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I feel like reseting my life

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potatoes

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don't you hate it when your best friend starts talking about their best friend in front of you?

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me, dumping even more chocolate chips into my already with chocolate cereal: i'm overweight anyway and nothing in life matters. I'm gonna enjoy my fucking cereals

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Me: I'm gonna wear black jeans (the usual) and dark blue sweater because I know it suits me and it's comfy and I have nail polish and earrings that match it

My brain: we gonna be emo

Me: Not what I'm going for. I just think it suits me

My brain: E M O

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I became too clingy again.

I promised myself that I won't do it again. I promised that yeah, my friends have their lives and they don't have to attend to me 24/7, and I won't expect them to. I won't be hurt when they won't reply to my texts.

It didn't work out.

I became attached again and I didn't even realized. Hell, I haven't realized for months now. And now it caught me up.

It was my mistake. I should've known better. I should've known that I can't get myself attached to someone and think that they would not mind or get tired of me.

And now here I am. Feeling empty again. Listening to the same song on repeat and trying to cry the pain created by my own stupidity and naivity out.

I'm not going to cry. It's too late to cry over the spilled milk and tears don't really come anymore. They left. Along with my clinginess to other people. It only brings pain.

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Friends always ask me about my favourite TV series, movies, books or music. Is it only me who is really closed off about this? I have no idea how to be honest and open about these things.

It's just something too close to me and I really, really don't want to be judged. Those few times I've shared some of these, people always judged me for it, laughed at it, or said something bad about it that I remembered every time I wanted to play/watch/read the thing again. It always ruined my relationship to that thing.

And now I just don't share. I've created a version of myself made of things that people around me never judged, and showed them only that.

I'm stuck in a loop of not telling people things, because I don't trust them not to laugh at it or judge me for it, or think differently of me for it.

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A friend of mine when her boyfriend sent her a give for their anniversary: Bro, it came late but I still love you.

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Well... first month of school behind me and I'm fearing of what comes next as my grades are too perfect to be true...

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My friend's t-shirt: BELIEVE IN YOUR DREAMS

My sleep deprived brain: SLEEVE IN YOUR OREOS

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Anybody else who just doesn't belong to any social group but belongs to all of them at the same time?

For example, in my class, there are a few groups of people that have the same interests and stuff. I talk to all the people in the groups on daily basis at the same level: like one of their group. However, in the end, it's obvious that I'm just not a part of that said group or any group in particular.

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Teaching trigonometry at high school must be a sin.

Trigonometry? More like triGTFOmetry.

I wanna be triGONEmetry.

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Yeah... studying for trigonometry exam from Maths can be hard... :|

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Am I overprotective or am I just scared of abandonment?

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Today at school

My friend: Oh maaan, that man has the new sinks for the hot water repair.

Me: Hot dam!

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I realize the absolute cringe of this terrible pun. It's not even funny :|

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I'm the kind of person who gets overly attached to other people. Not in a weird way, of course (I hope).

It's just the constant fear of losing a friend and immense jealousy when the friend is going out with other people.

Is there anyone else who has the same problem on a daily basis?

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I was at school for literal 3 days and I'm on the verge of mental breakdown. It's Sunday afternoon and I'm not rested at all. Hmm...

This school year looks promising :)

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Another Day in the Life od One Fucking Moron of Me :|

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Yesterday, my friend came out to me and my other friend. He was quite surprised by how well we took it.

Like... sorry, mate, but does you being gay change our friendship? No.

Do I care? No. I don't care if you like girls, boys, or a fucking goldfish!

You're my friend, not a boyfriend. It's not my business if you're that, or that, or that.

But yeah, now we can talk about guys without it being awkward ;)

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I think I'll call this Another Day in the Life of One Fucking Moron of Me :|

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Me: I don't care how many people congratulate me on my birthday.

Also me:*crying on the inside* Why is it every year less and less?

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Yeah, I have birthday. No, I don't care if you say something. :|