Hello and welcome to the dream space, my name is Charlie and I go by all pronouns, I've been writing since I was in middle school and now I'm just doing this for fun
This post will be updated frequently so don’t forget to check it out for new content that Tumblr wants to be a jerk about and not show you :)
My nsfw account, minors dni
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♔My Boundaries♔
♔My Rules For Fics♔
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These are tags that will be commonly used on this account, feel free to block any of these tags if you wish
♚Nocturnal Writes: my writing tag
♚Fakegingers: none writing posts
♚Cioally: Like Karlnapity but hotter
♚Nocturnal Simping: just simping
♚Nocturnal _____: the blank is just a name for whoever I'm talking with like "Nocturnal Apple anon"
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-People I Write For Romantically-
-DreamWasTaken
-GeorgeNotFound
-Sapnap
-BadBoyHalo
-BoomerNA
-Technoblade (only his character, not his irl self)
-Schlatt (only his character, not irl self)
-Ph1lza (I will only write nsfw of his character)
-TedNivision
-Slimecicle
-SwaggerSouls
-Corpse Husband (please be over 18+ for romantic fics or you will be blocked)
-People I Write For Platonically-
-AntFrost
-Skeppy
-Everyone mentioned in romantic
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Feral Boys
Sleepy Bois Inc
Chuckle Sandwich
Streamers
DrunkCast
Imagines
I highly doubt anyone will even see this, oh well, I just randomly logged into this account trying to log into my other one and was hit with a trip of the past.
Just wanted to say, things do get better in life. If you're in a dark place and think that there's no escape or anyway out, please know that there is. A couple of years ago I was in that dark place that you are, I was recently diagnosed with BPD (borderline personality disorder), lost every connection I had and was abusing alcohol.
But now I'm here; married to one of the best men in the world, a mother, completely sober and medicated. I've also made my dream come true of becoming a kindergarten teacher and have reconnected with my mother who I have the strongest relationship with now.
And you may ask do I regret this blog? No. I think those years of drama, thinking I was on the brink of the end of my life, and such have made me the person I am now and the suffering made me a better person.
Had it not been for me finally deciding to suck it up and stop sinking, I never would've met my husband nor would I have my son.
This will be the last post I ever make on this account. I'm keeping my masterlist up however so you can always enjoy my writing (despite how cringe I think it is) and again, if you think things will never get better, I promise they will <3
-Charlie :)
I already know I’ll be getting hate from this especially in my inbox but I feel like it's my time to show my side of the story. While the last time I talked to Io was in July 2021, what has happened still affects me to this day.
Most likely Io, was known as IoWriting but I can’t find their account so I assume they are gone, may try to e-kill me for this but I’m tired of being treated like a villain in this situation.
Also after this I'd like to never talk about this again. Subjects involving Io and the state I was in while around 2021.
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!Some of the stuff here can be triggering: suicide, drugs, alcohol abuse, gaslighting, manipulation, sexual assault (there might be more but this is all I can think of off the top of my head)!
!I would reccomend being over 18 to read this as well since these are experiences in a lot of 18+ blogs and some very mature subjects will be brought up!
These aren’t just my experience, I have collected experience with other people with these two
Also this is in no ill intent towards either people, I hope they both get the help they need but to just bring awareness to what me (and other people) have experience due to IoWriting
This isn’t gonna be everything since well one I don’t want to get police or lawyers involved, but also while this is trying to expose Io for the harm they have caused; I also have decent respect to not say stuff without their permission.
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I will also say Io uses Ae/Them pronouns :)
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I’m gonna do my best here to be the voice that they have taken from others. Io you have hurt, abused, manipulated, and gaslight people to keep yourself from seeming like a hero.
This is gonna be a long post and I’m sorry for that but there is just so much that has to be included.
Also I would like to ask that Dead-Bones is kept completely out of this conversation
!IoWriting!
