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#1 dead wife enjoyer

[normcdf]

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hi im crab crabbunch. she/its + tme + white. some of the more regular stuff i talk about: ethoslab, tkmiz works, gintama, umineko, baseball, orv and flower- but i'm not super consistent. generally i like women and most of my characterposts are about girls. sakata gintoki is on thin fucking ice

art theft isn't real i don't care what anyone does with the stuff i post online and i wouldn't post it if i wasn't aware that it could get fed to ai/traced/reposted/whatever. pfps are also fine i suppose. don't ask me if you can use my stuff the answer is the right click button of your mouse and out of my hands

evil sideblog is @/nohara-rin-dot-mp3/ to quarantine naruto posting. i don't have a discord but feel free to send me asks/dms/whatever on tumblr. my fics are on ao3

i don't tag posts consistently, please don't ask me to, i will forget. sometimes i reblog/post nsfw stuff.

[normcdf]

i gotta say "help me reach this engagement benchmark so i can win this bet with my wife and have awesome lesbian sex" is one of the more awesome authors note that remind you to like bookmart and comment. that i have ever seen.

[fiore-firelily]

while I am talking to you about something gay and stupid a mosquito lands on my arm and sucks all my blood out in an instant, swelling to the size of a person as my remains flutter cartoonishly down to the ground, and it continues the conversation where I left off in a high pitched approximation of my voice

[tempotempura]

girl with absolutely no secrets whatsoever

[etirabys]

must feel good as hell to be sat down for a private conversation with a famous detective who lays out how & why you killed all those people, after years of concealing lethally curdled resentment

they understand why the indignities drove you to kill, even when those closest to you never saw it

[azdoine]

#umineko is about wanting this so so so so bad and everyone around you being too god damn stupid to give it to you

[normcdf]

i'm not really happy when good things happen to me but i'm not really upset when bad things happen to me generally my mind is empty and in a sort of zen like state but i do enjoy consuming media so overall the things i experience leave me with a positive feeling. so yes i would say i'm as"happy as a clam"

[tomorrowillbeyou]

ethical monogamy has never been practiced

[augerer]

su and ran flop queens of being in a psychosexual throuple situation with the ghost of a girl who didn't think about them that much and wasn't even gay.... maybe even not autistic

[lesbianboyfriend]

ransu is the best relationship ever what if you were so obsessed with your best friend you stole her body and identity and then someone else who was also obsessed with her noticed and called you out and told you you were disgusting and evil so together you spent years trying to get your best friend’s original self back but along the way the other girl grew to care way more about you than the original but you resented her for not still hating you for what you did because in fact you made it obvious you weren’t the original on purpose to make someone hate you so you could use them for your absolution but also you grew to care about her as well and so you equally hate yourself for using her in that way as much as you resent her for not letting you do it fully. and then also you got stuck in a crazy time loop + other stuff but that part isn’t super relevant to this. and you were both GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[tempotempura]

[normcdf]

