NOORthern Lights

This is me.                                                                                                     And I want this blog to be as random as me.

[noorthernlightz]

I hope one day I’ll be able to

think of you without breaking up,

speak of you,

without tearing up,

and forget about you

like you forgot me.

[noorthernlightz]

You used to be my best friend,

and honestly,

I want to say I still love you,

but these days,

your hugs feel cold in a warm room,

your stare feels icy in a desert,

and your words feel like icicles piercing against my skin.

Worst of all,

once upon a time,

I called you my best friend.

Goodbye, friend.

Goodbye my love.

They said goodbyes were never easy and they’re right.

Right now,

the only thing keeping me sane is this liquid in a bottle.

[noorthernlightz]

I want to hate you

but I love you,

I want so badly,

to turn a blind eye,

not a care in the world,

but oh boy,

baby boy,

I care,

so much,

too much.

teach me to hate you

so perhaps,

i just might not care so much.

[noorthernlightz]

I miss you baby

what will it take for you 

to take me back

to love me back

to hold me in your arms

once again 

like i’m yours

just once more

for this one night

baby

just this one time

would it kill you

for just this one time.

[noorthernlightz]

These days, I find happiness at the floor of a bottle.

I feel like a hypocrite,

preach so passionately against it,

yet the first to reach for it,

wanting so badly to hate it,

but finding it so easy to love it.

taste so foul,

yet the feeling so sweet,

and a flicker of life,

coming across eyes,

seemingly gone dead,

for just this moment,

I finally feel alive,

maybe truly alive,

so toxically alive,

once again.

[noorthernlightz]

JuSt KnOw YoU wIlL aLwAyS hAvE a PlAcE 2 cAlL hOmE wItH Me, AmOr

Right here,

in my arms,

there will always be a place

for you to call home

even when it feels like its been so long since you’ve long been home

even when it feels like we’ve been estranged

practically strangers at this point

right here

in my arms,

is a place called home

designated for yours truly.

I love you baby

even though you don’t love me 

in this moment right now

but maybe

just maybe

someday you will

and we will find our way back to eachother

and fit in eachother’s arms 

like the snug little puzzle pieces we once were

because that’s who you were to me

my special

one and only 

puzzle piece

my long lost puzzle piece

where have you been

too long its been

since you’ve fit so snugly back in my arms,

the very place,

that is your home,

come back home baby.

come back home.

[noorthernlightz]

Tonight,

As I sit here,

hunched over a store-bought dinner, 

alone,

I remember younger days,

y’know this meal,

would have been something of a luxury to younger me,

because you see,

I hail from a family,

where homemade was always the signature menu,

any question of “can I get this or that”

was always met by,

“we have better food at home.”

and tonight,

and many nights prior,

I think I’ve finally realized that,

it’s finally hit home,

the food is as a matter of fact better at home,

except I’m not home,

It’s actually been too long since I’ve been back home.

[noorthernlightz]

maybe one day you will look at me and realize that you weren't there for me as much as you lied to yourself and me that you were.

[noorthernlightz]

I don't think you'll ever really understand.

Sometimes I look up to the skies,

and wonder if the tables were turned,

would you do the same for me,

could you look me in the eyes

and tell me that in truth?

or would that be

another broken promise

hidden away

stuffed away in the books

a tale left untold

for another day

because let's face it

let's be real here,

if you and I are being honest,

you've put me in some comprising situations,

but instead of holding my hand through it all,

I learned to walk this path alone

all alone

the melody of silence rings in my ears

echoing through empty halls

and across barren fields

singing a song

where the chorus

boils down to three

me

myself

and

I

[noorthernlightz]

Love is dead to me

Rest in peace

or pieces I should say

I bury you today

the very notion of love is dead to me

non existent

extinct even

you lust for the warmth,

the touch of my body

for your fingertips to press into my flesh

but you don’t love me

and I knew that 

from the moment 

you left me with tears stinging my eyes,

the throes of heartbreak lullabying me to sleep.

[noorthernlightz]

Dear Tumblr

A reiteration but here goes nothing or something ...

in the eyes of the beholder kind of thing ... I guess ...

Anyhow ...

Dear Tumblr,

I've never been an avid Tumblr-er? (is that what it's even called?)

Although there was this phase in 2019

Oh 2019 ...

anyhow,

you might not know this Tumblr,

but hear this,

you've really helped me.

More than you know.

Even now,

2022,

here as I sit,

hunchbacked over a laptop I never really thought I would own,

in a structure I'm supposed to call home yet feel so estranged to,

you're helping me,

as you give me a glimpse of me.

Really me.

Who I used to be.

Who I am.

You see, Tumblr,

I've lost sight of her,

that girl I used to be,

erm- the girl I still am,

(gotta start correcting myself here)

(fake it til you make it kinda thing?)

for quite some time now.

You see, Tumblr,

life has led me down quite the rabbit hole

Some rabbit hole I tell you.

Maybe I will tell you about it.

Maybe I'll keep it under wraps.

Who knows?

Save it for another time.

Anyways, yeah,

the rabbit hole,

call me Alice in Wonderland now?

I just...

Tumblr,

I really needed this reminder,

so erm thank you.

'Til next time ...

Ta Ta

("Ta Ta"? Really? Who is she?)

[noorthernlightz]

This is a mood 😻.

[noorthernlightz]

The 3 Whisker-teers on TikTok

Uhh is he nursing? #cats #blackcat #fyp #foryou #kitten #meow #funny #lol

Follow me on my TikTok handle @noorthernlightz! All about my kitties! First video is featuring my 11 week old kitten, Zaytoon (means Olive in Arabic ;)

[bogleech]

Mountain Goats Are Being Airlifted Out of a National Park Because They Crave Human Pee

Their insatiable thirst for human urine is causing some problems

goats came for people’s piss in 2018 and tumblr slept on it??? what did tumblr care about more than rampaging piss goats???

[pyomorphic]

we were trying to prevent crave that mineral 2 from happening but thanks for dropping the ball

[namek-deactivated20190919]

they crave that peepee!

[toastpotent-deactivated20250619]

h,

[yeah-yeah-beebiss-1]

john darnielle callout post

[noorthernlightz]

So apparently the way to get a free helicopter ride is to crave pee ... hmm interesante 🤔

[disneyfeverdaily]

now, begin thy magic spell

[noorthernlightz]

Disney princess marathon in aisle 9, please?

[swankydesserts]

More adventures in Geode cakes and marbled marshmallow fondant.

[noorthernlightz]

YES. 💙

[noorthernlightz]

Kitten Takes Care Of Her Mom's Corpse | Animal in Crisis EP18

*Please hit the CC button for English subtitles* The kitten wants to stay with her mom forever... #KritterKlub Subscribe: goo.gl/dGz4TU Get

I promise you, you will cry after seeing this video. 😔💔