We choose the path we take and the life we live
(working at the office for World Cup 2014 Brazil at 9pm)
Sometimes we make bad decisions on the road to finding our purpose in life. We have our theoretical dreams to pursue but suddenly that too changes over time. We think we know who we are, what we want, and where to go but in reality, we're just as clueless as we were when we started. I've been working for a year now, at 22 you'd think I'd finally have a sure path to follow. What everybody doesn't know is, I wish someone would give me a road map.
I thought 2013 was the happiest time of my life. I graduated from college, found my soulmate, and got the perfect job I've always dreamed of. Then when 2014 rolled in, suddenly what I wanted last year isn't as perfect as I believed it to be. I left my old relationship because I've been denying myself the truth of how truly unhappy I was of our set up. I thought I was going to adjust to it someday but it hit me why was I the only one doing all the adjusting and sacrificing? Isn't a relationship all about compromising? I was laying down my own happiness for him and he trampled all over it. I was merely a prop in his life which he didn't really need.
And then I thought I loved my job but then the idea of being a businesswoman popped into my head. Being an entrepreneur meant I get to spend more time on myself while I let my money work for itself. So right now I'm torn between my dream job and the pull of instant riches.
Time really changes everything; our feelings, our desires, our priorities. Who would have thought that after I graduated from college I would shift my interests from law school to business. I'm all messed up as it is because I no long have a second voice (my ex) to help me make sense of it all. My dream in life used to revolve around the life I was going to build with my previous partner. We were that serious together. Then I changed, we both changed, and now that we're no longer an item my previous goals don't make sense anymore.
First thing is first though, if I want to succeed in this life time I need to define my real dreams clearly in order to commit to a plan on how to get there. There's a difference between being rich and being successful. Now I have to pick.