flower spoilers

i like that. you can compare the two times su was taken advantage of sexually and learn things about the way she reacts to these sorts of things. with neferuaten, especially in the earlier introduction chapters, su both downplays the severity of the harm she experienced and emphasizes her culpability in the matter. she was mature for her age, she knew what she was getting into, and it wasn't ever that serious anyways... it's really interesting to see her allowing herself to be upset about this in the dillium chaptesr now. and then with ■■■■■, su barely even alludes to the possibility. <- i mean i think as a read it's very very easy to connect the dots 4 that but like. su skips over the entire time period where it would have occurred with "and then some unpleasant things happened". in the section where she is digging into her own wounds and being as honest and thorough as she's ever been in the whole thing!!!! and you get it, because like, ■■■■■ assaulting his granddaughter is easier to . rationalize as not su's fault i think. and su kind of needs everything to be her fault at this point? she is obsessed with her own culpability. because if it's her fault, then she needs to atone. and then the reason she wasn't happy was because she was Evil. so when her teacher took advantage of her, it wasn't really that at all, because su was an adult, and the age gap wasn't a problem, and the power difference wasn't important, and it wasn't serious and it didn't hurt her. and when she has been hurt in an unjustifiable way, she doesn't think about it at all. and we kind of see that reflected in the rest of the way she talks about her past.... killing shiko (although. lol. if the memories are still there .... isn't it more of a merge. ..... well whatever<3 i'm excited to see if we get into this though. off topic) and the whole process of that. she doesn't seem to push much blame onto like. samium. or ■■■■■. for going through with the whole thing also. and very much does not use her incredibly poor mental state at the time as an excuse at all. she wants control..... and going into dillium . it does seem on some level that she is disgusted by this part of herself. well no actually even at the very start of things she's beginning to dislike what it's doing to ran. <- how much do we think ran knew by the end.... OFF TOPIC!!! sorry. and also su as a person likes to think of herself as rational so she has to drop the coping mechanism that makes her irrational. and by dillium she's leaning into this more............. she's not doing better per se but she's even more self-aware about her self-centeredness and constantly bad talking herself. for bad talking herself. awwww she's realized that hating herself makes her kind of unpleasant to be around except actually she's known this since the start. she just unlocked another axis of things. cute. i hope she keeps identifying her maldaptive coping mechanisms and then getting mad at herself for having them and then not actually improving herself in any ways. i like how she picks up the most obvious things she was downplaying and stops it with that. but does not stop downplaying new things. probably she will realize this later and then get upset. i like how her discomfort with being the main culprit behind the murders contrasts with all of this too. #girl are you complex because. different reactions to different situations. there is no point to this post. i like utsushikome :)

[normcdf]

it's soooo cute when utsushikome says things like "i feel like an intruder in my own body." correct😊.

[gumi-megpoidd]

so what you need to do is craft a second personality, ideally in some roleplaying scenario to get a better idea of them. then you gotta commit ego death, and subsume that second personality over your dead one. thats how you can get over everything

[normcdf]

some microgames i've played and enjoyed recently. all of these took me under half an hour to play, and all of them can be played in browser.

last seen online is a digital escape room and it's sooooo fun. i think the story is actually really compelling, and delivered in an interesting way, and the puzzles were a ton of fun. very inventive in design and captures a good atmosphere.

Tama-Get-Out is a very short (like five minutes) puzzle game in which you are a tamagotchi trying to escape your egg. very clever and cute!

It is as if you were making love is a game where you jerk off your computer by moving along a slider. i like this one a lot for its extremely abstract eroticism.

TOC TOC is a puzzle game that is actually kind of super difficult. i did need hints for the last level... i think the atmosphere is cute and the ambiguity of its barebones story is very compelling. and the puzzles were a lot of fun.

15 Minutes is a walking simulator sort of game where the world is ending in 15 minutes, and you have to finish your bucket list before then. a lot of the story beats + dialogue are kind of cliche and rushed, but the graphics are so beautiful that i kinda don't even care. just a really really pretty game.

Crossing Lines is a driving simulator that really captures the feeling of long road trips. and also complicated sibling relationships. very fun dialogue, very very fun story beats that feel like you're just watching two real sisters instead of a story about them.

ICBM Program is the closest to VN, but you get to press some buttons too. you are a human brain that's been implanted into a nuke in order to function as a targeting system. it feels a little rushed to me but still very enjoyable.

[normcdf]

smart google speaker auto-censors songs when you play them. well i'm not surprised i guess but ew ew ew evil get me outta hereeee i miss my good friend . mp3 files :(. i gotta get out of here

[zettatoad]

USHIROMIYA BATTLER: Uwoooooh!!!!! It's useless!!!!! I can't figure out how this is possible!!!!!

ME, ALSO CAN'T FIGURE OUT HOW IT'S POSSIBLE: battler you are so fucking stupid get it together man

[normcdf]

it's a good movie because even the building blocks of the sister relationship + mother-daughter relationship make you want to claw your face off and die and live forever . because it's good.