a dog they've yet to put down

20 | she/her | self-loathing autistic

[nothingd0ll]

you don't need to know my name.

i come here to vent my frustrations.

i don't expect to gain a following, but nearly anyone is free to interact. i am a very non-judgmental person (unless you deserve shunning)

trigger warnings below the cut

TW for depression, social anxiety, body imagine issues, past sexual abuse/grooming, possible (but undiagnosed bc i'm poor) BPD, C-PTSD and Bipolar. i will also be talking about my autistic experience and issues that are specific to us.

if any of that upsets you to hear about, pls take care of yourself by not interacting<3

[girl-rotting-xoxo]

[imp-deactivated20171219-deactiv]

when people say my name im like.   cant believe i exist

[cigsinanashtray]

incapable of forming real connections because i think i'm annoying if i reach out!

[nothingd0ll]

does anyone else think recovery is complete bullshit?

like not in general, just for me.

[badtundra]

as my final act of love, i’ll stop bothering you.

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Like I really hate how doing something "for attention" gets portrayed as something that only reflects badly on the person who eventually acts out in their distress instead of something that reflects badly on the people who clearly failed to make this person feel seen and supported

[nothingd0ll]

i'm not good at this human thing.

[eymurn]

Don’t let your empathy be greater than your self respect.

[nothingd0ll]

i feel like such a lazy piece of shit. i don't do anything with my life, and i have almost no desire to.

[nothingd0ll]

i have overcome too much to have my progress stripped away from me by that repugnant little man.

[nothingd0ll]

this is actually okay . i wasn't mentally stable to begin with so i have nothing to lose

[nothingd0ll]

so um... one of my groomers just commented on my public story after three years of not talking. he was just like 'nice to see you're doing alright' lmfaoo i thought i blocked him

[nothingd0ll]

[nothingd0ll]

Pride isn't over, we just won't be in walmart anymore.

[nothingd0ll]

i don't want to go anywhere for Canada Day because i already know those weirdos will be celebrating the end of june😪

[nothingd0ll]

the song that played in my head as i awoke today: SPITE ALONE HOLDS ME ALOFT by Lingua Ignota💝