you, but not as much as i do

[store]

[noctisisms-blog]

“whose blood is that?”

hurt meme.@qickshot

A breath escaped him as he heard the question. He looked down at his hands, seeing an alarming amount of blood on him. He blinked a few times.  “Some of it’s mine …most of it’s, from —” Noctis didn’t know how to say this, without freaking his friend out. “I–I was attacked…but, I’m fine I swear..”

[rp-starters-ask-box-fillers]

Send "Blank mind" for a situation where my muse doesn't remember anything.

They don’t remember your muse, nor who they are. They can’t recall what happened, what’s their favorite meal or special abilities that they have (if they have any).

How you’re muse will help them to remember? Or maybe they will use it as an opportunity to get benefit from my muse? Watch my muse discovering themselves and the world anew.

P. S. This is great for first interactions. (It’s a completely fresh start + you can develop a strong bond between muses).

[klimtsonian]

twitter / store

i love you man….. bro…… dude………… 

[noctisisms-blog]

“just breathe… you’re okay, i promise, just breathe.” - for his omen baby

hurt meme@thelastkingoflight

What happened? One moment he was fine and the next, he found himself in his father’s arms? He felt like he couldn’t breath as his eyes moved, wildly looking around – seeing, the bodies on the floor. Looking down at himself, he saw the blood all over him. He must have killed them, while under the effect of the possession. He gripped his dad’s shirt as he continued, to struggle to catch his breath. “M’ sorry..M’ so sorry, Dad.” He sobbed out as his body trembled– He didn’t recall doing any of this. 

Even so– his father continued to hold and support him. Why? No father should see their son–turn into a murderer. No father should have to clean up, after a possession– and yet, his dad did. An immense feeling of guilt and sadness, came over him as he continued sobbing. 

[noctisisms-blog]

“why aren’t you eating?” [ throws a yozora ]

hurt meme.@liikeglitterandgcld

Silence filled the air as Noctis, heard the question. He didn’t have to answer to anyone, let alone Yozora. He avoided eye contact now, placing his head against his hand. He simply wasn’t hungry and hadn’t been for a while now. He had wondered if the monster, inside of him – had anything to do, with his lack of hunger. Maybe he simply didn’t need, to eat anymore? After all— he wasn’t exactly human anymore. “Not hungry, don’t worry about it.” 

[quotemadness]

I miss you deeply, unfathomably, senselessly, terribly.

Franz Kafka (via quotemadness)