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benjamin, he/him, 22, tentative artist ☆ please do not repost my art without permission ☆ commissions: hiatus MIXTAPE PROJECT F.A.Q

[noej]

Hi. My father passed away in september, and I've been struggling with mental health and recently the medication that I'm taking is giving me the strenght I need to pull myself out of the mess that I have been during the whole entirety of 2017. For those of you who stuck by, thank you. I'll return soon.

[noej]

update on my health: im taking baby steps towards stability. here's vmin in my yokai AU in which Jimin and Jungkook are humans and the rest of bts are demons. I'll throw in a few more concepts as they get done.

[withjiminie]

have u seen my new icon??? it’s so freaking cute i’m in love (●´∀｀●)

thanks @noej for this commission!!

[noej]

Thank you for commissioning me! I'm very much in need and I appreciated it!

[withjiminie]

the adventures of polar bear hybrid!jimin (ó㉨ò)  pt2/?  

One very hot summer day, you come back home to Jimin taking a cold bath with ice cubes in your tub

you: “uhm”

jm: *pouting* “it’s hot today”

you: “…lucky you i bought ice cream”

jm: :D

[withjiminie]

super cute illustration by @noej  ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

[noej]

hello, I'm so sorry to hear you've been having such a difficult time. Just wanted to remind you what a talented cool person you are. I hope you can get the help you need to recover and regain your strength over time. Please be kind to yourself and know that we all support you!

These messages really power me up through the day. I can definitely say that if things go well perhaps most of my problems are gonna be solved. I thank all your good vibes and wishes, they must be working because the winds seem to be blowing back on my favor. I love all of you, thank you so very much.

[simplyfakies]

👑 Heavy lies the crown: On us & on them. It’s not a burden, more of a blessing.  Your weight is our weight.

[noej]

Quickfire commission batch from twitter! I'm getting money and I might have my laptop back very soon. Within this week regular commission slots will be available. Thank you for your constant support!

[bangtan]

[noej]

BTS x NITW, a game that hits really close to home.

[noej]

Hey sorry you're not at your best, your well-being is the most important thing. Everyone hits the bottom of the metaphorical hills of life sometimes. I hope you will be able to find connection with music, art whatever it is that normally would make you tick. Sometimes you just don't feel like doing anything and that's ok. Not that i want you to be down :/ anyways try to have a good weekend bud. Hope it's good weather where youre at.

Hey. It's slightly cold here, but I enjoy cold weather. I'm getting out of this situation one way or another, and I really appreciate this message, as well as you who thought of me fondly enough to send it. I'll get through this. Thank you.

[noej]

hey, ben. i hope you're doing well. please don't forget that i'm always here if you need me..

Thank you for your wishes. I'm a blabbermouth when I can, but for now I'll reserve myself to saying thank you. I have no ways to express my gratitude over everyone who's sharing good thoughts and worrying about me.

[noej]

Hey are there any updates on the mixtape fanbook project you had like last year?

Hello.The laptop I used for digital art had a problem with the motherboard, which is fried and useless and with it, all of my on going projects that were nearly finished. That includes the Mixtape project, which has been a thing that made me isolate myself and coward in fear of being hated, but I need to come clean with it. I had severe mental illnesses as of the late 2016 and up until May I had not being diagnosed because my mother has chosen to conceal the information that I had access to a psychiatrist all along and did not have to pay a fee, because she is abusive in many ways and this is another one of them. When I started getting treated by my own volition, I felt somewhat better and up to finishing the project. During finishing touches, the tragedy happened with my macbook, and with it, all my progress down the drain. Nonetheless, I will work hard to recover my gear, although it’s a very expensive fee to pay where I live (Brazil) and it might not be immediate. I was so close to getting it done and I felt so hopeful, but I’ll try to not lose grasp of that hope.

If you have donated to the project and want to know where your money is, DM me or e-mail me whichever way you’d prefer to contact me, and I’ll show you that the income for the project is untouched, on the paypal account that has been reserved for the project only, and it has no outgoing history, as I’ve preserved the money only and solely for this project. I am sorry for all the problems I have caused, and I hope to actually finish this and honor everyone that has worked together to make it happen. I will honor everyone that helped me. I am truly sorry.

[noej]

Sorry that I disappeared please take this minjoon where Jimin thinks he's a big boy but he just a pupper as an apology. I'm working on my mental health. I'll be back as soon as I can with updates. If you wanna catch up w me I'm active on twitter for now.

[noej]

"u look like a koreaboo but youre super beautiful tho" Was that supposed to be a compliment or an insult? :/ wtf..

SAME I’M CONFUSED STILL

[snapchattingyoonkook]

“Nevermind, I’ll find someone like” “Jungkook we’re dating, Don’t fin–” “SOMEONE LIKE YOUUUU.”

[noej]

your art is so lovely and beautiful to look at 💕💕💖💖💗💗💗 thank you for making your art and sharing it with us!!

Hey! Thanks and sorry for the lack of art in here. I’ll use you a lil bit to ramble and apologize.

Recently it’s like I’ve hit a wall. My creativity seems to be running thin and everything that I actually make looks bad to me. Not just drawings, but texts and music. I feel like I can’t connect to anything and I have a bunch of undesired feelings popping up on my head from time to time, which is why I am taking a short break from art and posting. It’s a bit late to inform everyone this when I haven’t posted something in weeks. Either way, thank you for sticking with me. I’ll try my best to recover and come back from this slump as good as new, or even better.

Thank you.

[noej]

u look like a koreaboo but youre super beautiful tho

i still take offense on the first :/