update (27th april)
right now im not trying to do anything. im not trying to get into the void. but i want to understand what my true form is yk. idk i feel very detached to alot of things. so yesterday i was laying down then i started deeply thinking (not attempting for the void). i was just thinking about our life and why everyones life is diff how nothing makes sense and stuff like that.. i kept thinking then i started to float.. so i was like hmm this is my true form. i felt very light. it was a good relaxing feeling. then i wanted to see the color green and i did. then i kept switching to diff colors and i kept seeing the colors when i closed my eyes. and this never happened before idk what it is but it was very relaxing. There are so many things i wanna learn about our human body and mind so maybe ill look into that for now. there was a moment where everything went blank and all i could see was white and i was being pulled i think i was about to enter the void or it was the void idk. but again i got scared maybe i wasnt meant to enter yesterday and im completely okay because that wasnt even my goal. i feel relaxed and i want to feel detached i dont want to chase after anything or anyone yk.
update#2 (may 2)
so i did the same thing like i did last time. i just laid down for some time then i was idk i wasnt expecting to get in the void. i was shaking and moving but i still stayed in the position. then i again looked in the middle of my forehead. then i saw a little small space again. idk how to explain that. but i changed its color. i kept doing that then suddenly it all went white. i was lowkey scared because istg it feels like youre dying. but then i did it last time too so yesterday i pushed through that. i stayed there. It was so weird like i couldnt feel my body at all like i couldnt even feel myself breathing. i think this is the closest i have ever been to pure consciousness.
i just stayed there. it was all white. i dont think thats the void tho because i could still hear the youtube video that i was playing soo yeahhh.
I might try it again soon but i dont wanna exhaust myself.
Update#3 (may 3)
hmm same as yesterday i stayed there for longer but i didnt feel anyy progress so i left. i think i can enter the state easily now. expecially where your all body goes numb. i think i can do that under 10 mins easily. ill reasearch more on this.