We’ll start with probably the one that no one is surprised about, Io has a history of abuse to people that they are close to and manipulation. While many of my conversations with Io have been deleted, there is still much much proof against Io as being very different from the person they try to appear as
Interactions with Io's former partner @moth-writes shows directly how far the abuse and power went to Io's head
(also Moth if you want me to delete this section please tell me)
To summerize this the best I can: Io shows a lot of guiltripping and manipulating in this discord message to their former partner. Now I'm not here to speak for Moth because Moth is perfectly capable of doing that for themself but just reading this really shows the kind of person that Io is. The kind of person that Io tried to hide.
Io hid how dangerous and abuse that they could be behind a persona online and would proceed to make lies and send their army after anyone that did anything against them.
I believe personally that Moth did more for Io than was deserved. Moth had done their best to get Io help, even helping Io get out of an abuse enviroment and offering them a place to stay; but this was just another weapon against Moth to guilt trip and manipulate.
While knowing that Moth had their own problems to deal with, Io constantly put their problems onto Moth. Now I'm not gonna post everything on Moth's account here so if you want more backstory feel free to visit Moth's account (if you're over 18 please)
I believe with 100% seriousness that Io needs serious help, help that while constantly yelling at others to get, Io avoids.
Now is Moth's screenshots the entire story? No, but there will be more on that later.
Io would constantly preach about others getting help mentally but would refuse to do the same for themself. When Moth would beg Io to seek help, it was ignored. If anyone that Io didn't like had a mental issue it was Io's weapon against them. Io would constantly use my own disorder against me (BPD) as an excuse to hate me. Everytime that I felt the need to hurt myself or attempt suicide it was used as a weapon.
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Now I will admit, in 2021 I had my issues as well. I was not a good person, I was not good mentally, I was not good physically. I was abusing alcohol and in and out of homes on the verge of homelessness.
I was not good, I never said I was. Have I grown as a person now in 2022, yes, I believe I'm a better person now surrounded by better people and getting perfessional help.
I will say it again, I was an awful person in 2021, abusing anything I could get my hands on. Io had ever right to be upset with me for how I was acting but Io did not have the right to say I was lying about my experiences.
Io was aware of my experience with therapists and the abuse I've been under through multiple therapists. When someone has been constantly hurt and harassed by, of course I'm gonna be scared to go to another one. While now I'm with a good therapist before I was terrfified to be hurt again so of course I was gonna be hestitant.
If you tell a child for years that if they touch water they will drown, when they actually have to go in water they aren't gonna jump straight in. Bad example but hey it works.
I do suffer with borderline personality disorder (BPD), yes I have a disconnect to others but it doesn't mean I'm a total sociopath like Io likes to make it seem like I am.
I would post the rest of what Io said in the end message but it was just more of them yelling at me and calling me an awful person and I think that was already brought up enough.
While Io says they are begging others to get help, they constantly refuse it themself. There are serious serious issues with Io that I seriously wish they got help with but alas, they refuse to. Io abuses the power they have over people. I was planning to make this post earlier but I wanted to wait till Io was gone to say anything purely out of fear. I was terrified of Io.
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Io seems to be a pathological liar. Io has claimed things against people that were just completely untrue or making a situation seem way worse than it was purely from making lies.
As some may know, I had both a sfw and a nsfw account. The nsfw account was purely an 18+ account and none of my mutuals on the sfw were to interact with that account. Issue was that Io made up complete lies with that part to make me look bad that I was having minors in nsfw spaces.
This was not true, Io showed a screenshot of a minor reacting to a post of mine that was on the sfw account which allowed minors and claimed that I was letting a minor in an nsfw space with little to no evidence.
Io also shows signs of dangerous behavior, going as far as to dox people! Moth, Io's former partner, shared much personal information about Moth on an account of over 600 people without Moth's permission, this is doxing.
Io also shows signs of obsessive behavior, blocking people just to unblock them to stalk them and block them again. By blocking someone you are setting a boundry with that person, when you abuse that blocking system that is purely disrespectful.
Io also has a history of straight up insult and dehumanizing people. Calling some of the people that don't agree with Io mentally challenged.
