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555 ｡°✩ “You’re beautiful and I’m insane” ✩ Theater kid ✩ Multifandom✩ ✩queer

[notar1ana]

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[maxrowave]

amir portrait study

After realising I'd only properly drawn his face two or so times, i fell to my knees and had to correct that mistake. It's heavily implied he's looking at Jean Loo because .... im the artist and my intention is that.

[by-ilmater]

what you see: haha funney dating sim where you can fuck the furniture!

what you get: loving explorations of things like adhd, alcoholism, ocd, chronic illness, body dysmorphia, toxic relationships, the evils of capitalism and ai. brennan lee mulligan is there

[h4mmiee]

i am normal and can be trusted around electrical equipment

[notar1ana]

Im back and even weirder. Im still obsessed with Broadway and falsettos ofc but I discovered date everything…

[transmascmarypoppins]

why is this post completely broken in every way imaginable

[cecilsrandomeverything]

Broken notes… deactivated account… removed image….

Finally, we have them all.

[spacefinch]

In addition: OP’s name is just… gone. No “[insert username]-deactivated[insert a bunch of numbers]” as is the standard for deactivated blogs.

Just the world “deactivated.” Look upon their post, ye mighty, and despair.

[chatblancofficial]

It’ll be almost impossible to find this post unless it wanders across your dash.

[phierecycled]

i need to find a falsettos fan who know how to compose/orchestrate so they can make me a hypothetical falsettos overture

[bottlecapheek]

Marvin is not a good man by any stretch, but he was in a difficult position for a man in the 70s.

His internalized homophobia was too strong to fully commit to leaving Trina and being with Whizzer, whatever that would have meant to him at the time, but his ego was too big to not have Whizzer. He truly thought that society and his own "perversion" be damned, he would make it work because why shouldn't he have everything he wants? Why shouldn't he have his tight-knit family with his lover, wife, and son all at once if that's what he wanted?

Obviously, it all fell apart. Marvin's own narcissism put his loved ones in a position they never should have been in.

How could Trina as a stay-at-home wife and mother struggling to find meaning cope with the fact that she had been effectively reduced to a maid? Her husband was receiving affection and sex from elsewhere, her son preferred to be alone, and the physical manifestation of her dehumanization was living in her basement and fucking her husband.

Whizzer, despite feeling real love for Marvin, couldn't keep subjecting himself to Marvin's games. He wanted a wife, which he had, but he insisted on Whizzer filling that role. He wanted a friend and a fellow man to hang out with, but being so close with another man was off the table to Marvin so Whizzer was stuck. Living in his lover's basement, somehow in the middle of but also absent for every family disagreement. Forcefully pushed into a feminine box because Marvin didn't want to see him as more than some fag rather than an actual romantic prospect.

Once the 80s rolls around and there is slightly les stigma around queerness, without anything else to do, Marvin lives the life of a normal gay man. He makes other queer friends, he visits his son, he's not so hateful toward himself.

And after all this self reflection and personal acceptance, Whizzer comes back. The man who had represented everything Marvin wished he could be and who he wanted to throw everything away for but couldn't bring himself to do so at the time. Whizzer is Marvin's family, he's a father figure to Jason. He remembers why he so desperately wished he wasn't in love with him those years ago.

Marvin shows Whizzer the most true affection when he is on his death bed. Rather than fear catching his disease or the judgment of hospital staff, he clings onto the love of this life and can't help but wonder if this all wouldn't have happened if he hadn't been so afraid.

[notar1ana]

HELP WITH RIZZ 💗

So basically there’s this girl who I really like. We talk almost every day over text and irl. She’s really pretty but idk if she likes me back at all. I do know she’s a lesbian though so there’s another point for me.

So what happened is that we were really good friends last year but the group chat we were in got dry so we stopped texting for like 5 months. Then, randomly one day during rehearsal, even though I’m an actor and she was up in the tech booth, she complimented me on my outfit by TEXTING ME. But she said it in the way of “Ariana this is creepy but, your outfit is so cute! I need a jumpsuit like that.”

I just have a really hard time talking to people who I’m not fully comfortable with and because I’m autistic I tend to stutter a lot and not make eye contact. I also just don’t know how to keep a conversation flowing naturally and keep it interesting with people who I’m not fully comfortable around. (Really the only reason why she makes me uncomfortable is because I like her.) We have a TON of similar interests. We both love Wes Anderson movies, Brokeback Mountain, but I’m a cheerleader, dad rock, the whole twee aesthetic, and more. I just don’t know how to be “nonchalant” about stuff when I feel like whenever I talk I get way to bubbly and invested way too fast in whatever the topic is.

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Why I’m scared to talk to her even tho it’s high key irrational: 

First, she’s not a theater kid. Well, she’s in tech crew in theater so by definition she is a theater kid but she doesn’t like musicals. Which is fine I can live with that but musicals are like my BIG hyperfixation. Like I unironically cannot go 10 minutes without thinking about them. But I feel like most people with that mindset have only been exposed to mainstream musicals.

The thing is, she’s close friends with my ex which wouldn’t be a problem if that wasn’t my ex who started a terrible false rumor about me about 3 years ago after we broke up that ruined my life for 6 months. Yes, I do understand that was 3 years ago but idk if she’s the type of person to hold grudges or not. I mean a lot of my friends are friends with my ex because she’s a good person, they’ve just never got on her bad side like I have. I’m fully open to having an acquaintanceship or friendship with my ex if she isnt mad at me anymore because im not mad at her anymore. 

[jordanbackupsoc]

Never understood what “hell week” meant until now 😭

[thepigeonsart]

Rest in peace random dude eponine exchanged her clothes with, you would had loved ru paul’s drag race

[ohmylaurrd]

RANKING FREAKINESS OF AMIS+MARIUS FROM TOE LICKER TO BITCHLESS VIRGIN

1. Joly👅🦶

2. Courfeyrac

3. Grantaire

4. Bahorel

5. Bossuet

6. Combeferre

7. Feuilly

8. Jehan

9. Marius

10. Enjolras

[notar1ana]

Whatever’s keeping this fandom alive ig 🥀

ALSO WHY IS GRANTAIRE AT 3

[batcount27]

Best advice

[euphraisette]

God I need Cosette to be WEIRD. and not “teehee cutesy quirky adorkable” weird. Like WEIRD weird. like actual awkward unfiltered weird. like talks to herself out loud and says inappropriate things without realizing it bc she thinks it’s funny and pretends to be a mouse in the attic and creates mazes out of string in the basement weird.

[asherlookit]

“…Progress has no time to lose.”

[notar1ana]

Enjolras is such a queer icon we need more gay characters who are active members in revolutions

[sewer-daddy-erik]

I could make a whole series about the Easter eggs in the recent Masquerade NYC newspapers, but did anyone else catch this little nod to Raoul’s future gambling addiction?

[notar1ana]

LETS GO GAMBLING 🗣️🥶

[elephantsatsea]

trying not to care about this man who marvin loves but that's my life he SHARED MY LIFE YES THAT'S MMMYYYY LIIIIFFFEEEEEEE

[notar1ana]

“He shared my life” ALWAYS KILLS ME