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TW : talk about mental health issues always available if you need to talk <3

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Anybody else just too tired to kts?😭

Like yes I wanna unalive rn, but maybe I’ll just sleep first

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Worst feeling ever is contacting the suicide hotline and them not having time

This has happened every single time

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Is this just my time to die??

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Worst feeling ever is contacting the suicide hotline and them not having time

This has happened every single time

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i’m really not sure on how to tell them i can’t hold on any longer. they helped me through so much, but it just feels like they don’t care anymore, but since they’ve helped me so much it just feels mean to let go, that they wasted their time on me

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i’m not sure i can do this anymore

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i just want to know what happened to the promise you made about always being there.

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I’m in the middle of a depressive downhill here, haven’t left my house for a while and haven’t showered, have eaten about 4 meals in a week and I’m really trying to reach out to my best friend but absolutely nothing is happening and I’m so scared that I’m suffocating them but I just need to feel loved, I just want to feel loved because that is the last shit I’m feeling right now. I’ve been crying A LOT because I am so afraid that they don’t like me anymore, and they’re the best thing I have, my absolute best friend and I’m just a liability to them and it FUCKING SUCKS. I’ll never be good enough, I don’t know what to do

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I need to stop putting so much love and effort into people who don’t do the same for me

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how do I tell them my shampoo and conditioner ran out at the same time?

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my problem rn is that the only two people I trust don’t care anymore

I don’t know what I’m going to do now

I have never felt this alone

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I don’t want to feel like a burden anymore

I don’t want to feel as though my entire existence is a burden to my best friend, and those around me

I don’t want to feel the constant anxiety of not being enough, or being too much

I don’t want to walk around on the verge of tears wondering why I am not loved, what I am doing wrong

I don’t want to feel like a burden anymore

[not-on-roses]

i knew it was getting bad again when I stopped talking to everyone except my two best friends

when eating and showering became a chore

when I could no longer look myself in the mirror without feeling guilt for eating that one cookie

when I felt that my existence became a burden to those around me

when I started feeling as though my best friend deserved better than me, and that they don’t like me anymore

when just staying in bed and looking at the empty wall in front of me became comfort

when I started feeling more like an obstacle than a person

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my fear of annoying people has come to the point where I don’t tell my best friend that I went to the ER because I didn’t want to burden them during their vacation.

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the worst feeling is feeling annoying towards the only person you want to talk to.

you feel like your entire world in caving in and you feel like you’re annoying the only person you want comfort from