Look it's already well known by almost anyone that was around and following Io that Io is an attention drama slut. Io will look for any kind of drama that they can worm themself into because that's all they know. All they know is hate and they can't stand if the attention isn't on them for more than a second.
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Avoiding Resposibility
Io has a repeated act of avoiding resposibility for their actions. If something happens that Io doesn't like or someone calls them out, Io will simply make a post on tumblr lying about them making a situation seem worse and pull a pity party on their account making their white knights of followers come to their rescue and harass said person the post was made about.
Io has admitted to going to therapy, do I support this? Yes absolutely, get the help you need. But Io has also admitted to straight up lying to their therapist. This is not how you get help! Therapists are there to help you and do their best to get you back to a stable mindset. By lying to your therapist you are just harming yourself more and making you look more like a victim.
Look I completely understand that something like responsibility can be overwhelming, especially online because people online are just bitches but you still have to. No one is gonna hold you hand and do everything for you, Io is an adult yet is acting like a child who didn't get their way.
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A Word Of Note
Now I'm just gonna get this out of the way now, don't go harass Io. That's not what this post is about. This post is simply me wanting to put past in past.
Io if you are reading this somehow, please please get help. Stop lying to your therapist, its not gonna help you. You also cannot use your mental illness as an excuse, as someone who used to do this, it's so unhealthy and needs to stop, its purely a way to manipulate and guilt trip.
I truly do wish the best for Io and I want Io to get help, but if Io keeps refusing the help that they need, there's not much I can do.
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Anyway this account is dead and I won't be replying to any asks about this situation on this account or my new account @luvlieswriting
Well I knew this day would come, did I think it'd be this soon? Not at all but we're here so I guess its happening. I could do something really sappy and tag everyone that's made me happy but fuck it, if they see this they see it, if they don't then they don't.
If you see this, there's about a 50% chance I'm dead, but hey there's that other 50% that maybe I'm not, not like many would care. I never should have been born, I've known that since I was a fucking kid, I just kept delaying this time.
If you want the story to why I'm doing what I'm doing, its honestly pretty simple; I tried to get better, turns out that's really fucking hard and I've already had all the people I've cared about either walk out or fucking hate me so what's even the point of getting sober? There isn't one.
Just waiting till my mum makes a facebook post being like 'my baby is dead, I was such an amazing mother, I have no clue why' as if there's any kind of truth to those words.
I'm not gonna fucking sugarcoat this because I tried that before and got in more shit. I'm an absolute fuck up, I'm honestly shocked I'm not either in a fucking mental hospital or in a grave yet. People keep telling me to get better and that I can get better. I fucking can't, I've fucking tried for 20 years and I'm at the same spot, just know how to hide it more.
I wish I never joined tumblr honestly, however I think if I never joined tumblr, I would have ended up in an ally dead somewhere. I kept delaying this time because I didn't want my brother to be alone, I didn't want to disappoint my friends, or make my girlfriend be alone. But I think its for the best now that that happens.
Here's some Hyde trivia for you. When I was about 8-9 i was OBSESSED with the paranormal. And I had a Boston terrier. And he would sleep with me every night. But because of my paranoia I would only let my feet go as far down as he was. So if he was snuggled by my chest, I was in the fetal position and would not move. This was my Max!
Somehow hate posts about Beastars keeps popping up in my timeline whining about "They fucking replaced racism with animals" or some shit and here's my problem
Detroit Become Human did exactly that with robots but that game is still getting praised. Y'all just ignore it because you wanna fuck Connor and Markus or whatever.
Beastars might have it's flaws but y'all are over ex-fucking-aggerating with the hate over it, it's just animals with human emotions with animal characteristics with their own world problems. At least it didn't take everything from the civil rights and slave movement, replace it with robots, had an underground railroad to Canada and then had the robots sing a negro spiritual at the end, while the creator of the game tried to deny that the game was based on the civil rights movement.
Just say that you hate that Beastars is a "furry" anime and go.
