Hello
Iāve been out of Tumblr for quite a while. The fanfic I was writing is on a long hiatus but thatās not the point of this post.
Iām russian and Iāve got used to write it without capital r.
Iām russian and Iāve already finally ok with the idea that my homeland that I used to love and hope for has never ever existed.
Iām russian and I donāt want to be one.
Despite that rockets are not flying over my head and I can say that physically Iām safe and sound, I cant say I am okay. Since the god forsaken date of February 24th when the war broke out all my dreams and plans have been shattering day by day, one after another. I donāt wanna be a victim here to make anyone who reads this to feel sorry for me. What I wanna say is that the old world that I used to live in is no more.
Before feb. 24th I believed - and I told my colleague from Odesa so - that the war would never happen, that pu**n is sane enough and greedy enough to not cross that line. Before that day I used to have a laugh with my another colleague from Kharkiv about the only āhot tourā for that son of a bitch would be to Hague and never to Kyiv or Kharkiv. Before that day I could tolerate my momās ranting about ākhohlyā or whatās happening ON Ukraine. (russians will understand)
Now itās all gone. In one heart beat.
Everything had changed, thereās no more semitones - only black and white colours.
My wife, my dogs and I are still deciding whether we should stay or go somewhere else - to other country. Personally on one hand I donāt wanna lose my job and donāt wanna be a part of a fascist country. On the other I donāt wanna be my country to be fascist.
I want to believe that every dictatorship ends and pu**nās russism is no exception. I want to believe that he himself will not die until he suffers all the consequences of what heād done. I want to believe that justice will take over for Ukrainian people, for all friends and relatives of MH17 victims, for relatives of Boris Nemtsov, Alexei Navalny, Anna Polytkovskay and for all people around the globe that has suffered from the hands of that tiny pathetic cockroach of man.
I guess this is the last place where I can express what I think and what I feel without being endangered. But I needed to say something, even as messy as the post above.
I believe that the righteous will beat the wicked.
Š”Š»Š°Š²Š° Š£ŠŗŃŠ°ŃŠ½Ń - Glory to Ukraine
ŠŃŠ²Šµ ŠŠµŠ»Š°ŃŃŃŃ - Long live Belarus
Š Š¾ŃŃŠøŃ Š±ŃŠ“ŠµŃ ŃŠ²Š¾Š±Š¾Š“Š½Š¾Š¹ - Russia will be free
